MarthaStewart
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I have this desire to go to a singles bar and hurt me something pretty.
I want to find a beautiful woman, sitting at the bar, contemplating her pathetic existance and trying to drown out her thoughts of suicide by applying more makeup and drinking her fruity mix of poison. She looks around, for a friend, for a lover, for anything to make her feel less alone at the moment. Anything to mask her feelings of uncomfortableness - she always gets them, so why does she still come every weekend. And she knows this will never work out.
I want to walk up to her with a smile on her face and my fist clenching my balls with my hand thrust deeply into my pocket. Sure it hurts, but it feels so good when I stop.
I want to act like I care about what she is rambling on about - I want to pretend I give a flying fuck about her pathetic job that she isn't even any good at. I want to pretend that I am the someone that gives a shit about her in a world full of heartless, self preserving bastards. I want to pretend like she and I are made for each other, like we are going to become entwined as one and be the all knowing, all feeling spirit of love that transcends all which is around us and makes us, for one breif moment, better than anything else before.
Then while she is busy, sipping on a drink from her frilly drink to help block the pain and sorrow of the daily drudgery of life, her pathetic life, I will reach out with my hand and press it against the soft flesh of her breast - it doesn't matter which one.
I will feel the soft push as I apply pressure, I will feel the edge of her fucking push up bra collapse I press harder, feeling her breast give under the weight of my hand - the wire bending with the pressure.
I will grab onto her fucking breast like it is my only hope, the hand that reaches out to save someone off the proverbial sinking ship that is our fucked life here on Earth.
I will grab harder and harder, as if it is the only thing in my life that has meaning, I will exert every ounce of energy into crushing that in my first - and then I will twist it, I will wrench my hand around at first and then spin my whole arm up and over my head - as if I'm working heavy machinery and I have to get the fucker to stop - I need the cutoff valve turned over or we all die. Just one more turn. One more.
And then, just when she thinks that she can't take it any more, I'll pull her towards me and punch her as hard as I can with my other balled up first, right in the gut - making her vomit her cocktail all over her handbag and the bar in front of her.
Through tear filled eyes she will look up at me, the air knocked out of her and trying desperately to gasp for life filling air - anything - and she will look into my eyes with a look that is so satisfying - "why, why... why?"
I will look back with the detached view of someone that has just felt pleasure that they rarely acheive, but with my own sadness knowing that now that I have reached it, it will be that much harder to find the next time I go there.
My hands will relax, letting her fall to a crumpled heap on the floor and my shoulders will drop, spent with the experience and knowing full well that the police will be here in any minute, and I need to gather my resources to either fight my way out, or go peacefully as they wish.
Although, come to think of it, I might just rent a movie and stay in tonight. I hear there is a new one with Hugh Grant that has some really precious moments in it.
I want to find a beautiful woman, sitting at the bar, contemplating her pathetic existance and trying to drown out her thoughts of suicide by applying more makeup and drinking her fruity mix of poison. She looks around, for a friend, for a lover, for anything to make her feel less alone at the moment. Anything to mask her feelings of uncomfortableness - she always gets them, so why does she still come every weekend. And she knows this will never work out.
I want to walk up to her with a smile on her face and my fist clenching my balls with my hand thrust deeply into my pocket. Sure it hurts, but it feels so good when I stop.
I want to act like I care about what she is rambling on about - I want to pretend I give a flying fuck about her pathetic job that she isn't even any good at. I want to pretend that I am the someone that gives a shit about her in a world full of heartless, self preserving bastards. I want to pretend like she and I are made for each other, like we are going to become entwined as one and be the all knowing, all feeling spirit of love that transcends all which is around us and makes us, for one breif moment, better than anything else before.
Then while she is busy, sipping on a drink from her frilly drink to help block the pain and sorrow of the daily drudgery of life, her pathetic life, I will reach out with my hand and press it against the soft flesh of her breast - it doesn't matter which one.
I will feel the soft push as I apply pressure, I will feel the edge of her fucking push up bra collapse I press harder, feeling her breast give under the weight of my hand - the wire bending with the pressure.
I will grab onto her fucking breast like it is my only hope, the hand that reaches out to save someone off the proverbial sinking ship that is our fucked life here on Earth.
I will grab harder and harder, as if it is the only thing in my life that has meaning, I will exert every ounce of energy into crushing that in my first - and then I will twist it, I will wrench my hand around at first and then spin my whole arm up and over my head - as if I'm working heavy machinery and I have to get the fucker to stop - I need the cutoff valve turned over or we all die. Just one more turn. One more.
And then, just when she thinks that she can't take it any more, I'll pull her towards me and punch her as hard as I can with my other balled up first, right in the gut - making her vomit her cocktail all over her handbag and the bar in front of her.
Through tear filled eyes she will look up at me, the air knocked out of her and trying desperately to gasp for life filling air - anything - and she will look into my eyes with a look that is so satisfying - "why, why... why?"
I will look back with the detached view of someone that has just felt pleasure that they rarely acheive, but with my own sadness knowing that now that I have reached it, it will be that much harder to find the next time I go there.
My hands will relax, letting her fall to a crumpled heap on the floor and my shoulders will drop, spent with the experience and knowing full well that the police will be here in any minute, and I need to gather my resources to either fight my way out, or go peacefully as they wish.
Although, come to think of it, I might just rent a movie and stay in tonight. I hear there is a new one with Hugh Grant that has some really precious moments in it.