meh, i feel like such an SWV. i hate memememe threads but you guys do a good job of cheering peeps up.
The inactivity and boringness in my life is driving me crazy. Basically been a hermit the past 2, almost 3 months (aside from 4th of july week where i went out 3-4 times that week. had a great time and felt like my old self)
All my money is tied up in a large number of business deals that haven't closed yet. When they do, i'll have alot of resources available, but until they do, i'm basically held hostage in my personal and business life. my expenses are very high right now so i have to be conservative until the money starts coming in again.
Can't go out, which means i can't really meet many women or have much fun. Which means i think more and more about the past and what went down with my Ex and her "other boyfriend" she had beind my back and all the money she basically stole from me...makes me feel like a worthless piece of shit. When i'm busy, active meeting new people i don't dwell on that shit..but when i'm not, it's easy to pop up. After we broke up, i was on a roll socially/w women...but i also had alot of money to blow and was going out constantly.
I had to work so hard to get my self esteem back from all that was sacrified and all she used me for, and i feel like im slowly creeping back to square one. I have no real girl in my life, not even a decent booty call (i've exhausted those)...hence the need to go out and meet people again.
i also can't really work my ass off either and focus on that, because all my marketing funds are tied up. so that means a ton of downtime at work, and its making me lose my passion for my job a little until i get things rolling again.
been trying to keep busy by reading/learning, training my ass off, and eating well...but that's not really fulfilling to me on its own.
Hoping my move back to miami will revive my life. i think it will, but i dont know. my skills are going to waste right now