I have no reason to live....I am contemplating my departure...

[silverstar1025]

suicide- permanent solution to temporary problems. The ULTIMATE selfish act. You don't REALLY love your daughter or you wouldn't be talking like this, would you?
Think about this, "Would you intentinally physically harm you daughter in any way, i.e. punch her in the face, kick her in the ribs hard enough to break them, etc." But you would mentally rip her heart out every single day, every morning, every important occasion, that she thought, I wish Dad was here to (infinate number statements) for her entire life. Every day, every time.

think about it.

+1 exactly my feeling on it.

 

[curvymommy]

+1 exactly my feeling on it.

Me three. Wow, you guys are great with words.

Not to personalize this to be about me but next month is the anniversary of my friend's suicide and it's just something you never get over.

I think of it almost every day. I can only imagine how his mom feels.

 

[silverstar1025]

Me three. Wow, you guys are great with words.

Not to personalize this to be about me but next month is the anniversary of my friend's suicide and it's just something you never get over.

I think of it almost every day. I can only imagine how his mom feels.

Yep she will grow up messed up thinking about how she wishes daddy was there on all her important things in life. He won't be because he offed himself. How sad for her. Wake up nobledude!

 

[Nobledude]

I cant stop desire her sexually...she is a hot woman. I tried to stifle my desire to want her anymore, but I failed miserably...

I wish my mind wont be so wrapped around her anymore, but is beyond my abilities...

It will take just a second of insanity to depart from this world....why would I live miserably and unhappy?

I can be haunted for the rest of my life by this event...I cant live with pain! I cant suffer anymore!

I may be a pussy for the fact that for the moment I lack courage and I want to find a painless way to end my journey on this Earth....


I saw a psychologist ....we went together to see him 2 weeks ago...he took as apart and told me that at this point in time she is set on that guy and he cant do nothing to changer her mind....

I made an appt. to see a priest for a confession. I christian orthodox by birth...

I try everything....but I dont know if there is hope for me...

I bought the movie THE SECRET....got it yesterday, had no time to see that yet...


Unfortunately, I ran out of options...

It will kill my parents if they find out what happened to me....I hope they will never know...they are back in Europe.

 

[EnderJE]

Dude, I'm going to take a different track that when most people have told you. Do what ever you think is right...

That said, I want you to think back to HS when you got some shitty news...didn't you think that it would 'last forever' and that you'd 'never' recover'? Don't you look back and see how that difficult time in your lift really helped you out and made you better?

Isn't now the same thing?

 

[all the whey]

First of all, I am not trying to impress anyone....I reach a point where I cant see how would I be able to live knowing that my daughter could be yanked away from me at any time by her mom....

She is a great mom and they love each other very much. But I wont be able to stand the idea that in the morning I would wake up and not be able to see her waking up...

Also, in the future she may reunite with her former lover....I wont give her my approval to have my daughter being taken to Europe in Romania to see him..

Their only option would be for him to come to US and live together....from what she told me, he doesnt want to live in US..but who knows...

She is not a great mom.

She is a selfish piece of shit to put you and your daughter in this situation.

 

[silverstar1025]

I saw a psychologist ....we went together to see him 2 weeks ago...he took as apart and told me that at this point in time she is set on that guy and he cant do nothing to changer her mind....

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I thought psychologists couldn't share information that is discussed with patient married or not? The psychologist told you about his talk with your wife? Wow that is odd to me.

Again, your post does not show that you love your little girl.

 

[rykertest]

Sorry for my pathetic thread title...but I am reaching a very low point in my life...

A month ago I found out that my fiancee cheated on me...I was ready to forgive her despite her feelings towards me that were no there anymore....she is in love with her former boyfriend whom she has sex when we both went to Romania.

She still keeps in touch with him ....

My dad had a stroke and he is in bad shape.

I cant get my job back after being convalescent due to surgery on my achilles tendon.

I try to find another job but couldnt get one and I really liked my former job and my colleagues...but the owner of the business told me that he laid off 5 people already and it is hard for him to bring me back...


I cant suffer anymore....I love my baby daughter but I cant stand not having a job and seeing my fiancee emailing and thinking of her lover!

I was searching on line suicidal sites but I dont muster the courage to do it yet...

So here goes nothing....I have no more pride or ego in myself....

I dont care if you give me shit or insult me due to my macabre thoughts....

It wont offend me anymore...nothing can...

funny thing I've been feeling a lot of those feelings myself over the past year but I'm too chicken to end it all. I can't offer you any golden answer man, just the fact that time will heal it all, it's really the only thing that can. I would encourage you to go speak with a priest or go to church or see a counselor that will just LISTEN. It's amazing how venting or getting it all off your chest can really help. Maybe some antidepressants would help for a short time as well? I emphasize short term on those though. If you hit it from all angles at ones, the problems while serious don't seem as impossible to conquer. I'll be praying for you man, good luck.

 

[all the whey]

I cant stop desire her sexually...she is a hot woman. I tried to stifle my desire to want her anymore, but I failed miserably...

I wish my mind wont be so wrapped around her anymore, but is beyond my abilities...

It will take just a second of insanity to depart from this world....why would I live miserably and unhappy?

I can be haunted for the rest of my life by this event...I cant live with pain! I cant suffer anymore!

I may be a pussy for the fact that for the moment I lack courage and I want to find a painless way to end my journey on this Earth....


I saw a psychologist ....we went together to see him 2 weeks ago...he took as apart and told me that at this point in time she is set on that guy and he cant do nothing to changer her mind....

I made an appt. to see a priest for a confession. I christian orthodox by birth...

I try everything....but I dont know if there is hope for me...

I bought the movie THE SECRET....got it yesterday, had no time to see that yet...


Unfortunately, I ran out of options...

It will kill my parents if they find out what happened to me....I hope they will never know...they are back in Europe.

Dude this happens to all of us. We get hung up on some pussy. Then, when she leaves you think you will never get good pussy again.

Trust me you will!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[Nobledude]

I thought psychologists couldn't share information that is discussed with patient married or not? The psychologist told you about his talk with your wife? Wow that is odd to me.

Again, your post does not show that you love your little girl.

No, he didnt told me about his talk to my fiancee....he told me that she doesnt want to be counseled and see no hope for her at this point in time to forget her lover and get her old feelings back towards me...