HighIntensity said:
Well....
Well now that my cycle is over and I want more, I am still lifting harder then ever but I want to inch closer to my goals. Some how I believe at 225 6% bf all the pain and feeling of loneliness will disappear. And yes I am on clomid
I want you to write this down on a piece of paper and put it somewhere safe; also add that if you do not follow through with your promises, than "I, High Intensity have learned an important lesson about myself" you will not like this lesson; this is that you are not addicted to the size it gives you but the mentallity of being "on". Then Sign it. This is what i did. Gear is not the answer to your problem, just a quick fix, you WILL know this is you dont keep your promise.
I have stated that i have reached my goals pertaining to size and strength, and yet i still have to look away when i scroll down elite and someone types "fall bulker, check me out" lol. The mental high that gear gives you is amazing; people say that it is not physically addicting in theory..........is say HORSE SHIT!
I swear if i ever cycle again, i will get the piece of paper i signed and be pissed, but atleast ill have the realization and content that i can admit that gear is a part of my life, and it is here to stay.
btw once reach you size, you will want to look that way shredded, guess what? yep thats right; another cycle. More drugs. Its never ending my friend. And at 225 ripped do you honestly think you can maintain this with no gear? i highly doubt it, for someone who obviously cares about the way they look, i will tell you that once you reach a state of "image" you will not want to dip below, if you do then more likely you will hit another cycle to get back.
see what i mean, its how this lifestyle goes, once you start you cant get in. find J_sus or something everyone seems to be at peace after finding him, lol. Wait, didnt Flex find him? He's clean right?
theres nuthing wrong with gear use, aslong as you're healthy and responsible, just think of it as a habit, like a few beers to lay you back everynight except YOU are enhancing your looks...
Back to the paper; i hope you take my advice and do this, it does help knowing that you have a little control. If i were a betting man i would against my myself, lol.
i hope some of this made sence; i know what your going through, although im didnt come from a long relationship like you, this "fork in the road" is a common place for all; remember their is no wrong way or right way; just YOUR way.
i hope this helps a lil
take care.