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Ever feel like complete crap (mentally) and not know why?

calveless wonder

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just one of those days.......

i can't focus on work and don't want to talk to anybody, i feel like laying in my bed and doing nothing.

just been in a negative state of mind since i woke up, thinking about things i shouldn't.

i had a shitty nightmare last night that brought alot of these negative thoughts up initially...but i dunno.

i was so positive and feeling great the past few weeks, but maybe thats because i just distract myself from whats really bothering me.

am i the only one?

im hoping tearing up the gym tonight will help....
 
Bino said:
lay off the sauce?
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i always feel like a king on the sauce....virtually a way to self medicate myself, drink less, buckle down on work.
it very well could be though. Perhaps the change in esters has kinda thrown me off. my diet last two days has been kinda weak....could play a part too

but my issues are deeper than that. its just bringing it out
 
Smurfy said:
my husband suffers from this.
major depression
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i have a hard time between determining when its neurologically based and when its just my mindset and way of thinking.

i've been off my ADHD meds for a couple of months now and its starting finally to catch up to me....fuck
 
calveless wonder said:
i always feel like a king on the sauce....virtually a way to self medicate myself, drink less, buckle down on work.
it very well could be though. Perhaps the change in esters has kinda thrown me off. my diet last two days has been kinda weak....could play a part too

but my issues are deeper than that. its just bringing it out
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you do seem to have big time highs and lows
the highs seem fun, the lows seems sucky big time.
 
I am a very emotional person. Usually I can channel those emotions to propel me forward to do something positive. But, sometimes it gets the best of me and I fall into a funk such as you are describing now.

No real advice just a hug.
 
calveless wonder said:
i have a hard time between determining when its neurologically based and when its just my mindset and way of thinking.

i've been off my ADHD meds for a couple of months now and its starting finally to catch up to me....fuck
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Get on some phosphatidylserine. Also try St. John's Wort and Passion Flower.
 
calveless wonder said:
just one of those days.......

i can't focus on work and don't want to talk to anybody, i feel like laying in my bed and doing nothing.

just been in a negative state of mind since i woke up, thinking about things i shouldn't.

i had a shitty nightmare last night that brought alot of these negative thoughts up initially...but i dunno.

i was so positive and feeling great the past few weeks, but maybe thats because i just distract myself from whats really bothering me.

am i the only one?

im hoping tearing up the gym tonight will help....
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This will make you feel better.

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curvymommy said:
I am a very emotional person. Usually I can channel those emotions to propel me forward to do something positive. But, sometimes it gets the best of me and I fall into a funk such as you are describing now.

No real advice just a hug.
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I worry about you sometimes Curvymom.

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Yeah I sometimes will have days like that. No known reason to feel that way too. I just call them by "blah" days. Everything in life is good, but not in the mood to be cheerful or do shit on those blah days. I think it is hormonal though.
 
calveless wonder said:
just one of those days.......

i can't focus on work and don't want to talk to anybody, i feel like laying in my bed and doing nothing.

just been in a negative state of mind since i woke up, thinking about things i shouldn't.

i had a shitty nightmare last night that brought alot of these negative thoughts up initially...but i dunno.

i was so positive and feeling great the past few weeks, but maybe thats because i just distract myself from whats really bothering me.

am i the only one?

im hoping tearing up the gym tonight will help....
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Drugs r bad mmkay.

Seriously though I'll say I could empathize with you sometimes, but from what I gather of you from your posts, you seem to ultimately have a far too success-oriented mindset to post shit like this.

Load up the bar with 45's and shrug it off.
 
I have days like that too. Try to think happy thoughts to distract yourself. Exercise will help you out if you get a good endorphin rush.
 
jnevin said:
Get a glock and play russian roulette.
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Bro, please don't even joke about suicide. Suicide is not cool and hurts a lot more people than just the victim.

I'm not trying to jump all over you. I know you didn't mean any harm but suicide is one thing I don't take lightly.
 
plifter said:
Bro, please don't even joke about suicide. Suicide is not cool and hurts a lot more people than just the victim.

I'm not trying to jump all over you. I know you didn't mean any harm but suicide is one thing I don't take lightly.
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If we can't laugh at the wake of destruction suicide leaves, what do we have left?
 
plifter said:
Bro, please don't even joke about suicide. Suicide is not cool and hurts a lot more people than just the victim.

I'm not trying to jump all over you. I know you didn't mean any harm but suicide is one thing I don't take lightly.
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no worries..jnev was trying to break my negative "state". one of my best bros on or off this board. i knew he was kidding.

it helped.

I had a bad dream last night about my(our) dog..the one my ex basically intentionally deceived me so she could keep him while she ran off with this other guy.
kills me everytime i think about him. he was like my son..
Then my mind starts going off on a tangent and i get into this mode when i remember(literally) the entire moment i found out the whole elaborate deception and that i was just being used and how my self worth, business, and dog were all gone in the blink of an eye. My body literally puts me back into specific moment and i get this terrible anxiety. It got so bad today i had to leave the office at lunchtime...i was ready to lose it and break down.

it sounds crazy, but i feel like its some type of post traumatic stress.
i get these thoughts and images on a daily basis..and just have accepted them to be. Something reminds me of it and i get into a horrible emotional state until i snap out of it. And then i just keep going on with life...I can't control these thoughts either.

externally things in my life have gotten much better....and i've worked so fuckin hard to restablish life to where i was and where i want to be.
yet i'm still not happy and its scaring me. I can't get close to anybody because of the emotional wall i put up and i haven't had a meaningful encounter with a female in awhile. I should have everything going for me in that department, but i don't allow myself to subconciously.
casual/very superficial dates, self sabotage, meaningless sex have been the extent...In fact, i've only told 1 girl i've dated or known about what happened to me.

I just pushed through thinking this was normal and the more time passed the better i'd get. but i don't know i feel that way anymore. I meet alot of cool people (both guys and girls) and i never let anyone get too close, especially women, because i feel like i'll be completely vulnerable again. my friends i have been kinda treating like shit....and i dont know why

i think i need to get a cat...might help with these lonely spells

SWV out (sorry for the mememewaaabulance. I don't think or talk about this stuff anymore with anybody. I just go about my day and deal with it...i feel like its a burden to talk about the same thing over and over again with my friends...so i just pretend to be over it)
 
calveless wonder said:
casual/very superficial dates... meaningless sex
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what's wrong with these things? Enjoy it while it lasts. Just a different season player. Play on.
 
jnevin said:
Dude, if you get a cat you'll be twice the fag Liberace ever was.
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dude, the dog i had was a pomeranian. it can't get gheyer than that. but he was the shit. i've had some awesome animals, but none warmer or cuter or more loving than him.
cats are cool dooder.

what's the dog gonna do when i'm in the office besides shit everywhere.

i'd have to pay for doggy day care to own a dog
 
I don't know your entire story so I can't really provide a lot of advice. The cat idea sounds good. I live by myself and I've often thought about getting a kitty to break some of the loneliness. Unfortunately it's against my lease contract. Cats are great friends when they are in a lovable mood. I used to have a cat about 12 years ago.
 
sometimes, yeah, not often, but its happened. I can usually figure out why. Lack of exercise, or caffeine, stress, etc.
 
hanselthecaretaker said:
Drugs r bad mmkay.

Seriously though I'll say I could empathize with you sometimes, but from what I gather of you from your posts, you seem to ultimately have a far too success-oriented mindset to post shit like this.

Load up the bar with 45's and shrug it off.
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or if your hansel, put a 25 on each side and get the trainer to spot
:)
 
walliwalibus said:
Who knows if thread is real..... so no comment. It's funny people here find certain things funny.......
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the people that are joking have earned the right to do so
it's not like they are strangers to the OP
 
walliwalibus said:
Who knows if thread is real..... so no comment. It's funny people here find certain things funny.......
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everyone on this thread knows the whole story and are my friends.

making it a light situation works very well on me lol.

new people wont get it
 
Cool then bro, just checkin' ya know, lots of craziness happining........On Major days as I call em, I double the dosage and kick back with the headphones and just let the $h!t happen. Next day comes and all is back to normal.
 
calveless wonder said:
no worries..jnev was trying to break my negative "state". one of my best bros on or off this board. i knew he was kidding.

it helped.

I had a bad dream last night about my(our) dog..the one my ex basically intentionally deceived me so she could keep him while she ran off with this other guy.
kills me everytime i think about him. he was like my son..
Then my mind starts going off on a tangent and i get into this mode when i remember(literally) the entire moment i found out the whole elaborate deception and that i was just being used and how my self worth, business, and dog were all gone in the blink of an eye. My body literally puts me back into specific moment and i get this terrible anxiety. It got so bad today i had to leave the office at lunchtime...i was ready to lose it and break down.

it sounds crazy, but i feel like its some type of post traumatic stress.
i get these thoughts and images on a daily basis..and just have accepted them to be. Something reminds me of it and i get into a horrible emotional state until i snap out of it. And then i just keep going on with life...I can't control these thoughts either.

externally things in my life have gotten much better....and i've worked so fuckin hard to restablish life to where i was and where i want to be.
yet i'm still not happy and its scaring me. I can't get close to anybody because of the emotional wall i put up and i haven't had a meaningful encounter with a female in awhile. I should have everything going for me in that department, but i don't allow myself to subconciously.
casual/very superficial dates, self sabotage, meaningless sex have been the extent...In fact, i've only told 1 girl i've dated or known about what happened to me.

I just pushed through thinking this was normal and the more time passed the better i'd get. but i don't know i feel that way anymore. I meet alot of cool people (both guys and girls) and i never let anyone get too close, especially women, because i feel like i'll be completely vulnerable again. my friends i have been kinda treating like shit....and i dont know why

i think i need to get a cat...might help with these lonely spells

SWV out (sorry for the mememewaaabulance. I don't think or talk about this stuff anymore with anybody. I just go about my day and deal with it...i feel like its a burden to talk about the same thing over and over again with my friends...so i just pretend to be over it)
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No SWV. We all have been there. (I know everyone says that) Time and you improving yourself will make it better. (I know everyone says that) But, it is true! I lived it a few times.

I still have certain triggers that will automatically make me feel like I did when it happened.(from 10 and 15yrs ago)

But, I know truely feel it was the best thing to happen. And, I am much better without. ( I knew it right away, but didn't truly feel it until a yr or so later)

Don't worry about finding that special connection already. By you feeling this way is telling you are not ready. (and it is rare and hard to find anyways)

But, the good news is you are stronger than 90% of the people. They latch on to someone to fill that void and try to make that special bond as soon as they can.

Oh and chicks dig a big meathead who is secure enough to have cats!
 
Dude, I swear we're from the same mother.

You are a very sentimental person. You're ambitious because you're always looking to improve yourself and "make it" so to speak. BUT, you're not doing it just for yourself. You LOVE having a companion, someone who just understands YOU and you feel like you had that and in retrospect it was all an illusion because of the way it ended. I doubt it was, and I bet it was genuine. I know you'd like to have that again, to share everything you have including all these goals with an awesome wifey potential dime who wants to be there every step of the way. If you just keep pushing forward and have fun doing the things you enjoy, the things that will make you successful and happy, that will fall into place. I know it's hard especially when nothing special comes along.

Shit man, I'm in the same boat with women. I refuse to let a girl close to me if I don't see potential. My wall is up because I don't think many women understand or feed into my obsessions with physical and business goals. Sure, meaningless sex takes place. I chat here and there, but a true connection is very rare for me to have. I'm (WE, I'm sure) are too emotionally deep of people to fall for anything out of insecurity like all the whey said. Too many people rush into bullshit, half-ass it, and blame all the wrong things on why the relationship went to shit. Most people are pussies, you are not.

I know you're a warrior, but even the strongest need a reality check. Stay focused nugga, holla at me anytime you want. Spring is almost here...I know it's always warm down there, but more skirts are bound to be out soon!!! And keep getting swole :evil:
 
Oh, if chatting doesn't work I'll fucking come down there and we'll get stupid with bitches. Yes, I'm willing to cheat on my diet for you dawg. For you.
 
calveless wonder said:
no worries..jnev was trying to break my negative "state". one of my best bros on or off this board. i knew he was kidding.

it helped.

I had a bad dream last night about my(our) dog..the one my ex basically intentionally deceived me so she could keep him while she ran off with this other guy.
kills me everytime i think about him. he was like my son..
Then my mind starts going off on a tangent and i get into this mode when i remember(literally) the entire moment i found out the whole elaborate deception and that i was just being used and how my self worth, business, and dog were all gone in the blink of an eye. My body literally puts me back into specific moment and i get this terrible anxiety. It got so bad today i had to leave the office at lunchtime...i was ready to lose it and break down.

it sounds crazy, but i feel like its some type of post traumatic stress.
i get these thoughts and images on a daily basis..and just have accepted them to be. Something reminds me of it and i get into a horrible emotional state until i snap out of it. And then i just keep going on with life...I can't control these thoughts either.

externally things in my life have gotten much better....and i've worked so fuckin hard to restablish life to where i was and where i want to be.
yet i'm still not happy and its scaring me. I can't get close to anybody because of the emotional wall i put up and i haven't had a meaningful encounter with a female in awhile. I should have everything going for me in that department, but i don't allow myself to subconciously.
casual/very superficial dates, self sabotage, meaningless sex have been the extent...In fact, i've only told 1 girl i've dated or known about what happened to me.

I just pushed through thinking this was normal and the more time passed the better i'd get. but i don't know i feel that way anymore. I meet alot of cool people (both guys and girls) and i never let anyone get too close, especially women, because i feel like i'll be completely vulnerable again. my friends i have been kinda treating like shit....and i dont know why

i think i need to get a cat...might help with these lonely spells

SWV out (sorry for the mememewaaabulance. I don't think or talk about this stuff anymore with anybody. I just go about my day and deal with it...i feel like its a burden to talk about the same thing over and over again with my friends...so i just pretend to be over it)
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This probably won't really help, so I won't be offended if you don't read past this sentance!

but I used to have this problem all the time.. all the fuckiiing time.. I'd let all the negative thoughts and shit landslide into my brain and it would basically brainfuck me for a day or two..

I mean, if you have these thoughts these moments all the time.. you can't ignore it.. FUCK accepting it, you don't have to do that..

I use this shit man, use it as fuel, get fucking ANGRY get pissed off, use it to better yourself, for one or two more reps at the gym, 5-10 more minutes of cardio, get it out man, fuck it feels good to get angry sometimes.

respect your emotions, but don't feel anxious bro.

you're top shelf in my books, your life is only going to get betta dawg!

Anyhow, I'm sure that was all pretty useless information, I'm just a young punk, hah. :qt:
 
swole said:
Dude, I swear we're from the same mother.

You are a very sentimental person. You're ambitious because you're always looking to improve yourself and "make it" so to speak. BUT, you're not doing it just for yourself. You LOVE having a companion, someone who just understands YOU and you feel like you had that and in retrospect it was all an illusion because of the way it ended. I doubt it was, and I bet it was genuine. I know you'd like to have that again, to share everything you have including all these goals with an awesome wifey potential dime who wants to be there every step of the way. If you just keep pushing forward and have fun doing the things you enjoy, the things that will make you successful and happy, that will fall into place. I know it's hard especially when nothing special comes along.

Shit man, I'm in the same boat with women. I refuse to let a girl close to me if I don't see potential. My wall is up because I don't think many women understand or feed into my obsessions with physical and business goals. Sure, meaningless sex takes place. I chat here and there, but a true connection is very rare for me to have. I'm (WE, I'm sure) are too emotionally deep of people to fall for anything out of insecurity like all the whey said. Too many people rush into bullshit, half-ass it, and blame all the wrong things on why the relationship went to shit. Most people are pussies, you are not.

I know you're a warrior, but even the strongest need a reality check. Stay focused nugga, holla at me anytime you want. Spring is almost here...I know it's always warm down there, but more skirts are bound to be out soon!!! And keep getting swole :evil:
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I literally got chills reading some of this...it's like you went into my head and literally stole the words and emotions out of me. Especially the bold part.

That's exactly what i feel...and what i felt. She was really the only girl that ever understood my complicated ass...and had the same intelligence and vision i did.It was genuine for a long time....but i also fucked up and lost some of that drive in specific areas (not work/business) but personally and let myself go in certain aspects. A large part of her didn't want to leave me...and i think thats why she just never fessed up and let her little game play as long as she could until i found out. I didn't react that way of course...and i basically ruined her life in revenge while i was completely blinded by pain and rage. sealing the fact we'd never speak..ever again.

Sometimes i really wonder if that'll ever happen for me again. I've gotten to the point(lately) where i'm subtly being very manipulative with the women i meet, in order to obtain a specific outcome(sex, whatever). It's completely backfiring it seems and i'm coming off as incongruent, overly cocky etc and maybe even desperate (not initially but when trying to get together). I don't get it...i can literally go into any type of social setting, work a room, build rappor and walk out with a bunch of phone numbers from a variety of attractive girls and never have anything develop. Back to the point where i'm afraid to show my true self...

Part that gets me is i've been fooling myself partially thinking i want to be this player, south beach sociliate that gets all these women...but i realized i don't want that. Ever since i was young, people always assumed/hyped me up as if i was a pimp/player..and while i bought into it during high school and college, i honestly never wanted that.
i just want 1 amazing girl, and i think its causing alot of the frustration and confusion i'm having.

regardless of the fact nug, you need to come down here so we can rip it up. my favorite thing in the world is playing tour guide and giving the local miami experience to my niggas.
 
and a big thanks fellas...i'm not feeling so emo today, although i had a dream about (her) last night. It's been awhile since i've been this caught up in it, but i haven't been going out as much because of my gym/work focus and i need that female attention (no matter how superficial or surface level) to distract me sometimes.

im just going to make sure instead of getting down and feeling like shit, that i get angry instead...and at least use that energy to drive me.

i rather be at peace, but at least anger propels action. depression just causes inaction

i may just get an escort or go to the strip club to satisfy the sexual frustration i'm having right now(as in the past month..minus a few brief encounters). I have a hard time being sexual with a girl i meet that i don't see being with for long, or is under the impression that i want to date them long term. My hardwiring doesn't allow it...i tried to force myself recently a couple of times to continue to date a girl for the sex and i couldn't do it. If it's understood that it's purely sexual and there are no feelings attached, that's the only time i follow through...of course that is almost never the case.
 
it's so funny...

all it takes is one good night out to distract me.

i did HORRIBLe tonight.....like terrible. i hit on so many girls at the club (Prive), and i didn't do well at all. I was like wtf? i didn't care at all...becuase some of the girls were so wack, but i can't lie....the resistance was so high. Just complete rejection across the board....

so at the end of the night, i saw some girl with toilet paper on her shoe (like total hot blonde..top 5 hottest girl in the club) and i pointed it out and kinda made fun of her. SHe walked around with this whole "don't talk to me" attitude all night, and i musta saw her 10-15 times randomly until the toilet paper incident.

She thought i was going up to her to hit on her but i just pointed it out and she started laughing hysterically., so we started talking and dancing...boom. hit it off...danced with her for like 20 minutes.
Closed the deal when i got her friend up to dance with me (she was being all blah on the couch).

closed the number with ease.

salvaged a mediocre night into a ok night!


funniest part...the girls i hit on tonight (like right off the bat)...2 of them ended up hooking up with my friends!! LOLOL. we saw each other later and im like yeahhhhhhhhhhh
 
well cw i am cyclothymic and i have struggled my entire life
with mood swings and mild depression.

back in the day i self medicated and that made things exponentially
worse.

age and self awareness have conspired to make life much easier.
i try not to get to jacked about things because i have learned there
is the inevitable "crash" ( what goes up must come down )
i strive for equilibrium.

i read your post bro........we are a lot a like..

you have a lot goin for you........stay away from mind and mood
altering shit. educate yourself in regards to your personality type.
always pay attention to your inner dialogue.
 
omg...the girl my best firend hooked up with.

i got her into the club at the beginning of the night, and i flirted with them. later on i hit on her, and i thought the girl she was with was her friend...but
it was her MOM LMAO!!!!!!!!

holy fuck. i said the most inappropriate things to them hahahahahahaha.

my boy just told me it was her mom.
 
i rather be at peace, but at least anger propels action. depression just causes inaction
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very true

we all go through times like these. Life is sometimes ruff, but in order for us to enjoy the highs in life we have to go through some lows too. If you dont have low times in your life you're not really living
 
calveless wonder said:
omg...the girl my best firend hooked up with.

i got her into the club at the beginning of the night, and i flirted with them. later on i hit on her, and i thought the girl she was with was her friend...but
it was her MOM LMAO!!!!!!!!

holy fuck. i said the most inappropriate things to them hahahahahahaha.

my boy just told me it was her mom.
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I probably would have punted with the mom, and called it an early night.
 
all the whey said:
I probably would have punted with the mom, and called it an early night.
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it was pretty hilarious thinking about it.

who the fuck goes with their mom to a club in south beach and parties??

her mom was definetely a milf...and young.

but i dont know how you can handle a bunch of people going up to your daughter and hitting on her right in front of you
 
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