Jan 27, the worst day of my life.........

[Mystical]

So many people claim to know what you are going through, but they never do until they are in your shoes. I lost my brother a few years ago so I can honestly say I know what you are going through. To have someone close to you with so much going for them be taken away, there is no describing it.

My brother was 27 when he passed, he had a beautiful baby girl, and so much going for him in life. It just never made sense to me, and still doesn't. Hell to this day nearly ten years later, I can't hear that on song that goes like.... "He ain't heavy. He's my brother." With out wanting to breaking in to tears.

I can't say my prayers go out to you, as I lost all faith in god long ago, but my thoughts are with you and your family bro.

 

[saint1]

Sorry to here it. my condolences
this was a very sad dad indeed
saint1

 

[ivanushka]

Simpathy and impoathy are two very different things....

Hey man, you'll be alright my prayer are with you and my i father(uncle)understand what you are going through.....my uncle that raised me killed himself a year ago he cut his own throat and managed to stab himself in the chest a couple of times, all that was in a bath tab he was like my dad because my parents got divorced when i was 6 so he raised me killing yourself is a permanent solution to a temporary problem, my cousin that i grew up with found his dad in a bath of blood with a bottle of vodka on the floor the best part was when the ambulance got there they did not have a stretcher and the cops were being dicks he lived on the fifth floor of an appartment with no elevator so my cousin(like my brother grew up together) and his mom and one of the medics wraped him up in sheets and drag him down the stairs without a stretcher, well that's russia for you.......hang in there man there is plenty of people that care about you

PS the reason he killed himself was he was sczhitsophrenic(sorry for the spelling) with severe depression in russia(siberia) they don't have meds specially back in those days so he had no choice and alcohol made it a lot worse the worse part that was not the first time he had a scar o his neck i never really asked where it came from but he tried killing himself 10 years before that but his
wife found him and they saved him...they neve told me he was crazy but he raised me i found out everything from my mom when she called me and told me he was dead, i had a mental break down and still saffering from panic attacs and depression i have not been back to russia for 8 years never been back my cousin is 20 years old, our birthdays are on the same day may 3rd two years apart......i can only imagine what he is going through right i talk to him he was never the same, i have been back to russia i'm from siberia for 8 years because if i go back as a russian citizen i go straight to the army from the airport everyone goes to the army in russia most don't make it back specially with chechnia war going on....

be strong man...

 

[cinnabar8521]

Keeping it at the top for you bro, I hope things are getting better for you. cinnabar

 

[Machiavellian Muscle]

Sorry to hear this, stay srong...

 

[Mad Max]

He's in my prayers.
---PEACE---Mad Max

 

[bigjim33]

i am sorry bro and i hope you and your family make it through this the best you can.

 

[greg21]

I am very sorry to hear that this has happened bro. My thoughts and wishes go out to you and your family. I will keep you in my prayers.

 

[40butpumpin]

Man this is the first time I'm reading this thread and all I can say is I'm sorry. My prayers are with you, bro.

 

[wrj]

Re: Simpathy and impoathy are two very different things....

Hey man, you'll be alright my prayer are with you and my i father(uncle)understand what you are going through.....my uncle that raised me killed himself a year ago he cut his own throat and managed to stab himself in the chest a couple of times, all that was in a bath tab he was like my dad because my parents got divorced when i was 6 so he raised me killing yourself is a permanent solution to a temporary problem, my cousin that i grew up with found his dad in a bath of blood with a bottle of vodka on the floor the best part was when the ambulance got there they did not have a stretcher and the cops were being dicks he lived on the fifth floor of an appartment with no elevator so my cousin(like my brother grew up together) and his mom and one of the medics wraped him up in sheets and drag him down the stairs without a stretcher, well that's russia for you.......hang in there man there is plenty of people that care about you

PS the reason he killed himself was he was sczhitsophrenic(sorry for the spelling) with severe depression in russia(siberia) they don't have meds specially back in those days so he had no choice and alcohol made it a lot worse the worse part that was not the first time he had a scar o his neck i never really asked where it came from but he tried killing himself 10 years before that but his
wife found him and they saved him...they neve told me he was crazy but he raised me i found out everything from my mom when she called me and told me he was dead, i had a mental break down and still saffering from panic attacs and depression i have not been back to russia for 8 years never been back my cousin is 20 years old, our birthdays are on the same day may 3rd two years apart......i can only imagine what he is going through right i talk to him he was never the same, i have been back to russia i'm from siberia for 8 years because if i go back as a russian citizen i go straight to the army from the airport everyone goes to the army in russia most don't make it back specially with chechnia war going on....

be strong man...

I'm sorry to hear about your loss my friend. What I'm starting to understand is that the pain never truly goes away, it just becomes less cumbersome as the months go by. It still feels like a dream to me...And when I dream about him (which happens frequently) it feels so real. Odd but true.