Bro please know that this pain will some day lessen. I can only imagine how you must be feeling right now, but you have to be strong for yourself, and the loved ones around you. If you need anything at all... just don't shut yourself out. Know that everyone here will be there for you. I am deeply sorry for your loss.
I'm really sorry for your loss. It's hard to imagine what it feels like, because I haven't lost anyone very important to me yet. Elite is a good place to speak your mind, whatever is on it. Stay strong.