Living with Bi Polar and NOT taking meds

[New Jack]

Well...

Hey Happy, how are the orderly's in that place. I hear they can be assholes.

Also, when I get pissed on a manic episode, it's like I'm in another world. I am dead serious, I would fight a grizzly bear without thinking twice when I'm in a manic phase. I think I can take anyone. The same way I bring a girl home from the bar and give her oral sex and fuck her raw without thinking twice. Dangerous. I think the next day. WHAT THE FUCK WAS I THINKING!!!!

Hey, Happy, if this isn't too personal to ask, did you really want to kill yourself or was it just a cry for help? And if you really did try, what in life could be so bad that you would try to end your own life?

 

[HappyScrappy]

NJ - I was very serious about it, just fucked it up and lived. wasn't very good at it. as for why - try living in Rochester NY for 5 years and you'll see. well, that and I was diagnosed with some level of depression - I want to say severe, but it comes and goes.

as for the orderlies, I don't recall any issues with them, other than the dudes were pretty big. I wasn't in a mental institution though, was just in the psych ward of a hospital - so perhaps at a real institution they are worse - don't know.

 

[casavant]

Re: Re: Well I'll be damned...

attempted suicide.
there were three of us there that were roughly the same age that all tried to kill ourselves and we'd all sort of huddle in the corner and watch everyone else.

the floor above us was where they sent the serial killers, and they had 4 up there. Rochester NY for awhile had the highest serial killer/normal population ratio in the country.

Ah, I see. I was just curious. Hopefully things are better these days.

 

[HappyScrappy]

Re: Re: Re: Well I'll be damned...

Ah, I see. I was just curious. Hopefully things are better these days.

thanks

yeah, it comes and goes - doing AAS didn't help - one of the many reasons I stopped.
need to address the issues at hand and not just avoid them

 

[musclebrains]

5) there was a fat girl there with down syndrome that was a lesbian, but if she didn't take her medicine, she was a raving nymphomaniac. my first night there she came into my room and started rubbing me - I was scared out of my mind and didn't know what to do. I finally threw her aside and told the staff about her. they dragged her into her room, strapped her to her bed, and then sedated her. her room was right next to mine and it still gives me the chills hearing her screams as they tied her down. then she got back on her medication and she didn't remember any of that and was very happy when her lesbian girlfriend showed up to visit.


11) Rhonda had no teeth and would frequently take off her shirt and sprint around the common areas and the staff would chase her... that was always fun.

there are like a million more. I'm really glad I talked my way out of that place.

Are you sure you've left or just gotten better meds? I mean, the above sounds no different from your life now, does it?

 

[HappyScrappy]

Are you sure you've left or just gotten better meds? I mean, the above sounds no different from your life now, does it?

too funny, and so damn true.

the difference is, I can go outside more easily now and I'm allowed visitors on a more flexible schedule.
and no meds

 

[musclebrains]

I have two clients from Rochester, NY. Is it the water?

 

[HappyScrappy]

I have two clients from Rochester, NY. Is it the water?

could be - they have Xerox and Kodak, so the water is likely heavy metal... ish.

that and it is cold, grey, and depressing year round.
awesome.

 

[naturally anabolic]

i live roughly an hour from rochester....maybe its the area?

 

[special_bill]

happyscrappy's post was like casting pearls before swine...thanks for reminding me why i waste the governments money here....