Thank you GabaMan ...
At this time, I am basically 'stuck' in my life… My health having much to do with it … along with insurance/stability/comfort/life/relationships etc ... too much I'd rather not get into & I'm trying to stay positive and make the best of what I've got... it's proving to be very difficult, more so right now than in the past.
I hope to one day be able to enjoy a career in what I truly enjoy doing, I just have to find the right path to get me there, since timing is really not on my side right now, but it is NOT for a reason ... and I accept that. Everything happens for a reason….
To avoid confusion, and by NO MEANS asking for pity or 'feel sorry for me' (which is why I was apprehensive about telling my story in the first place) there was an error in the announcement. I am not in what the docs consider 'remission' ... and won’t be for at least five years … I think a little less than 3 ½ years to go before they feel comf giving me that prognosis. Actually, I think the weekend of the PA show (for Sassy) will be my 2 year mark …
I do have to keep in mind the possibility of secondary cancers developing and possible future health issues, which were addressed, amongst other things weighing on my mind, in my last doc appointment, again focusing on the reality of my situation. I’m going to conquer whatever may come, that’s for sure, but it really puts things in perspective.
On a positive note, although my ‘workout’ was LESS than satisfying this morning… I made it to the gym for some cardio … and received MORE positive reinforcement from a man I briefly told my story to & shared with him some before & afters... to the extent I thought a grown man was going to cry ... so it felt GREAT to have such an impact on someone, people, everyone …. Makes all the little things seem to disappear for awhile and make me smile, even if it’s for a few minutes….
I’m very emotional today … TGIMFF and have a great weekend.
The buns Loves you & wants nothing but ya’ll to succeed