Results from the neurologist not so promising

[biteme]

I don't believe I've ever been so afraid and felt so alone in my entire life.

Michelle and I will do what we can.

 

[eat big]

Get well. Stay strong.

 

[biteme]

Gotta get ready for work, but in tears. I'll be praying on the way to work sweetie.

 

[habitualhealth]

well... she is reviewing them again and I go back on Tuesday for more tests, but 70% sure it is a malignant tumor on my brain. So much else is falling apart that I really don't think I have the will or the strength to fight this if indeed it is there.

Keep me in your prayers please.

omg, you KNOW the power of prayer. you are definitely in my prayers.

what were the symptoms that made you go in for testing?

 

[SoKlueles]

omg N, but you are a strong strong woman and you can overcome it
you will be in my thoughts and prayers
ya gf

 

[Raptorex]

Prayers to you Frisk.

 

[i-Supplements]

I'm not going to come on here and tell you everything will be okay. That just wouldn't be my style. I'll tell you a story though.

After my Brother died a couple of years ago, I became extremely bitter and distant. I completely shut everyone out. About 6 months after his death, I probably should have been committed, because I came real close to loosing my mind, soul and worst of all, my life. No one knew. I am not one to talk about my feelings, so I just kept everything bottled up and tried to deal with things the best I could. Day by day, my mental state grew worse. Every day I honestly thought about taking my life. It is something I have struggled with since I was 15. I'll be the first to tell you I am a little fucked up in the head. On the outside I seem like I have my shit together. I am successful, I have nice things, I work my ass off, but on the inside I am a lost soul. The sad thing is I like it. I use that as my motivation to be better, and more successful. I use that as a reason to get out of bed every morning. It is a challenge to see if I can make it one more day. The point I'm making is that every day I get up I have to make a decision. We all have to make that same decision every day. You have to decise for yourself what that decision is going to be. You and only you.

Be well!

 

[feisty11975]

I'm not going to come on here and tell you everything will be okay. That just wouldn't be my style. I'll tell you a story though.

After my Brother died a couple of years ago, I became extremely bitter and distant. I completely shut everyone out. About 6 months after his death, I probably should have been committed, because I came real close to loosing my mind, soul and worst of all, my life. No one knew. I am not one to talk about my feelings, so I just kept everything bottled up and tried to deal with things the best I could. Day by day, my mental state grew worse. Every day I honestly thought about taking my life. It is something I have struggled with since I was 15. I'll be the first to tell you I am a little fucked up in the head. On the outside I seem like I have my shit together. I am successful, I have nice things, I work my ass off, but on the inside I am a lost soul. The sad thing is I like it. I use that as my motivation to be better, and more successful. I use that as a reason to get out of bed every morning. It is a challenge to see if I can make it one more day. The point I'm making is that every day I get up I have to make a decision. We all have to make that same decision every day. You have to decise for yourself what that decision is going to be. You and only you.

Be well!

 

[feisty11975]

Fuck, now her phones turned off or something. I am truly worried about her and can't get in touch with her.

 

[feisty11975]

and her Beaus phone is off. Fuck!