keep your head up frack. getting your heart trampled the first time is indeed grueling. you are going to be miserable for a while and there's not a whole lot you can do to speed up the healing process. but it WILL end eventually and you'll be the happy person you were before this shit went down and KC will not be on your mind 24/7 like i imagine she is right now. TIME will take care of this for you. get in the gym, hang out with friends, find some new girls to start working on, do what you got to do to get your mind off this stuff.
with all due respect, i don't know what happened and i'm not going to ask but for this to have been an "amicable breakup" KC you are certainly spitting out the f-bombs and sounding pretty pissed about the whole thing. i know i don't know the dilly but i'd hate to see this get nasty.
best of luck to both of you