Ok first off, I'll state the obvious. By turning to AS after a tradgic loss like this, you are taking on the mindset of dependence on steroids. And soon, if anything goes wrong in your life, you'll immediately turn to steroids. That is risky. I don't think that is even really coping with the problem, more like avoiding the problem in the short term.
That being said, I will try to give you advice on your current cycle, seeing as though you are already on it. How many weeks are you into it? Also, what were your past cycles like?
Ok, the first thing that comes to mind with this cycle is; overkill. Unless you are a seasoned bodybuilder getting ready for a competition, you should not be on a cycle like this. There is simply too many compunds here, and the extra gains you'll get will be far outweighed by the price your paying for all this stuff combined. I say cut out a couple substances and keep it simple. You're reaching out on a threshold here, and it is not good.
Here's what I recommend.
week 1-12 eq 400 mg per week
week 1-12 500 mg super test per week
week 15-18 clomid therapy
EQ tends to add to people's anxiety, so i wouldn't recommend that either, but i guess you're already on it. Just cut out the rest. stop taking everything else, and continue on with this wherever your at. Your body will have a much easier time regaining equilibrium with this than with that overdone cycle you got there,.