O.k.. I'm going to smash those two analysis results together....
My ex-husband was boring and dull and in the end did nothing all the way around for me. He was in his own little world. My ex-boyfriend big-time connection but always felt like I was walking on egg shells around him. He was very jealous and possessive and I was not allowed to have 'guy' friends', nor was I allowed to go out with the girls' or out period. I was 19-22 with him so I was still young and didn't know enough about how controlling he was until I broke up with him.
O.k. so the connection I draw is the boyfriend was very controlling as far as what I was 'allowed' to eat, how often I had to work-out, and I got to the point where all I would eat was one small chicken salad a day to make him happy. Maybe because my diet is so inhibiting it is bringing out what I felt back then of having no control over my food or work-out or anything, really...
As far as what I felt then and what I learned so that I can apply that now....
Hmmmm
This is my decision to do this to me, it's actually a lot more tolerable under the circumstances it is under, the time-frame is only 14 weeks, where with my ex it was 3 years'. In all honesty I think the stress I'm under now (besides the not being able to concentrate) is a LOT easier to handle now. There is something else there though I just can't put it into words at the moment.
Hmmmmmm Maybe it's because all these guys' are coming out of the woodwork now and think I'm the fling girl of the moment (we all know differently, RIGHT!), and that's not what I want to be looked at. So I am avoiding men like the plague because I don't want them assuming that I put all this work into myself 24/7, 365 days' of the year.
I have learned that looks' come and go and it's what's inside a person that really matters. I would rather find a guy that thought I was attractive in sweats then I would all 'dolled' up. That way when I do get dressed up the guy will be shocked... where as the guy that just sees me as all dressed up expects me to look like that all the time. Unless he plans on paying for me to stay at home and just play with my hair and make-up and clothes that's not happening, I'm not that vain. I put effort into myself every day... Just right now I have to put a bit more I know this.
Wow I'm getting to deep
I hope nobody really read all that, but I'm keeping it for me