I have no reason to live....I am contemplating my departure...

[Bikini Mod]

HELLO PEOPLE!

This guy had his lady cheat on him...

AND?

I was beaten to the ground by the man I dedicated 13 years of my life to and whom I loved faithfully, then I find out he cheated, I had my children and my life stolen... those children are abused daily while I sit by and can do nothing and I AM STILL FUKKIN HERE FIGHTING TOOTH AND NAIL.

I know these words will be harsh but you need to hear it Nobledude - I guess that is the difference between a mother and a father. A MOTHER NEVER EVER EVER GIVES UP... NO MATTER WHAT. Did I come close? Fuck yes, but not because of a fukkin man - but because my situation seemed so fukkin hopeless (in regards to my children.)

We are adults. We have all been hurt. It is a temporary situation.

DEATH IS PERMANENT.

Guess what? This woman who HE THINKS will have guilt over his death.... WON'T.

The only one to suffer will be THAT CHILD.

Get over it Nobledude.

If I found a wonderful man to love me, then guess what - you will find a wonderful woman to love you. Until then BE A FATHER TO YOUR DAUGHTER.

period...

I am fukkin done with this thread.

I lost sleep over it.

Fuck that.

 

[javaguru]

I listen to you java!

And, I apprectiate your effort to help the younger guys.

I'm not that old.......

 

[javaguru]

HELLO PEOPLE!

This guy had his lady cheat on him...

AND?

I was beaten to the ground by the man I dedicated 13 years of my life to and whom I loved faithfully, then I find out he cheated, I had my children and my life stolen... those children are abused daily while I sit by and do nothing and I AM STILL FUKKIN HERE FIGHTING TOOTH AND NAIL.

We are adults. We have all been hurt. It is a temporary situation.

DEATH IS PERMANENT.

Guess what? This woman who HE THINKS will have guilt over his death.... WON'T.

The only one to suffer will be THAT CHILD.

Get over it Nobledude.

If I found a wonderful man to love me, then guess what - you will find a wonderful woman to love you. Until then BE A FATHER TO YOUR DAUGHTER.

period...

I am fukkin done with this thread.

I lost sleep over it.

Fuck that.

I made my point in the first sentence. He has a child... it's end of discussion...he's a father and that is #1.....

 

[Pat_McCrotch]

I know ...but I cant suffer being alive and knowing that my fiancee can leave my anytime and maybe reunite with her former lover!

I will not be able to witness this...

Today, I sent her the following text message " if for some reasonI will disappear from this world , please tell our daughter that I loved her very much and I am sorry"
I know, you guys would say " if you lover her a lot, why would you off yourself"?

Trust me, unless you walk in my shoe it will be hard to understand what I am going thru...

Dude I have not read all the replies as of yet so if this has already been said I apologize.

Dude its a chic. I know it hurts. It will get better. You cant bare to suffer anymore alive? How will your daughter feel when your dead? You may not be able to bare or is it bear(I need english class) anyways, will she be able to live not having you around?

I am gunna be ab asshole for a second. Sometimes a man needs a slap in the face and Ill tell you why I feel this way later in this note. You fucked it up by being an asshole. What did you expect?!?!?!?!?!

Grab your fucking balls, be a man and own up to it and go and find someone else when your ready. The sea is full of new fish waiting for a guy like you. You know where ya fucked up in this one and hopefully you wont do it again. Pain is only temporary!!!! I know this first hand.

In HS I was the kid that stuttered, low self esteem up until I was a junior or halfway through my junior year. Man I liked this girl named reagan sooooo much She was all I could think about. Everything was going great with us. My life sucked d/t reasons I am not gunna disclose here. A friend of mine got involved well ex friend lol and was trying to move in. It tore me up. I ahted competing for chics because I felt less than adequate and why would they pic me. Well something happenned and my whole world came crashing down or so I thought. I thought it was the end of the fucking world.

I go in my bathroom and take the pussy way out!!! I swallowed a bunch of pills. I crawled back in bed thinking it was gunna all be over soon. I ws laying there waiting and thinking for ehat seemed like forever then bam it hit me. WTF?!?!?!?!? Why am I such a fucking pussy?!?!?!?!? Why am I doing this for a chic?!?!?!?!? I am Pat Mc fucking Crotch!!!!! Got up my mom drove me to the hospital and from there I had a whole new outlook on life.


Life is too fucking great!!!!! Pain comes and goes and chics come and go but life is all you got. Chics are everywhere. Love comes and it goes. If you still live with her then move out or pull up your skirt and tell her to move out. She wants her ex. Tell her to move the fuck out. This is he only way you can move on.

 

[jack sparrow]

Lots of emotion in this thread.

Let it all out people.

 

[Pat_McCrotch]

such a terrible thing you're feeling right now...the best thing you can do right now is to spend as much time as possible with your daughter. take advantage of the unemployment and spend time with her.

i have a hard time believing any parent who looks in their child's eye could truly make the choice to end their life.

remember this: despite how YOU see yourself...how terrible you feel, how insecure, hurt, upset, destroyed, destructive, etc....that little girl sees a HERO and a LIFELINE.

I just got a lil choked up on that one.

 

[Pat_McCrotch]

First of all, I am not trying to impress anyone....I reach a point where I cant see how would I be able to live knowing that my daughter could be yanked away from me at any time by her mom....

She is a great mom and they love each other very much. But I wont be able to stand the idea that in the morning I would wake up and not be able to see her waking up...

Also, in the future she may reunite with her former lover....I wont give her my approval to have my daughter being taken to Europe in Romania to see him..

Their only option would be for him to come to US and live together....from what she told me, he doesnt want to live in US..but who knows...

You have rights here. she cannot just take your girl w/o your permission. If she does it is called kid napping. Go ahead and get his info now like where he works and his addy. You need to get the ball rolling on protecting your girl from oing back to europe.

 

[Pat_McCrotch]

I cant stop desire her sexually...she is a hot woman. I tried to stifle my desire to want her anymore, but I failed miserably...

I wish my mind wont be so wrapped around her anymore, but is beyond my abilities...

It will take just a second of insanity to depart from this world....why would I live miserably and unhappy?

I can be haunted for the rest of my life by this event...I cant live with pain! I cant suffer anymore!

I may be a pussy for the fact that for the moment I lack courage and I want to find a painless way to end my journey on this Earth....


I saw a psychologist ....we went together to see him 2 weeks ago...he took as apart and told me that at this point in time she is set on that guy and he cant do nothing to changer her mind....

I made an appt. to see a priest for a confession. I christian orthodox by birth...

I try everything....but I dont know if there is hope for me...

I bought the movie THE SECRET....got it yesterday, had no time to see that yet...


Unfortunately, I ran out of options...

It will kill my parents if they find out what happened to me....I hope they will never know...they are back in Europe.

This is a classic case of you want what you cant have. Move on there are other chics out there that will want you and be just as hot.

This is a controlling move. You need to re-examine yourself and see why this happenned. Then work on it and move on. I am not saying it is all your fault but some people feel trapped in a relationship and do not know how to get out so they cheat.

 

[Pat_McCrotch]

Dude this happens to all of us. We get hung up on some pussy. Then, when she leaves you think you will never get good pussy again.

Trust me you will!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

even if it is a flesh light!!!

 

[Bikini Mod]

I made my point in the first sentence. He has a child... it's end of discussion...he's a father and that is #1.....

Agreed... I don't see the issue.

You got kids then what YOU WANT goes out the window. It is ALL ABOUT THE KIDS.