Please Scroll Down to See Forums Below
napsgear
genezapharmateuticals
domestic-supply
puritysourcelabs
UGL OZ
UGFREAK
napsgeargenezapharmateuticals domestic-supplypuritysourcelabsUGL OZUGFREAK

is there something about yourself you hate?

saint808

Manic Depressed User
Platinum
and i don't mean physically... like a personality trait?


mine... i can't accept when good things happen to me. I fuck things up because i am comfortable in my misery. I'll keep my chin up tho... easier to put sthe shotgun under it that way.
 
I can't stand to be the center of anyone's attention. I get very nervy and feel somewhat trapped. I have been known to blow under these cirumstances. I have gotten better in dealing with this, however I wish I could handle this focus better in my life.
 
I'm too much of a helpful person for others. I seem to drop everything for the sake of helping others when all of my shit is left undone. I'm fiercely independent, also. I would rather do it myself than have to ask for help. Also, one more thing......if I was to borrow something from a friend or neighbor(tool, ladder or whatever) I always clean it up and make sure it looks better than the way it looked when I borrowed it. It's funny though, all my other friends that borrow shit from me, bring it back broke, dirty, nasty, or out of gas! Go figure!
 
I know it's good to be loving and forgiving but I tend to do so to the point where I let others walk all over me. I wish I wouldn't do that and would let myself feel more comfy with putting myself first.
 
I dont like being content

I have a stupid habit of fucking things up when I feel content because when I am content I feel I am not progressing in time

I can't help it and I have lost alot of friends and messed up potential relationships because I was afraid of being content and going nowhere

I find it difficult to live in-between:

failing <-----------------> winning

it has to be one or the other

basically it means i have absolutely no patience
 
Top Bottom