Jeeezzzzuuuus, you're only 19? Damn, that fact alone should cheer you. Dude, you have so much living ahead of you that someday all of this will be a faded memory. I was in the Army when I was your age and having the time of my life. Look, she's right. She's WAY older, has a kid, and probably a bunch of baggage. Damn, if I was 19, instead of pushing 40, I would be chasing some coeds around the campus. Look a guy said love is the strongest emotion, HOGWASH! Hate is. You will fall in and out of "love" a hundred times, but hate, hate lasts a lifetime. It's the only honest emotion we have! Finish school, get the career on track, train, get some when you can, and enjoy your youth. The day will come, a few years from now, when you will have a wife, a couple of kids, pushing 40, and wondering where your youth went. So have fun NOW!