nefertiti said:
Well, I guess it's partly because I sort of missed out on having a normal childhood/youth and each year that passes is a year that pulls me further away from that experience I never had. I'll probably stop feeling that way once I reach a place of satisfaction in my present life.
I missed a normal childhood too.
I remind myself now that I am FREE. The good thing is that now you can do whatever you want. When you were a child you were stuck.
When I was in my early twenties, I used to say "when I finish undergrad, i'll be happy."
I finished but then I said, "when I finish law school, I will be happy."
Then I said, "when I get married, I will be happy."
Then I said, "when I make a certain income i will be happy."
and so on and so on and so on.
If you live life always putting your happiness on hold for some achievement or some event, you will NEVER BE HAPPY.
You have to just learn to be happy in the moment, where you are now and who you are now.