Skinnyitis: I have it, do you?

[hardbody_jr]

When I was 138 lbs (age 23, 5 10") I would say to myself that if I could gain 10 lbs of muscle I'de be satisfied. Then when I was 165, I thought the same thing. If I could be 180 lbs, I'de be satisfied. 180 came and I thought I was still skinny. I still wasn't satisfied looking in the mirror. Recently I worked my way up to 207 and I still was so embarrassed of my size and weight. I still thought I was skinny. I had lost a few lbs due to a shoulder injury, so now I'm down to 195. I 'm up almost 60 lbs and a new wardrobe from four years ago and I'm still not satisfied. I get depressed looking in the mirror. I'm very lean and I can see my muscle definition, but I feel the size just isn't there. Are there other people who feel this way?

What I'm doing to take care of this phobia:
I have 6 bottles of test in stock
I soon will have a couple hundred a-50 in stock(I have to cap the A-50 powder)
and 4 bottles of ttokkyo eq in stock

I'm hoping I can put on about 20 more lbs.

I dunno????????????????????????????????

 

[Scotsman]

I think we all feel that way from time to time. I am 6'2" and currently weigh 270-275 at christmas I was up to 295 at that point when my feet, ankles, knees, hips, and back hurt all the time from supporting that much weight I decided for the first time ever that maybe I had gone a little overboard. So don't get caught up in getting too big 200lbs at 5'10" is very respectable. Besides when you think you are too small it is always good to keep an old shirt around from when you were and try to put it on.

keep up the good work,
Scotsman

 

[diamonddiceclay]

a psychiatrist would call your condition"Bigorexia"

 

[Enigmaxxx7]

you're a fat bastard


hope that helped

 

[hardbody_jr]

Thanx E7, appreciate it.

 

[Big Brother Val]

Do a search on the internet for Muscle Dysmorphia. There's more people than you know that have that mindset. It's basically "Bigorexia" as DDC stated above. Reverse anorexia. Where instead of feeling your too fat, so you starve yourself... you feel too skinny.

I have it too.

I was 6' 1" and 120 lbs my sophomore year in high school. I've gained almost 100 solid lbs, bodyfat has gone up only 2%, and I've gained only 1" in height since then. And I remember wearing tanktops back then... and to tell you the truth, I feel more insecure about wearing them now. I feel skinny.

I want 20" arms. I'm just about 2 inches away. Maybe then I'll feel better... but knowing me... I'll probably just want 21". I always thought hitting the 200 lb. mark would be what made me finally feel "BIG". Nope.

Still waiting for that.

Keep your chin up.

 

[floridagrowin]

Funny You Mentioned

I feel the same way. It's sad really, I know I've put on over fifty pounds in ten years (thirty of those in the last two years) but I just can't see it. Just another twenty pounds and I'm there, I think.

 

[hardbody_jr]

bump.. It's my post

 

[rugger]

Com'on-read my rant!

Do we really have a disorder or simply an ambition to be the biggest and fittest possible?

This should piss some people off-GOOD!
Society is trying to label everything, it is a control issue, if we can label things we understand them, if we understand them we can control them...I personally think many so-called ailments are bogus and/or overused despite the numerous support grops and articles...ADD/ADHD is a joke in most cases-you people just crave attention and act out to get it or you don't want to do certain things so you don't concentrate, the "Disease" of Alchoholism is justification for people without selfcontrol over the urge to drown their reality in booze, knife-weilding psychos killing coeds for no reason-they are just fuct up people, no need to analyze it, they can't be cured, we'll learn nothing to detect and prevent the next fuct up psycho.

Guys, you simply want to be bigger. Really think about it, look in the mirror...do you see a skinny bastard or do you simply see room for muscle and improvement. I feel the same way, sometimes I look in the mirror and think, "damn, my arms are growing." then the next, "shit, I got some noodle arms." (which I do)

Fucking labels and psycho-babble explanations, get real.

Rugger

 

[dyno45]

I know how you feel. I hve gained 53 lbs in 1 1/2 years and still am not satisified. I went home this summer where I grew up for the first time in 18 years and the compliments never stopped and even where I make my home now, people notice the gains. I still want to be bigger. People always tell me it must be nice to have a problem gaining weight. It sucks!!!!