Find this book and read it. I think it goes about 275 pages. When it ends, you want it to end and don't want it to end at the same time.
Some of the passages- most of them, actually- I can read over and over again. Like putting a song on repeat that you really love, even though it makes you sad... you still can't stop listening to it, because the sadness is almost... I don't know... euphoric? Cathartic? Something like that.
Everyone's different, so maybe it won't hit you like that, but you'll still really appreciate it.