My Quest to COMPETE - BEAT THE DISEASE!

[BiggT]

You had me there at the top of the post, JK....I was scratching my head thinking wtf for a second, lol....

I'm proud of you man.....you hit rock bottom on Sun and when people do that they either stay there or pick themselves up and fight there way back, you picked yourself up and are fighting back. I can tell you're feeling it today, brother. Do this one meal at a time, and in between, slam those shakes and RTDs....the only thing they can do is help you win this fight. What's on tap for delts tonight?

 

[JKurz1]

You had me there at the top of the post, JK....I was scratching my head thinking wtf for a second, lol....

I'm proud of you man.....you hit rock bottom on Sun and when people do that they either stay there or pick themselves up and fight there way back, you picked yourself up and are fighting back. I can tell you're feeling it today, brother. Do this one meal at a time, and in between, slam those shakes and RTDs....the only thing they can do is help you win this fight. What's on tap for delts tonight?

Far from over bro...far from over...for example, I was up at 5am this am...layed there....got a decent 8 hours of sleep, told myself I wasnt going to do any cardio and go back to be...tossing and turning, I got up to piss and got really light headed....waitied a few minutes...layed back down....got back up, dressed and next thing I know...2.8 and 12% incline for 20mins.....WHY???? 2 full meals down once again, these two are the easiest....2 cups of oats, 1tb of pb, dozen egg whites, half pound chicken breast cup of pineapple.....

I really wish I could ditch this pain. I just feel "off"....cold hands, feet, back hurts....I'm abused buiddy...royally abused. Speaking of which. I found a problem out yesterday and had no idea it was happening. I was/am addicted to vicodine. I never ever thought It was true, but I read a post than thought back and realized...I have had a half of tab every day for the past year easily. Sometimes 1 tab, but never more than 1.5 in a day. Period. SO, minor, but none the less, it had to be some of the problem if not a lot of it. It was a crutch and I flushed em all. It's now been 48 hours since I've looked at one and I am battely the WD symtons....chills, dirreahea.....headaches...pains. They say the wd is worse than the pain, so I pray this is the end....48hours should do it....its my body repairing cleaning itself out...amazing what a small amount can do to someone. Sure its not like most addicts with 10-20 a day...but an addiction none the less...and I am done.

I am wondering if that was truly half the problem? I used to train hard, feel the pain, go home, pop a tab, feel oozzy...and eat! This really helped me to eat....dont know why but it relaxed me.....oh well...tonight I will train and not use one...I got to think the pump will be that much greater!

 

[drols of steel]

do we have to read about your psychosis over here too? i thought you were done posting except for your log? .... u do have one log already right? not enough attention over there

http://www.elitefitness.com/forum/showthread.php?t=496114

Hey, if you don't want to read it. Dont Read IT!!

Congrats, On everything I sincearly hope all continues to go well. Peace, Drols

 

[JKurz1]

thanks brotha....delts and tris in a an hour.......

THURS
seated lateral raise 3 x 6 to 10
smith behind nek press 2 x 8 to 10
dbell press 2 warms x 12
dbell press 4 x 6-10
bent laterals 3 x 8 to 12
dumbell front raises 2 x 8 to 12
TRIS
skull crushers incline 5 x 6 to 10
cable press down 3 x 8 to 12
rope cable 1 x dropset

 

[c3bodybuilding]

I hope you realize you are improving with each moment, each day. I am really proud with how far along you are coming. I know little things will sometimes seem big or out of control right now, but just keep pushing on like you are doing. The cardio urges will end soon enough. Good work bro.

 

[ProtienFiend]

so true bigt. that is how i know when i am bigger cause i have shirts that i buy purposly a bit big instead of perfect fit. and my goal is to fill them out. when i do i start wearing them. being so fucking tall and long it gets difficult with the torso but the arms and traps are what i aim to fill out

How tall are you?

<----- 6'5

 

[ProtienFiend]

I am afraid I have done irreversible damage since I still train heavy as I can and HAVENT taken months off......thoughts?

These things take time.... youre not going to wake up and be 100lbs heavier.

Lets say you gain 1 lb (no water) a week. 30 lbs (reasonable) will take you about 6 months or so. (healthier if it took you a year+) Just to put things in perspective.

 

[ProtienFiend]

JK....you're not on a cutting diet, man.....don't chew gum to eliminate hunger...EAT and give your body what it needs, I am not saying to eat candy bars abd Dorritos, but drink up those RTDs, have extra chicken and brown rice, have a shake, have a bar....it may be the EQ, it may be the Test, or both, or you just may be getting used to eating and training heavier and your body wants to be back where it was.....if you're body is asking for food...FEED IT.

Can I hire you to come to the gym and yell these things at me?

 

[JKurz1]

the continued support is much appreciated. I had a rough nights sleep, 56 hours without any pain meds so I hope the WD symtoms are over. Geezus, I had no idea that addition take so many forms. I know 1 tab a day isnt crazy, but it was an addiction, just like cardio, and I am beating it. I pray the worse is over. Direahea, cold and hot flashes, running nose, I thought it was all from being underweight.....I swear, I'm done cold turkey with even asprin unless I really can't tolerate it.

Woke up late this am after getting to crash around midnight. SO 6am, up and 20 minutes of light light incline. Next week, It's 3 days a week. Week after is 2, then it's 1-2 for the rest of this period. Weird thing is I am still gaining weight in bunches. I guess it's because I was so depleted. Last Friday in the am I was exactly 150lbs. Today, I was exactly 158. Prob. water and fat, but my lifts are either staying where they were or higher. Delts yesterday went well. warmups, 1 set of 10 with 50, 3 sets of 7 with 55lbs....more than Ive used in a long ass time. As long as I have a spot to get me through the initial thrust, I am ok for a few solid reps. Just my jkoints right now are very fragile. All I can keep thinking about is today. 225 x 1 pull last week.....I got to get what, 230 or 235? I am so afraid I am gonna get depressed if I am weeker, but #1 my friggn knee is swollen for some reason and #2, I shouldnt have done shit this am. DAMN me......oh well, I gott eat big today and be strong....rest for 8 hours and go hit it.

then it's dinner at a good outside grill here in ohio. My parents will be there and my uincle from california. It'll be after my pw shake. My dad called and said they were going but understood if I didnt want to go. I said Id go but Ill prob eat beforehand and just hangout (the old me)....I need to shock em. Not crazy, but a good meal, not my usual salad and chx breast. What should I order? Realistically?

7am....meal #1
3/4 cup oats (1/4 cup dry)
1 scoop elite protein
1 tb anpb (amn I could eatr a jar!)
35g from egg whites...coffee

 

[BiggT]

You'll improve the DL from last week, I guarantee that JK. At dinner, I'd get a steak, usually a filet and some type of potato (baked or twice baked or mashed or whatever looked good) and whatever veggie it came with....start w/ salad and either soup or a small appetizer, then I'd go w/ steak or fish and a potato and veggie....go though, and order off the menu, and leave the chicken salads for the girls....you'll feel great after a nice meal.