Re: substance abuse group, New Beginings, for anyone who is experiencing problems due
I have a very addictive personality. All the bad things or dangerous things in life seem to be what I am drawn to. Twice in my life I have gone in a downward spiral with different drugs. Ecstacy one time and blow another. I would get it under control and then have one drink and WHAM I would lose all sense of reality.
The one thing I have found is when I can work out I live my life clean without even trying. I could go seven months at a clip without a drink. Right now I don't know if I will ever be able to fully work out again due to my back and my shoulder. Both have been destroyed. My drinking has ramped up but everything else is in the past. Tomorrow I am making myself go to the gym to do some cardio and shoulder PT. Hopefully, I get to the point where I can start lifting again. That is the most addictive thing for me. I just want a simple life these days. Go to work, make money, go to the gym, go home. Throw in a good lady and thats all I need. I am ready to leave the crazy life behind.
It really is crazy. These days I can see the difference in my decision making from the first sip of booze. It probably all comes back to stress. Since I have not been able to work out I have lost my biggest and best stress reliever!