Ya wanna hear something funny? When I had to do our first court ordered psych eval my sister and brother-in-law had to be involved as well as they were my "supervisors" (I know that sounds incredibly stupid, but yea... all true) anyway the shrink (who is brilliant) leaned into my sister and BIL and said, "... and you expect me to believe that your sister REALLY IS
THAT NAIVE?" My sis and BIL were honest (as was I)... "Yea, she is REALLY
THAT NAIVE."
I was 37 at the time...
Now I am going on 42.
While I didn't grow up like your cousin I was still very heavily protected (we were not allowed to socialize much with people outside of our community) and have a very good heart so I assume that other people are who they say they are, just as I am who I say I am. I still have a good heart but ya got it, experience has been anything but kind so I learned to look *this much* before I leap. Believe it or not, in many ways the Old Grump is more gullible than I am... I mean, how many times have you ever heard a couple inviting an an entire internet messaging board over to their home? I've been on elite for 9 years. Only heard of that ONCE.
You rawk... btw you will dig this 'article' I'm gonna send you, PHD did anyway, I sent GOM the letter, similar situation btw. Here is the thing, If you are really really smart, you mimic someone who has done it...
This i"m learning. For example, my PHD is my hero, she's warm, charismatic like you, genuine in all of her intentions, and she's training for a marathon at the age of 55 and didn't start running unti 52. Anyway, I'm trying my darndest to get her feel on life, and adopt those principles...
One thing I have learned fo sho, that I would bet my life on. Is this, and you know this in your heart and head better than me.
Any Success, it's not the inpsiration force, or the motivation force, that is greater I think. It's not necesarrily Passion either. These things pave the way, however... it's the step by step process of incremental progress and adaptability to change when something is not working... 'a fail fast approach'.
You got this, you go step by step, meet obstacle, then adapt, and continue to walk.. left/right/left...
You know this, I'm just appreciating what I observe.
In anything there is one formula for failure, that presents itself through a variety of reasons, but mainly through giving in to the sensations brought through time, poor time management as well, its skipping steps, and being inconsistent, and wasting the true value of time.
Time is not a measuring stick, its there to feed you energy, to enliven you with qualities of Will.
Anyway, every time you 'experience' something, and come back, you galvanize your will, it may not hit you in the sudden,
But the going through... ensures that you will not be threw'.
Through the effort and intention, a momentum of reality will change.
What interests me most about your situation is that you got 2 warriors and the battle has taken it's toll on both of your Wills, I'm just so curious as to whether or not the Will... continue to expand, and can it turn around momentum.
I think it will... My vibes and intentions are for ya.
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