I have no reason to live....I am contemplating my departure...

[Nobledude]

Sorry for my pathetic thread title...but I am reaching a very low point in my life...

A month ago I found out that my fiancee cheated on me...I was ready to forgive her despite her feelings towards me that were no there anymore....she is in love with her former boyfriend whom she has sex when we both went to Romania.

She still keeps in touch with him ....

My dad had a stroke and he is in bad shape.

I cant get my job back after being convalescent due to surgery on my achilles tendon.

I try to find another job but couldnt get one and I really liked my former job and my colleagues...but the owner of the business told me that he laid off 5 people already and it is hard for him to bring me back...


I cant suffer anymore....I love my baby daughter but I cant stand not having a job and seeing my fiancee emailing and thinking of her lover!

I was searching on line suicidal sites but I dont muster the courage to do it yet...

So here goes nothing....I have no more pride or ego in myself....

I dont care if you give me shit or insult me due to my macabre thoughts....

It wont offend me anymore...nothing can...

 

[puddlemonkey]

It will get better, I promise. And your daughter will need you, you're not going anywhere.

 

[puddlemonkey]

We've all been there bro, no girl is worth putting that kind of stress on yourself.

 

[ItalianMuscle27]

Think of your baby girl bro.. She wont have a dad, if you arent around.. Hows that little girl going to survive in this world without a father to look up to? She wont be able to do that if you arent around.. Stay strong!!!

 

[Nobledude]

Think of your baby girl bro.. She wont have a dad, if you arent around.. Hows that little girl going to survive in this world without a father to look up to? She wont be able to do that if you arent around.. Stay strong!!!

I know ...but I cant suffer being alive and knowing that my fiancee can leave my anytime and maybe reunite with her former lover!

I will not be able to witness this...

Today, I sent her the following text message " if for some reasonI will disappear from this world , please tell our daughter that I loved her very much and I am sorry"
I know, you guys would say " if you lover her a lot, why would you off yourself"?

Trust me, unless you walk in my shoe it will be hard to understand what I am going thru...

 

[Nobledude]

In her family, her dad hanged himself and her youngest brother committed suicide by taking umpteen sleeping pills...

very , very sad!!!

 

[digimon7068]

first of all, suicide is the ultimate selfish/self-indulgent act. . .you have a child. . .you surrendered your right to be selfish. . .so put that shit out of your head. . .

now. . .you have two choices. . .you can look at the current state of your life as being empty and worthless and meaningless. . .or you can see it as an empty, clean slate. . .an opportunity to start fresh. . .to reinvent yourself. . .unburdended by the fears that most of us have (e.g., worrying about losing all our shit). . .

the choice is yours. . .

 

[GUARDIAN]

Do u want your daughter to be raised by your ex in your absence?
do u want those same values she has instilled into your daughter?

 

[puddlemonkey]

Its not worth it, not at all. Sure, you hurt now, but it DOES get better. Much better! When I lost my first love I thought my life was over, took me nearly two years to get over her. For the first couple months I couldn't even sleep because I was so depressed, I'd get 2-4 hours a night if any. It slowly gets better, I promise. You not having a job isn't exactly helping, that just gives you more time to think about her. You've got to try to find ways to keep busy.

 

[all the whey]

Its not worth it, not at all. Sure, you hurt now, but it DOES get better. Much better! When I lost my first love I thought my life was over, took me nearly two years to get over her. For the first couple months I couldn't even sleep because I was so depressed, I'd get 2-4 hours a night if any. It slowly gets better, I promise. You not having a job isn't exactly helping, that just gives you more time to think about her. You've got to try to find ways to keep busy.

hell yeah.

It sucks at first. But, everyone I know is glad it happened and glad they are not with her anymore.

You will be better off if you learn from this.