busdriver1
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i dont know what her deal is about having a ring. Would should not have left me if she had a ring on. WTF. Both times she has done this she shuts me out and acts like she has never cared anything for me. When I got her back the first time I thought she would never pull this shit again. I thought we would be able to work anything out. Now what does she do- she runs away and will not have anything to do with me. I used to mean to girls and play em and break their hearts. Now, I finally find the girl I want and give in and fall for her and she is breaking my heart. I guess i am getting what I deserve. I wish I would have stayed my ol heartless self. You have to understand though with this girl. She brought me out of a pretty dark place that I was in. My best friend and I were in an accident and he was killed. he took his last breath with me holding him in my arms. After that I was pretty messed up. This girl changed all that. Thats why its so hard to let her go. I am so scared of losing her. She is the only one i can talk to about my experience and the only one that ever tried to help me. I have become so attached to her because of what she did for me and with her pretty much saving my life. It still effects our relationship sometimes and we both know it. I can think about what happened sometimes and it puts me in a funk to where I dont talk all day. imagine having a boyfriend that does that. right now I feel as though I cannot live without her and without her support. Damn, I gotta get her back. BTW- I am 24 and she is 21.