this is going to sound bad but i am just trying to help you out.
your posts are all over the place. you have many threads that show you are still in the early stages of body building. sometimes you want to grow sometimes you want to cut. you are a mess. you need to slow down and learn how to grow and maintain size first. but you are skipping right past that and using steroids like a crack head. you are going to fuck yourself all up before you ever reach any amount of size. you need to end the cycle run pct get your test production back to normal. run 6wk cycles of all the legal shit needto can tell you about. and learn how to eat, train, and recover. try eating 350g of protein mostly from beef 700g complex carbs 40g fat 40g fiber 1+gal water every day and see how you grow and keep your muscles. and after a few months of that add more food and change to a whole new routine.