off cycle i hover around 180 to 185 lean. at 5'5" that is considered pretty big. on cycle im between 195 and 205 which i think looks exaggerated and stupid now.
this winter i bulked up naturally and got to 208 with my bf at around 13%.
i think i would look best at 170 to 175 but think i look tiny now when im 185. dont know if i could handle the psychological kickback.
but i definately think its time to rethink my yearly cycle. my wife always said how great i look and now she says its too much and too obvious. i think shes right.
prejuice i had a body that i worked on for 10 years naturally so i looked pretty good i think. 9 years later so 19 years total the workload shows and the juice amplified it a great deal.