You love her to death-but not enough to quit using gear??? but not enough to be honest with her either? Who are you kidding???
Using roids behind her back makes her look like a fool in the same way as if she were sucking your best friend's cock nightly and everyone knows about it but you.
Just wait until the day the truth surfaces. When your secret life of steroids is exposed she will feel 10x more betrayed than if you told her today "tough shit bitch-I'm doing roids and if you don't like it go find some other pussywhipped geek that's willing to live his life by your set of rules" "Now get your uninformed roid hatin' ass in the kitchen and make me some pie!"
If that doesn't work, punch her in the kidneys. If she's still bitchin, then I'm sorry, but there's no hope for you two. Might as well dump her now.
If love is lying, lying by ommision, and being deceitful, let me never be loved.
Sorry to be so abrasive-but I hate seeing couples doomed to failure like yours. My guess is that you're in your mid 20's? You still have a lot to learn. Maybe an assraping divorce will wisen you up? Lies and deceit don't make for a good cornerstone in a relationship.
Try loving a girl that won't castrate you for being you-she will keep your interest a lot longer than her poon will.
Love is: a girl that will buy your gear or mule it across the border for you. And the best part is that once you've taken it, if you break up she can't ask for it back. If she gets caught coming across? Find a new gf. lol