See? That's what bothers me. They don't know what is happening. They are getting a shot and suddenly they are sleepy, they know you are holding them and they just think that they are going to doze off and take a nap, but they don't know they will never wake up and never be there anymore.
I think it is the part about how you know they will look at you and love you unconditionally all the way up to the moment their eyes close and things fade and they would forgive you in an instance for doing this. But yet that only makes it harder for you to not forgive yourself.
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you too because you always post the answers that are best, even if we don't like them.