Have you ever felt like just giving up?

[latinsteel]

calveless wonder, have you tried going to church??
Back in the days I felt just like you and then I started going to church. Then one day I began to smile! Things were starting to go my way!!

 

[mikeflcn]

i didnt read any of the other replies so as to avoid bias/not get distracted

in short, i think that the root cause of your depression is a subconscious realization that all your life, you were doing things in order to validate yourself and pump up your self esteem, rather than because you really wanted to do those things

we all tell ourselves stories so as to cope with our lives/reality. it seems to me that your self esteem is caught up in you somehow living up to a script, where you as the main character have to be financially successful, make lots of money, have hot girlfriends, be the party guy etc like you used to be, when really, deep down, that isnt what you want

in some of your pickup reports i got the feeling that you were trying REALLY HARD to do something (get some girl sexually) when really, what you needed was to connect with another human being, and have some joy in a dynamic where you could just chill out with someone not too different from you and have a nice experience

a nice way to feel out what you really want is to ask yourself, - if everything was a given, what would i do, and how would i act? if it was a given that you could pick up xyz girl, what would you do, and how would you act? if it was a given that you could have xyz job/respect from parents/peers/{insert thing here}, what would you do, and how would you act?

you can have some really nice insights after you take validation seeking and approval seeking behaviour out of the equation

Wow...GD that was deep and profound, I am impressed and tend to agree

 

[juiceddreadlocks]

I like mental masturbation, so this thread rocks.

 

[stosstruppe]

calveless wonder, have you tried going to church??
Back in the days I felt just like you and then I started going to church. Then one day I began to smile! Things were starting to go my way!!

A lot of vulnerable hotties with low self esteem attending your church?

 

[calveless wonder]

wow, GD knows me really really fuckin well. completely fuckin nailed it like an underage girl trying to get into the club he works at.

he's my boy but shit, even my closest RL friends couldn't deduce that

i'm back on trizzack. aside from the fact i got sick and feel like doodoo.i got a plan Stan and just trying to execute.

 

[blueta2]

wow, GD knows me really really fuckin well. completely fuckin nailed it like an underage girl trying to get into the club he works at.

he's my boy but shit, even my closest RL friends couldn't deduce that

i'm back on trizzack. aside from the fact i got sick and feel like doodoo.i got a plan Stan and just trying to execute.

Good, keep up the good vibes. You're going to kick some butt my friend

 

[ortiz34]

i'm back on trizzack.

till tommorow ,when you drop your tootbrush and make a thread how now your life is falling apart

*elbows you*

 

[juiceddreadlocks]

stay away from the white lady.

 

[calveless wonder]

till tommorow ,when you drop your tootbrush and make a thread how now your life is falling apart

*elbows you*

you're such a jerkoff

which is why i you


ps. you listened!!! that other avi was creeping me out

 

[billfred]

You need to move. Your lifestyle is most of your problem.

Go get the most manual labor job you can find. Something that puts you in teh middle of nowhere doing really hard shit. Try offshore oil platform in Nigeria or on in Kazakstan or something.

Give that one year - after that you will have cleared the cobwebs out of your head and have some motivation to get through school.

Your problem now is you lived in a great city and made great money and you can't come to the realization that that game is over FOREVER. Get out of there and see the world from a different angle.