My Quest to COMPETE - BEAT THE DISEASE!

[Bruce]

so true bigt. that is how i know when i am bigger cause i have shirts that i buy purposly a bit big instead of perfect fit. and my goal is to fill them out. when i do i start wearing them. being so fucking tall and long it gets difficult with the torso but the arms and traps are what i aim to fill out

 

[solidspine]

For a CPA you can type really well,

And I guess a lot too.


Didn’t get to read to much, are you dieting?

 

[JKurz1]

For a CPA you can type really well,

And I guess a lot too.


Didn’t get to read to much, are you dieting?

yes, I am trying to get to 110lbs and 15% bf at 6'1 by November 1...thanks.

 

[JKurz1]

FILL OUT THE XL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yesterday was solid......last week I did 165 at the very end of stiff leggs for 6 - 2 sets and that was it.........yesterday, 175 for the final two sets x 6.......rough but I got through it.....I gotta beat my PR of 225 x 1 on reg. deads Friday......damn....weak as hell, for someone who used to pull 4+ plates, but Iguess that's what happens when you weigh 148 in the am and 156 in the Pm.....that was my am weight today...148. clothed. Sick SICK SICK.........but this one and only fear keeps rolling thorugh my head. All this food is gonna go to my belly #1....and #2, my joints and tendons are so abused right now and so fragile that I will nevere ever be strong again. I ened to hear it from someone who has lost a ton of weight...is it possile to get back to wear I was...? Yes, I know I can be 200 again and 225 again....but honestly, will I ever be as strong as I was or has the damage been done??? Anyone beat an eating disorder or have a story?

 

[JKurz1]

Wednesday August 30, 2006


Well, today is my “off” day….3rd day of extremely light cardio at 530….maybe I need to try and go to bed later so I don’t wake up. 3 days was the max I am allowed, so now it’s up to me. No more for the entire week. Weird thing is this. Weight is up almost 7 lbs since Sunday. Hit every meal, except prebed I substitute cottage cheese and 2tsp of PB for 6oz of flank steak and 3 egg white. Just bought 3 lbs babay, pounds of flank…..so, that’ll change soon. The only other thing I skip out on is the Gatorade PW, as it’s a ton of sodium and I don’t think it’s necessary. So, my ppw meal go like this:

10 or so rice cakes and rice puff cereal (approx. 90carbs) within 15 minutes of training. That and a 35g of whey shake

45 minutes later it’s 1 cup of oats, 8oz chicken, beefm fish

1.5 hours later it’s bed….I’m missing about 60g of carbs here because I should be having the Gatorade as soon as I drop the last weight. Maybe dextrose? Then the rice cakes? Or maybe I should just man up and do what he tells me , no matter how sickening cream of rice is…..he wants me on the Gatorade, the 3 serv of cream of rice, then the oats, then pre bed…….wonder how the cream of rice would be in a shake.

Sorry for thinking out loud, but maybe you guys can help.

Next thought – am I ever going to be able to be as strong as I was? How can I go from benching 350, to benching 135 and now try and get back to 350…..is it possible? I’ll pay someone to explain it to me. Seriously.

Finally, it’s off day……WTF do I do with my meals…..carbs in the first 3? Aim for 200g for the day and switch over to p/f???? for the final 3?

 

[BiggT]

JK.....this will be our biggest challenge of the week.....dealing with 'off day' eating. Again, you're not cutting, you're not trying to maintain a weight, you're not the average Joe trying to drop a few pounds for your class reunion, lol.....you're trying to build slabs of muscle, and you're training hard, and to top it off, you're building yourself back from a weakened state and need the food.......calories are calories are calories....all low carb does, all cutting off carbs after a certain time does, all any complicated dieting trick does, is restrict calories somehow, you don't need calorie restriction.....stick to your plan, think of it as both repairing from yesterday and fueling up for tomorrow.......cuting back cals on an off day when bulking is as foolish as a trip to Cold Stone or a SUpersized order of fries on an off day when cutting.

As far as your concern about having done irreversible damage, don't worry about it.....you'll be fine. It is all in your head, understandably so, but still, it is worries and anxiety.....you added 10lbs to your SLDL this week, so you're capble of making progress, add 10 more next week, and 10 more the next, and you'll be back where you were in college in due time.....it's just simple progression, the state you are in took 4 years of abuse to get to.....it won't take 4 years to correct, but it is gonna take more than a few weeks though....just be patient and see it through.

 

[JKurz1]

Bro,...I want to hear a 100%, yes you can be and will be as strong as you once were if not stronger...I want that reissusrance....can anyone give it to me??

 

[BiggT]

That is what I meant....you'll be able to reach where you were, if not better....I was just saying you're making progress from week to week now, so let that be a reassuring sign.......life happens to people, people get injured, etc etc......there are lots of comeback stories out there, if anybody has one, post up.

 

[JKurz1]

That is what I meant....you'll be able to reach where you were, if not better....I was just saying you're making progress from week to week now, so let that be a reassuring sign.......life happens to people, people get injured, etc etc......there are lots of comeback stories out there, if anybody has one, post up.

that last set yesterday took everything I had...dont know if I can beat it...I know I coldnt do it right now....

Why do you say keep the carbs in ALL of my meals?? What is the difference if I switch over to fats and protein and get the same cals? Ill hold less water and feel less bloated, no?

Many bulkers do it, so I thought....

what If I take out the 8oz yam in meal 3 and use a 1/2 cup dry oats instead and just munch on them dry? Or toss em in my salad?

Give me your word bigt, that the muiscle damage isnt already done.....how can it just bounce back from skin and bones? fucking anxiety!

 

[BiggT]

JK....if you keep eating, you'll keep adding to the bar....you're nowhere near your body's potential and the sky is the limit right now......the only thing to do is go in next week, add 10 more lbs, and bang them out, you'll get them, and right now you can just simply go in and add to the bar and get stronger (and bigger) I guarantee it.....the body is an amazing thing, it will repair itself and thrive, but it needs to be fed though.

About the carbs on a non-workout day..... you know more about nutrition than I do, I've said it all along.....but, in terms of weight gain/loss, calories ARE calories....if you'd be more comfortable making a substitution, just make sure you get in the same calories that you normally would have.