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My Quest to COMPETE - BEAT THE DISEASE!
- Thread starter JKurz1
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silver_shadow
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howdyJKurz1 said:
not an eating disorder but...
back in 04 i was around 230 at 10%. then i moved to a different city with a change of job. the job was so fucking crazy - travelling all the time, both within the city and to nearby cities. i used to work a min of 10 hrs a day, sometimes including travelling, i'd be out of the house for over 24 hrs, sleeping on inter city buses in that time. eating was shit, i got really sick and withing 4 months i was down to 175. i had stopped working out BTW. then i joined a gym and tried to get back, but it was too difficult - i used to have zero energy, and anyway, i couldn't eat enough. i stayed that way for another 5 mths, then changed jobs. i hit some financial problems (basically i took a bank loan to help a friend) so i thought i wouldn't join a gym till things got better - the interest every month was killing me. finally after 5 more months of waiting for the problem i just started working out again as best as i could. that was last september. i was then a fat 190 or so. eating was far from ideal till feb or mar this year (i was just in deep shit financially to eat big). but even though things are not totally back to normal now financially, i;ve been able to eat and workout and now i'm at 230 at around 13-14. not bad, considering last year this time i was 190 at 20.
JKurz1 said:
Look bro you are looking for comfort. YOu are wanting to hear what you want to hear. THe deal is you HAVENT done irreversible damage. MOre than likely you can get back to benching 350 OVER TIME but hell you might even hit 400. Your body will come back but you have to feed it. Don't worry about getting fat you are on plenty of drugs.
JKurz1
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this is so fucking weird.....I literally feel like piss if more than 2 hours go by and I havent eaten...I still feel bloated, but I feel very hungry too...my hands and face get really cold.....my ankles are also swollen. So, I'm getting hungry like 1 hr after each meal and these are big meals. I called my trainer here's his quote:
"JEFF, I TOLD YOU, THERE IS NO FUCKING REASON TO BE HUNGRY DURING A BULK, SAVE IT FOR THE CUT!!!!" ummm...what do I eat? "I TOLD YOU, KEEP IT CLEAN, CHICKEN, BEEF, HAVE A SHAKE OR 10"....ummm...how about those cases of myoplex I have the RTDs....."YOU HAVE CASES???" EAT THEM!!!!!! DRINK THEM!!!!! SHAKES, PROTEIN PROTEIN PROTEIN!!
is it the EQ kicking in already even at such a low dose? it's been 55 minutes and I'm hungry...see this is why i chew so much damn gum....Im always hungry!!!
"JEFF, I TOLD YOU, THERE IS NO FUCKING REASON TO BE HUNGRY DURING A BULK, SAVE IT FOR THE CUT!!!!" ummm...what do I eat? "I TOLD YOU, KEEP IT CLEAN, CHICKEN, BEEF, HAVE A SHAKE OR 10"....ummm...how about those cases of myoplex I have the RTDs....."YOU HAVE CASES???" EAT THEM!!!!!! DRINK THEM!!!!! SHAKES, PROTEIN PROTEIN PROTEIN!!
is it the EQ kicking in already even at such a low dose? it's been 55 minutes and I'm hungry...see this is why i chew so much damn gum....Im always hungry!!!
BiggT
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JK....you're not on a cutting diet, man.....don't chew gum to eliminate hunger...EAT and give your body what it needs, I am not saying to eat candy bars abd Dorritos, but drink up those RTDs, have extra chicken and brown rice, have a shake, have a bar....it may be the EQ, it may be the Test, or both, or you just may be getting used to eating and training heavier and your body wants to be back where it was.....if you're body is asking for food...FEED IT.
heavy_duty
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Man I wish you would check out the support forums at http://www.curezone.com/
JKurz1
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actually, a good board...too bad nothing is posted of what I have. I have and am batteling anerexia nervousa. Extreme excercise couple with not enough cals = overtraining = weight and muscle loss = death (eventually). I am not and have NEVER ever binged nor been afraid to eat. MAtter of fact, I cant recall the last time (prob. since college) that I went more than 3 hours without eating something. Problem was, filling up on veggies wasnt cutting it. Or maybe it was...lolheavy_duty said:
I am gonna beat this thing....I promise you. It will not kill me.
JKurz1
Banned
BIGGT –
You probably don’t want to hear this….but I fucking hate you. You pretend to be on my team. You pretend to be my partner. You offer advice out of the corner of your mouth and then talk shit about me to others in your office, at home, in the gym, on this board, blah blah blah….about how much of a girl I am. About how I’m frail and weak and how doctors will be the only saving grace. Well the hell with you………..
Just Kidding BROTHER!!!
159lbs up 10 fucking pounds since Saturday morning. I am eating (actually a shake or rtd) when I am hungry (like now even though I ate 45 minutes ago, but these myoplex rtds are good – and if Tommy days use em, he does, than I will) I am eating MORE….and when I look in the mirror I see the abs faded, just a blur, but skin is still pretty tight, and getting chest striations!!! My pecs jiggle on command..I’m pumped up….but I got a fucking long roaddddddd ahead of me….I can’t even fathom 175lbs…..but I could be there shortly. I realize it’s water, test, muscle, fat and will teeter off next week (since I was depleted on Saturday), but 1-2-3 lbs a week….30lbs over the next 12 monhs….I think that’s a realistic goal….I owe it to you, you Big Fucking ox…..and the other bros who have stuck by me. Gus, Ulr, Bruce….all of you guys….I know I will have a setback…maybe tonight with delts I wont be as strong as I wanted to because my lower back is killing me from deads and I didn’t get in half as many carbs as I should have last night…but I am gonna learn. I am gonna learn three things by next wek to prove I am winning. I am going to hit everyone of my pw meals #1, I am going to stay off the treadmill for 5 days straight (well, one day is where I should start), and I am going to eat at all hours whenever the hell I am hungry!!
You probably don’t want to hear this….but I fucking hate you. You pretend to be on my team. You pretend to be my partner. You offer advice out of the corner of your mouth and then talk shit about me to others in your office, at home, in the gym, on this board, blah blah blah….about how much of a girl I am. About how I’m frail and weak and how doctors will be the only saving grace. Well the hell with you………..
Just Kidding BROTHER!!!
159lbs up 10 fucking pounds since Saturday morning. I am eating (actually a shake or rtd) when I am hungry (like now even though I ate 45 minutes ago, but these myoplex rtds are good – and if Tommy days use em, he does, than I will) I am eating MORE….and when I look in the mirror I see the abs faded, just a blur, but skin is still pretty tight, and getting chest striations!!! My pecs jiggle on command..I’m pumped up….but I got a fucking long roaddddddd ahead of me….I can’t even fathom 175lbs…..but I could be there shortly. I realize it’s water, test, muscle, fat and will teeter off next week (since I was depleted on Saturday), but 1-2-3 lbs a week….30lbs over the next 12 monhs….I think that’s a realistic goal….I owe it to you, you Big Fucking ox…..and the other bros who have stuck by me. Gus, Ulr, Bruce….all of you guys….I know I will have a setback…maybe tonight with delts I wont be as strong as I wanted to because my lower back is killing me from deads and I didn’t get in half as many carbs as I should have last night…but I am gonna learn. I am gonna learn three things by next wek to prove I am winning. I am going to hit everyone of my pw meals #1, I am going to stay off the treadmill for 5 days straight (well, one day is where I should start), and I am going to eat at all hours whenever the hell I am hungry!!
