How big a part of your life does steriods play?

[HighIntensity]

Well....

At this point in my life sadly they seem to be play a big part. I was a natty bodybuilder for 5 years so I know how to train natty. And while I was not a freak, nor ever happy with my size, I looked good for a natty bb. Steroids crossed my mind but I had a great GF at the time and felt there was no need to gain that edge. Of course after close to four years she cheated and left, I decided my only chance for survival through those heart wrenching days was to lift. My plan was to consume myself with fitness to avoid dealing with the pain.

Well after 4 months I determined that I wanted to transform myself, I wanted to be a super freak and hopefully find inner peace in my quest. Riods gave me a hobby; I read everything there was for three months strait. I consumed information about the drugs, half lives, preventing crashes ect. Then came my time to run my first cycle, I attempted to obtain some Dbol and EQ but the deal feel through. After that endeavor I determined that since summer was almost upon us I would just run tren. Well it turns out as most of you know I ran tren for 4 months.

For a while I was happy, getting noticed by others, freaky pumps and the excitement of a new hobby. Well now that my cycle is over and I want more, I am still lifting harder then ever but I want to inch closer to my goals. Some how I believe at 225 6% bf all the pain and feeling of loneliness will disappear. So these days I eat and sleep the “game” I sit and type out cycles just to plan something. I am not sure if this is good or not, but I can’t seem to find anything else as a solution to overcome these demons. Also don’t get me wrong I am a happy person, I smile daily and don’t plan on ever taking this so far that it kills me. But right now I feel it is one thing I can count on.

And yes I am on clomid

 

[P-CURLS]

well if your worried, look at the alternative. lifting is lifting whether your on juice or not!you could be like the millions of other folks who look for excuses to not keep themselves in shape.there is nothing wrong with constantly wanting to better your body. i personally wish their were more people like you, that are aware of their bodies and health. instead of saying ,"i dont lift weights because i dont like the big bulky look". fuck em!

 

[decem]

you won't be happy at 225 foolio. you won't be happy at 250. for size and quality of physique are not where true happiness lies. moreover, attaining such goals will not kill whatever demons might haunt you. for they are not to be found in the mirror. no. you have to look much deeper to find what they feed on.

 

[ZKaudio]

holy shit man.. my gf is the only thing that has kept me natty too =/... unfortunately we just broke up. It's hard to be motivated about anything and I could definitely see myself hitting the sauce in the near future whereas when I was w/ my chick I would have never even considered it.

 

[HighIntensity]

DEc em

good answer nugs but let me suggest that some of the demons come from insecurities pysically, such as not feeling large enough to aviod the pain of life...so perhaps ( I don't know the true answer) at 225 6% I will be able to come closer to an inner peace with this side of me.

Perhaps the change will create another transformation in my life and thus start a new chapter.

bigger n better

but I agree, there are many levels to work on

 

[HighIntensity]

holy shit man.. my gf is the only thing that has kept me natty too =/... unfortunately we just broke up. It's hard to be motivated about anything and I could definitely see myself hitting the sauce in the near future whereas when I was w/ my chick I would have never even considered it.

Sorry to hear the news brother

the main thing is that she left me for another guy (we were at different schools). I mean this girl was so loyal and then one day I find shes seeing a dude behind my back and a phone call that its over...a fuckin phone call from the girl I had planned on marrying in a year.

So that has left me feeling very Vulnerable and confused...a state of limbo...

oh and keep lifting it helps with the anger, depression and self esteem

 

[Arnold (and Willy)]

i understand that steroids can be a solution to the problem. It takes a lot of energy and time to use them properly, to workout and to plan your diet. While u take time for it, u escape from your bad thoughts. In a few months, the separation will be only a memory and u will be able to go out with an other woman and maybe, find the good one.

 

[creep]

I know exactly how you feel and I mean that literally. I too have recently had trouble in my life. I buried my self in working out, planning diets, routines and cycles. Heart ache isn't easy to overcome and you gotta do whatever it takes to get by.
You'll find someone new it's only a matter of time. Working out is the perfect solution to getting by, weaker people turn to drugs and alcohol.

Hang in there, things will get better.

 

[decem]

DEc em

good answer nugs but let me suggest that some of the demons come from insecurities pysically, such as not feeling large enough to aviod the pain of life...so perhaps ( I don't know the true answer) at 225 6% I will be able to come closer to an inner peace with this side of me.

Perhaps the change will create another transformation in my life and thus start a new chapter.

bigger n better

but I agree, there are many levels to work on

negative ghostrider.

your demons only manifest themselves in the perception of insecurities of your outward appearance, but the demons lie yet deeper. you wouldn't really be coming to inner peace with anything by morphing your physical vehicle into any other form as this outward phenomenon presents no clues and has no relativity to what inner energies lie within.


aggun pu drow

 

[argent]

Well....

At this point in my life sadly they seem to be play a big part. I was a natty bodybuilder for 5 years so I know how to train natty. And while I was not a freak, nor ever happy with my size, I looked good for a natty bb. Steroids crossed my mind but I had a great GF at the time and felt there was no need to gain that edge. Of course after close to four years she cheated and left, I decided my only chance for survival through those heart wrenching days was to lift. My plan was to consume myself with fitness to avoid dealing with the pain.

Well after 4 months I determined that I wanted to transform myself, I wanted to be a super freak and hopefully find inner peace in my quest. Riods gave me a hobby; I read everything there was for three months strait. I consumed information about the drugs, half lives, preventing crashes ect. Then came my time to run my first cycle, I attempted to obtain some Dbol and EQ but the deal feel through. After that endeavor I determined that since summer was almost upon us I would just run tren. Well it turns out as most of you know I ran tren for 4 months.

For a while I was happy, getting noticed by others, freaky pumps and the excitement of a new hobby. Well now that my cycle is over and I want more, I am still lifting harder then ever but I want to inch closer to my goals. Some how I believe at 225 6% bf all the pain and feeling of loneliness will disappear. So these days I eat and sleep the “game” I sit and type out cycles just to plan something. I am not sure if this is good or not, but I can’t seem to find anything else as a solution to overcome these demons. Also don’t get me wrong I am a happy person, I smile daily and don’t plan on ever taking this so far that it kills me. But right now I feel it is one thing I can count on.

And yes I am on clomid

Preach on Brutha HI. Good post bro. I feel where you are coming from. I have similar thoughts too bro.