Listen bro, i understand your situation, im really not a newbie to all this just took some time off and joined this board, i too being out of the game a long time was eager and desperate and emailed mods and members with no response, but i spent my time and got my source checks and know how you feel but alot of people are paranoid around this time of year happens all the time, just sit back send some mails if they dont get answered stay awhile and try again. trust me i was there.Its not about newbie, oldbie its about trust and safety.