PCT and very depressed. When will it end...

[stevesmi]

FACT: it can take months to recover from a cycle. my last injection was 4th of July and my test levels are still at 119. and i ran a 12 week cycle, not like I ran a 20 weeker. and I'm on my 3rd PCT.

OPINION: my friend you should not be on AAS if you have depression already unless its stricly monitored by an endoc AND you already have low test. too many hormonal changes. not everyone can handle this. I went thru a lot the past couple months with low test you have no idea, but I can handle it and I still am a very happy person even with the low test.

SOLUTION: you need to run blood tests to see where your levels are. and if you are gonna combine xanax and every other medication under the sun with steroids keep in mind you are playing russian roullete with your health. you are young and my best guess based on what you said you are looking at 4 months to recover.. and probably 6 months to fully recover

 

[singletonin2013]

I mean its been 10 days since I really felt a crash... I still can get out of this right? I will get a blood test in about a month can anyone point me in the direction of a good test I saw a previous post say there was on for 50 bucks?

Well I just took a long drive and sat in the sun for awhile and drank a red bull feeling ok right now.

 

[stevesmi]

red bull? and you wonder why you have anxiety. stick to water and fresh juice. lose the energy drinks.. its all sugar and caffeine.

if you want to cycle steroids you are gonna have to deal with the recovery phase. as said earlier everyone is different.. some guys bounce back fast, others take time. the only thing you can do is mantain ur gains and run a PCT. the human body is wonderful and will start generating test.. it just takes time.

and you want to do total testosterone and you can do free testosterone also. bound vs. unbound if you are curious.

 

[singletonin2013]

I appreciate the input it was just a half a can... something to get me out of bed this sunday.

Me constantly searching forums on other peoples pct problems is not helping either.

Im just going to realize im not going to die and tough this out.

Maybe this has something to do with estrogen?? My face feels a little bloated today, it may just be because im eating a lot of carbs though. I have no appetite and im not sweating much in the gym. However Im forcing myself to eat and chugging protein shakes and I can get myself in the gym, it truly is my therapy.

 

[stevesmi]

I appreciate the input it was just a half a can... something to get me out of bed this sunday.

Me constantly searching forums on other peoples pct problems is not helping either.

Im just going to realize im not going to die and tough this out.

Maybe this has something to do with estrogen?? My face feels a little bloated today, it may just be because im eating a lot of carbs though. I have no appetite and im not sweating much in the gym. However Im forcing myself to eat and chugging protein shakes and I can get myself in the gym, it truly is my therapy.

your not gonna die. ur body stopped producing its own test, but now that your esthers cleared it will figure out it needs to start producing test again. everyday you will improve. in the future i highly recommend staying away from steroids, consider this a scare and move on.

 

[cottoncc]

Lifting is the best therapy. Take your mind off of everything else and enjoy your gains from the cycle.

 

[singletonin2013]

Thanks guys. Ill give updates. My mom just cooked me a big steak and I was able to chow it down.

 

[Gamer2Be08]

Are you taking anything for estrogen control?
If not, your estrogen levels may have bounced up some, especially with serm use.

Look into HCGenerate; I have heard it works miracles on all sorts of sticky situations such as mood, energy, libido and test levels etc..
Also look into forma stanzol, which is an estrogen reducer with phtyo serms.

Both of those combined may help you, especially if the problem has to do with recovery.

 

[singletonin2013]

Are you taking anything for estrogen control?
If not, your estrogen levels may have bounced up some, especially with serm use.

Look into HCGenerate; I have heard it works miracles on all sorts of sticky situations such as mood, energy, libido and test levels etc..
Also look into forma stanzol, which is an estrogen reducer with phtyo serms.

Both of those combined may help you, especially if the problem has to do with recovery.

you think throwing in a low dose of an AI could help like Aromasin? I mean my face is bloated again...

 

[GrownUp]

I recommend meditation my friend, it has helped me tremendously, as the matter of fact it makes all the difference in my life, I don't mean anything too complicated, just pretty much, close the door, turn down the light, close your eyes and clear your mind, the trick at the beginning is that you can't stop thinking, and if you tell yourself to stop thinking, then hey, you're thinking!! Clearing your head is key at the beginning, then you can move on to other forms of meditation, it is difficult at the beginning as anything else, but with about a month of practice you'll be a pro, you will be able to close your eyes anywhere and enter into a small trance where you clear your head and only think positive, great things of how you want your life to be, I understand this sounds weird to a lot of people, I know there is so much taboo involved in all this, specially for those whom have been diagnosed with clinical depression, but the one typing this used to be severely depressed for so long it got to the point that I was convinced that I would have to get used to living life in those conditions and had very negative thoughts about it, not anymore, not at all, not even a little bit, I've done 5 cycles so far and only equipoise gives me anxiety but again, I recognize where is coming from and stop the process on the spot, but I still try to keep equipoise to a minimum (don't wanna tempt the devil, namean??), only reason I am taking the time to write this and don't really care about what people say is because I understand what you are going through and in my case, single, I was open to any and every suggestion anyone gave me to get through that hell my life was, boy am I glad I listened. Good Luck!!