I lost 36 pounds in a coma last month because of eating pesticides. Body went extremely catabolic. I have pulled out those old clothes. My regular ones make me look like an Aid's victim. Hell I look like an AIDS victim anyway. My doctor gave me the same line about bodybuilding being the man's equivalent to anerexia. I cannot cycle right now, in physical therapy, just started to be able to lift hands above head, shoulders were destroyed. I want to be big again. My girl says she likes me better this way, of course she hates roids and when the pin pricks she'll be on the curb. Bigorexia, screw it I want to be 260 with 12% standing 6'1", thats all. Being small sucks.