Just Checking in.....

[JKurz1]

Letting you know I'm alive and well...thanks for all the PMs....I checked myself into chemical dependency "Glenbeigh" on July 30th and am still there living in a half way house with 5 guys. Best move of my life....strength is going through the roof, back to work with a new job, and feeling good....my diet is still off, low in cals, but I'm gaining mass, gaining much needed body fat, and am sitting around 175lbs at 6'2....still got a looong road, but it's coming....thanks boys!

 

[ksbst9mm]

Letting you know I'm alive and well...thanks for all the PMs....I checked myself into chemical dependency "Glenbeigh" on July 30th and am still there living in a half way house with 5 guys. Best move of my life....strength is going through the roof, back to work with a new job, and feeling good....my diet is still off, low in cals, but I'm gaining mass, gaining much needed body fat, and am sitting around 175lbs at 6'2....still got a looong road, but it's coming....thanks boys!

i hate halfway houses.... well... actually just all the dudes that live there. i got kicked out for punching someone many moons ago. Good luck with your new lease on life!!!! Stay strong bro!!

ksbst9mm

 

[MichaelScott]

good luck bor

 

[matty420]

best of luck to you bro. that can be a really tough cycle to break.

 

[wellbilt]

good luck man

 

[needtogetaas]

good for you bro..get well.

 

[khemix]

Good to see you alive and kickin' man! I'm happy to see you're moving forward and getting everything back together. I'm getting my shit back together from an injury myself so we're gonna be runnin side by side! Keep in touch man!

Chris

QUOTE=JKurz1]Letting you know I'm alive and well...thanks for all the PMs....I checked myself into chemical dependency "Glenbeigh" on July 30th and am still there living in a half way house with 5 guys. Best move of my life....strength is going through the roof, back to work with a new job, and feeling good....my diet is still off, low in cals, but I'm gaining mass, gaining much needed body fat, and am sitting around 175lbs at 6'2....still got a looong road, but it's coming....thanks boys![/QUOTE]

 

[slat1]

Good to hear you are doing well.
Also glad to see you stepped up on your own to take ownership of the problem.
Not a lot of people are strong enough to do that.
I'm a physical mess.
Got Cellulitis in my right leg after getting hit with a folding table in a fight. Didn't really work out or eat much (3 nights in the ER with an IV).
After that I fucked my thumb up in another fight and have not worked out.
Was looking for another job and had woman issues too.
Anxiety killed my motivation and appetite.
Here I am two months later. Down 20lbs to 240. I feel small but look good.
The irony is I barely step on the scale now.
Got a new job. Starting to eat at least four times a day. Hoping to get back to the gym. I just can't hold anything with my right hand.
That is life I guess.
Seeing you are doing well has motivated me!

 

[Acela]

chemical dependancy is the worst, i say that from experience

best of luck to you and your recovery

a line that i heard in narcotics anonymous that has made a lasting impression is..."don't let anyone or anything rent space in your head."

read into that however you would like

 

[ksbst9mm]

im not sure if this can help you, but... ive been sober for many years now!! it gets rough at times but there is a way rather than using!! ive had my share of rehabs, and what have you, but i can tell you this much, my worst day sober is WAY BETTER than a good day using. and i agree with the post above, don't let anyone rent space in your head... cuz it sucks. i also try to live in the now, i only worry about what i can do right now, not later, not next week, not really even tommorow. And believe it or not i still go to meetings and have been for many years. there are arguments that if i were to use aas that it would be concidered a relapse, but i don't wanna get into that here. Point is, my life was misserable at one time, and now i have a great job, couple o college degrees (i still cant spell), my family is the most important thing to me now, besides my health, and they love and trust me now!! its a great life out there and i hope you get to experience some of the joys that i have!!!

ksbst9mm

 

[THE GOOD SUN]

Letting you know I'm alive and well...thanks for all the PMs....I checked myself into chemical dependency "Glenbeigh" on July 30th and am still there living in a half way house with 5 guys. Best move of my life....strength is going through the roof, back to work with a new job, and feeling good....my diet is still off, low in cals, but I'm gaining mass, gaining much needed body fat, and am sitting around 175lbs at 6'2....still got a looong road, but it's coming....thanks boys!

...oh man I remember the pics ...I think those were some of the leanest pics I had ever seen

happy to hear you're making progress in the right direction ...best wishes!!!

 

[Thunderclap47]

Good luck to you Bro!

 

[holy ghost]

Good to hear you are doing well.
Also glad to see you stepped up on your own to take ownership of the problem.
Not a lot of people are strong enough to do that.
I'm a physical mess.
Got Cellulitis in my right leg after getting hit with a folding table in a fight. Didn't really work out or eat much (3 nights in the ER with an IV).
After that I fucked my thumb up in another fight and have not worked out.
Was looking for another job and had woman issues too.
Anxiety killed my motivation and appetite.
Here I am two months later. Down 20lbs to 240. I feel small but look good.
The irony is I barely step on the scale now.
Got a new job. Starting to eat at least four times a day. Hoping to get back to the gym. I just can't hold anything with my right hand.
That is life I guess.
Seeing you are doing well has motivated me!

see bro we all got shit going on
i had a broken hand from a fight and weight training/aas healed it and strenghtened muscles comppletely

When i was 14 I was buying half oz of Crystal and burning it in the same night Id be up for 7 days and eat about 3-4 meals the whole time i was up
Ive done every drug in the book, Been in jail about 4-6, was in juvi for 8 months about 8-9 years back , i just got out of jail in March this year a little after i Joined EF, I got popped bringback a boatoad of stallion gear from TJ and spent some time downtown
I still have gang affiliations im trying to kick....

most important thing bro is faith in god and faith in yourself
You ARE a chemical BEAST, NOBODY can stand in your way.

Slat youre crazy bro i would have never guessed, so whats up with your hand Lets help try to fix it!

PS orig poster good luck man Mainline drugs are fucking No-Go's.
AAS is my drug of choice.

 

[slat1]

Slat youre crazy bro i would have never guessed, so whats up with your hand Lets help try to fix it!

Don't know if I am a beast.
Probably more of a moron who works out.
A decade of competitive martial arts. Boxing after that. Bouncing for years. You kind of make friends with people who can kick ass.
I guess every once in a while we like to know who still has it.
Its an expensive question when you ask yourself that with people who fight for a living! LOL
My buddy thinks I tore the tendon off the bone. If it hurts in another week I will get it scanned.

 

[holy ghost]

Jesus christ, i have tennis elbows in both elbows...... thats what skilling me these days


and about 3 boxers breaks along thetopside of my hand


bro when you heal up and hit the gym
gloves + straps + chalk = 25-50% alleviation off your wrists, forearms, hands, elbows...!

 

[Faizakafez]

Nice to hear Columbus!

 

[holy ghost]

faiza hows your body look after the comps
u put on a shitload of weight?

 

[slat1]

gloves + straps + chalk = 25-50% alleviation off your wrists, forearms, hands, elbows...!

I am going with the straps tonight. Its shoulder night too.
I will work out one way or another.
Life throws all sorts of shit at you just like Jkurz has going on.
Its figuring out a way to do what you have to do.
My problem is simple compared to his and he has found a way!

 

[holy ghost]

Jesus christ SLAT dont work it out if your hand is fucked! take a week off

if youre on AAS and dieting youll preserve your muscle
just hit cardio and Legs for a week and get lean!

 

[rambleon]

Good to hear bro!

As a longstanding NA-member going on 7 years clean i can only say:

YEAH! WAY TO GO! Fighting ur way free takes balls but man: Its sooo fucking worth it. Things keep getting better in small ways that add up to something u wouldn't believe. There will be rough spots but the feeling of freedom defies description. Keep hangin' in there bro.

 

[holy ghost]

it took some intense months of praying and pleading to the good lord before i woke up and saw the light and way out.

 

[THE GOOD SUN]

I am going with the straps tonight. Its shoulder night too.
I will work out one way or another.
Life throws all sorts of shit at you just like Jkurz has going on.
Its figuring out a way to do what you have to do.
My problem is simple compared to his and he has found a way!

what a great way to think ...what a great way to be ...you're hand maybe fucked but your sight is razor sharp

 

[slat1]

what a great way to think ...what a great way to be ...you're hand maybe fucked but your sight is razor sharp

Its all about how you see things in life.
I try and fail more then most people in their life.
I just want more. I have to take chances to get it.
Those who understand I plan on going to a better place can come for the ride in my life.
Those who don't get left behind because they slow you down.
It took me 34 years to get my head on strait... and I have a lot more to learn and I am looking forward to it!

 

[holy ghost]

gotta respect that heres some K

 

[Sean Scott]

hope all goes well. goodluck to you.

 

[JKurz1]

im not sure if this can help you, but... ive been sober for many years now!! it gets rough at times but there is a way rather than using!! ive had my share of rehabs, and what have you, but i can tell you this much, my worst day sober is WAY BETTER than a good day using. and i agree with the post above, don't let anyone rent space in your head... cuz it sucks. i also try to live in the now, i only worry about what i can do right now, not later, not next week, not really even tommorow. And believe it or not i still go to meetings and have been for many years. there are arguments that if i were to use anabolic androgenic steroids that it would be concidered a relapse, but i don't wanna get into that here. Point is, my life was misserable at one time, and now i have a great job, couple o college degrees (i still cant spell), my family is the most important thing to me now, besides my health, and they love and trust me now!! its a great life out there and i hope you get to experience some of the joys that i have!!!

ksbst9mm

WELL, Im no where as lean as I was, put on a good 30lbs, remember barely benching 135 a few months ago when I was shredded, yesterday I got 210 for a solid 4-5 reps....no cardio, a good 4-5 meals a day, and have been slamming peanuts, hot chocolate, almonds, and boatoads of popcorn at night while watching the tube after training....rest of my cals are pretty low, but I'm now about 175 and I'd say 12-14%....

THey found a syringe in my closet about a week ago and almost sent me back to the hosiptal saying I relapsed. I tested negative for everything, but they said they couldnt test me for roids and thats how I relapsed. Yes, Ivebeen using 400mg of enth until last week and just stopped cold turkey. I am gonna lay low for
awhile, keep training, and I got 40cc of a nice prop tren masteron blend, for later. Should I get
to 200 no mattter how I do it and then worry about using it to cut and do cardio or should I use
it now and bulk with it? Maybe bulk with 20cc then cut with 20cc?
no intentions of ever ever going back to the opiates, although sometimes I know it would be nice......no way.....I will continue to cycle though.....thats a given. But its not mood altering in that way, so that's my rationale.

 

[JKurz1]

any thoughts bros?

 

[holy ghost]

LOOK MAN F The gear for now

TREN AND MAST can ruin your personality and may enhance your susceptability to bad things and poor choices

Take time off EVERYTHING for about 6 months to a YEAR

definately train ED or EOD
great way to get a natty high

most imp pray !

 

[rambleon]

LOOK MAN F The gear for now

trenbolone AND MAST can ruin your personality and may enhance your susceptability to bad things and poor choices

Take time off EVERYTHING for about 6 months to a YEAR

definately train ED or EOD
great way to get a natty high

most imp pray !

ageed

 

[Wrongun]

I would stay off all chemicals AAS included. Concentrate on diet, training rest and strength of mind. IMHO the Physiological Side Effects of AAS are the most serious and in your position this is not the time to put any chemicals in your body that can hinder your recovery.

Focus on the diet and training and you will grow

Best of luck

Wrongun!

 

[JKurz1]

Not the answer I wanted to hear of course, but probably the best solution for now. I was running test all through my recovery and I added 20cc of tren, that's when my strength really stated to soar but I truly had no ill effects except for night sweats. I weigh about 175 right now, abs are smoothed over, but I don't care as my strength is soaring. I've trained every single day, which probabnly isn't good, but I need that natural release. Plus, I'm increasing weights each week, so besides feeling a little run down, I'm recovering pretty good. I have yet to train legs as they are so weak and fragile from my abuse but will start next month. I go, chest, delts, arms, chest, delts, arms and back. 7 days. My diet is like this:

meal 1 1/2 cup oats, dozen egg whites and coffee
meal 2 1.2 cup oats, tb pb, 6oz of turkey.chicken,
meal 3 - chicken breast on two whole wheat pieces of bread, large salad
train
50g whey shake
then about 830 before bed I make a huuuuge batch of popcorn, almonds, a low carb protein bar, some hot milk with splenda, a few pretzels.......and my weight is going up. Think it;s due to my last binge.meal?

If you could pm me with one of your reliable sources for gear for later on, I'd appreciate it...I refuse to use my old sources as there lists contain opates and I dont want the trigger. what are your thoughts? No cardio and a max of 1 hr a day in the gym.......appreciate the feedback!

I would stay off all chemicals anabolic androgenic steroids included. Concentrate on diet, training rest and strength of mind. IMHO the Physiological Side Effects of AAS are the most serious and in your position this is not the time to put any chemicals in your body that can hinder your recovery.

Focus on the diet and training and you will grow

Best of luck

Wrongun!

 

[JKurz1]

Not the answer I wanted to hear of course, but probably the best solution for now. I was running test all through my recovery and I added 20cc of trenbolone, that's when my strength really stated to soar but I truly had no ill effects except for night sweats. I weigh about 175 right now, abs are smoothed over, but I don't care as my strength is soaring. I've trained every single day, which probabnly isn't good, but I need that natural release. Plus, I'm increasing weights each week, so besides feeling a little run down, I'm recovering pretty good. I have yet to train legs as they are so weak and fragile from my abuse but will start next month. I go, chest, delts, arms, chest, delts, arms and back. 7 days. My diet is like this:

meal 1 1/2 cup oats, dozen egg whites and coffee
meal 2 1.2 cup oats, tb pb, 6oz of turkey.chicken,
meal 3 - chicken breast on two whole wheat pieces of bread, large salad
train
50g whey shake
then about 830 before bed I make a huuuuge batch of popcorn, almonds, a low carb protein bar, some hot milk with splenda, a few pretzels.......and my weight is going up. Think it;s due to my last binge.meal?

If you could pm me with one of your reliable sources for gear for later on, I'd appreciate it...I refuse to use my old sources as there lists contain opates and I dont want the trigger. what are your thoughts? No cardio and a max of 1 hr a day in the gym.......appreciate the feedback!

SINCE everything except back is hit 2x a week, would it be benefital to have a heavy day first of 6-8 reps and the second day go 10-15?

 

[JKurz1]

Man I Soooo Tempted To Run It And Grooooooooowwwww....180lbs Today...heaviest In 5 Years! Should I Get To 200lb Natty?

 

[THE GOOD SUN]

Man I Soooo Tempted To Run It And Grooooooooowwwww....180lbs Today...heaviest In 5 Years! Should I Get To 200lb Natty?

I know that you can do it ...if you want to ...you're no novice ...you know how to restructure your diet & read your body

think of the rest your receptors will get ...how fresh they'll be ...and then @ 200lbs getting "ON" ...with your build & knowledge ...you'd be nasty!

PS ...don't stare at the bottle when you're trying to decide

the A.A.S. emotional rollercoaster ride is what concerns me ...I can't help but think that you have enough on your plate & that hormone imbalances (even if only as you transition ON or OFF) might be enough to sabotage your efforts ...catch your breath ...pump your brakes & drive slow

 

[holy ghost]

bro for your own sake dont openly ask for sources
a lot of sources offer drugs, time for you to have some self control

you have manned up 99% so far, fufill that 1%.
Fix your troubles, work on your personality and image, then hop on AAS

godspeedd bro!

 

[slat1]

Your body was starved for so long.
It will soak up what ever you put in it now.
Keep the food coming and you could hit 200lb easy I bet!

 

[JKurz1]

Your body was starved for so long.
It will soak up what ever you put in it now.
Keep the food coming and you could hit 200lb easy I bet!

my problem right now is I don't hjave the appetite all day, then I train around 5pm and slaw a whey shake...830 comes around (I sleep around 10pm) and I'm ravishing....I eat about 3 huge bowls of air popped popcorn, a few glasses of milk, a few huge handfulls of shelled peanuts, almonds, and a couple low carb protein bars....will this be stored as fat right now, even though techinally it's with 6 hours after I train? It's not junk per se, jsut a lot of cals....but its my reward for the day, I love it....