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My Youngest Daughter Brittany Wrote Back, Letter Enclosed
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SofaGeorge
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chesty said:
First let me say... YAHOOOOOOOO!!!!
I actually started to cry at my computer reading your daughter's letter to you. You are VERY lucky. (Lucky is another word for blessed.)
Secondly, read and reread the quote you wrote above. It is so important that you take the high road.
Your daughter obviously wants to come to know you. I can't think of anything better than that in the world.
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Chesty... that is what we always will be. Even if I never speak with you again. You have helped me tremendously by showing that you are not afraid of life's greatest difficulties. This, in turn, has helped my faith. It helps me to be strong when things get tough for me... helps me to not run away, but face my feelings head on. You know?
I wish that I could tell you all that is going on for me right now... but I have to sort it out for myself, Chesty.
I know what I want, but I am afraid to ask for it.... I am afraid that I will be rejected. It hurts. It hurts a lot.
But then I see you post up and it gives me faith... faith in myself: faith in my strength as a mother and as a decent human being. I know that I am quite wonderful and have so much to offer all that are around me... but still I am afraid. Chesty, what if it isn't enough? What if I fall short? What if he doesn't love me as much as I do him? What if he doesn't even WANT to try? Then what? What if he tells me that he doesn't even WANT TO TRY?
I will NEVER run from my girls... those days are so long behind me that I can't even remember what brought me to those feelings. I mean that sincerely. I am fighting for them AND my home now and will continue to do so.... FOREVER.
But that doesn't mean that I don't want to have a lonnnnnng, calm, sloooooooow chance with him.
I feel that he thinks the two are mutually exclusive, Chesty and I don't know what to do.
I never flat out TOLD HIM that I want to try.... I was afraid that he didn't want me. I am afraid that he has already given up because he thinks that I would be better off without him... without even trying.
If he were ANYBODY ELSE, Chesty, I could forget him in a heartbeat. Honestly, I could. But it's too late... I love him and I know that he loves me.. but we are too fucking chicken shit to even try - hell, we're even too afraid to TELL each other.
I wish that I could tell you all that is going on for me right now... but I have to sort it out for myself, Chesty.
I know what I want, but I am afraid to ask for it.... I am afraid that I will be rejected. It hurts. It hurts a lot.
But then I see you post up and it gives me faith... faith in myself: faith in my strength as a mother and as a decent human being. I know that I am quite wonderful and have so much to offer all that are around me... but still I am afraid. Chesty, what if it isn't enough? What if I fall short? What if he doesn't love me as much as I do him? What if he doesn't even WANT to try? Then what? What if he tells me that he doesn't even WANT TO TRY?
I will NEVER run from my girls... those days are so long behind me that I can't even remember what brought me to those feelings. I mean that sincerely. I am fighting for them AND my home now and will continue to do so.... FOREVER.
But that doesn't mean that I don't want to have a lonnnnnng, calm, sloooooooow chance with him.
I feel that he thinks the two are mutually exclusive, Chesty and I don't know what to do.
I never flat out TOLD HIM that I want to try.... I was afraid that he didn't want me. I am afraid that he has already given up because he thinks that I would be better off without him... without even trying.
If he were ANYBODY ELSE, Chesty, I could forget him in a heartbeat. Honestly, I could. But it's too late... I love him and I know that he loves me.. but we are too fucking chicken shit to even try - hell, we're even too afraid to TELL each other.
bouncer
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Chesty here's another 270lbs soldier teary eye'd just reading that. I was looking at my own little daughter Sinead asleep behind me and imagining missing out on everything she's brought me. I've no idea about 8th grade etc in America and what age that means, but she sound like a little confused kid trying her best to sound good to her daddy.
Best of luck man.
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Best of luck man.
Bouncer
Take a chance. If I hadn't I wouldn't have gotten the letter. Just tell him if he rejects you then he is not good enough for you. I will always be there for you in spirit and thought. You have helped me as well. I believe fate has brought us together and that if it is in the cards he will see that he is only hurting you by not taking a chance on you. In the end the very thing he is afraid of will come to pass by him not acting on his true feelings for you.
Hang in there.
Hang in there.
T
The Shadow
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chesty said:
Some things ARE true whether you believe them or not.
Very nice my friend.
BMom - Sometimes the biggest regrets we can have is not saying what we really wanted to. Pride, fear, anger, hurt can keep the words in too late for them to do any good. Say what you mean, mean what you say. Tell yourself first what your decision and desires are, convince yourself and go from there. Distant water doesn't quench immediate thirst.
The biggest waste of life is when someone doesn't speak up for what they want. Words are cheap, happiness is priceless.
The biggest waste of life is when someone doesn't speak up for what they want. Words are cheap, happiness is priceless.
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I will try Chesty... I am terrified. I have never been so afraid of anything before.
But yes, I too believe there is a God. I always have.
But yes, I too believe there is a God. I always have.
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