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Does anyone hate getting older as bad as me?

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This shit sucks in so many ways. These days I travel the world, give more than I take, know way more than I ever did, own more toys than I ever imagined I would and yet I would trade it all for what I had only a few years ago, youth. I would love to say it only gets better but from my eyes that isn't the case. Does anyone else hate it as bad as I do?
 
screw you guys! lol. Great JA the response you have is that I'm better at killing these days. I actually feel like going off mainly because I saw Tool the other night and the concert was weak at best. Then I watched a NIN video I had and all the kids were going crazy with energy. I remember those days when it was like I had something glowing inside me. Sure quality of life is way better now but there is no spark inside. No one can relate?
 
SublimeZM said:
are you suicidal at all?

if you want to kill yourself, feel free to PM me, i can help

Suicidal days are over for me buddy, sorry to let you down. Over that is until I'm really old and I'm losing my heath, then I will PM ya.
 
sfmonster said:
screw you guys! lol. Great JA the response you have is that I'm better at killing these days. I actually feel like going off mainly because I saw Tool the other night and the concert was weak at best. Then I watched a NIN video I had and all the kids were going crazy with energy. I remember those days when it was like I had something glowing inside me. Sure quality of life is way better now but there is no spark inside. No one can relate?
i lost that "spark" when i was 13 and realized that cumming isnt that awsome
 
SublimeZM said:
i lost that "spark" when i was 13 and realized that cumming isnt that awsome


Luckily for me I didn't cum that early in life!
 
sfmonster said:
Suicidal days are over for me buddy, sorry to let you down. Over that is until I'm really old and I'm losing my heath, then I will PM ya.
when you reach retirement age spend your retirement on illegal drugs you didnt everg et enough of.

like that movie that i didnt see, where the old guy does coke and stuff.

ill do shrooms and acid and coke and all sorts of fucked up shit when i am getting old, spice things up, not like ill need my mind or body when im that old lol
 
i don't mind getting older.

means less pimples.
 
SublimeZM said:
when you reach retirement age spend your retirement on illegal drugs you didnt everg et enough of.

like that movie that i didnt see, where the old guy does coke and stuff.

ill do shrooms and acid and coke and all sorts of fucked up shit when i am getting old, spice things up, not like ill need my mind or body when im that old lol

That is why I am working the job I do now, retirement and free drugs in 8 years. As far as the other question I think that qualifies as an overshare violation.


stilleto
not if you are on gear.
 
you still have that "spark" you just have to find it within yourself again, by finding out what it is you actually want - new challenges, new goals, new whatever. sounds like youre a little stale is all :)
 
rnch said:

*kiss*

plus, i don't have anything to prove. i don't have to drive fast, and if i do, a cop is more likely to let me go. i don't have to tell my parents what i'm doing, i don't have to prove that i'm smart, i don't have to try to act mature. I don't worry about what i can get away with or who i need to impress.

i just am who i am.
 
GoldenDelicious said:
you still have that "spark" you just have to find it within yourself again, by finding out what it is you actually want - new challenges, new goals, new whatever. sounds like youre a little stale is all :)


Yup.
 
i'm 42. . .i'll be 43 in october. . .my knees are completely shot and a number of things don't work quite like they used to. . .but life in general is still getting sweeter for me. . .i don't really want to get old, but so far the ride's been pretty good :)
 
stilleto said:
*kiss*

plus, i don't have anything to prove. i don't have to drive fast, and if i do, a cop is more likely to let me go. i don't have to tell my parents what i'm doing, i don't have to prove that i'm smart, i don't have to try to act mature. I don't worry about what i can get away with or who i need to impress.

i just am who i am.


I've noticed this about myself lately too.
 
stilleto said:
*kiss*

plus, i don't have anything to prove. i don't have to drive fast, and if i do, a cop is more likely to let me go. i don't have to tell my parents what i'm doing, i don't have to prove that i'm smart, i don't have to try to act mature. I don't worry about what i can get away with or who i need to impress.

i just am who i am.


A lot of those things are the reason I don't feel that spark anymore. I'm assuming you are married and possibly have kids, if so that is an entire different world. Life is starting to get boring with fewer and fewer to run with. I'm one of those people who doesn't want to "grow old". I kinda feel I did it right as a kid, why would I want that to change.
 
Nevermind I just watched the Cobert report and I have all my 'spark' back.
 
blueta2 said:
I don't hate getting older........at least I'm closer to leaving this fucked up world!


Finally someone who understands.
 
sfmonster said:
A lot of those things are the reason I don't feel that spark anymore. I'm assuming you are married and possibly have kids, if so that is an entire different world. Life is starting to get boring with fewer and fewer to run with. I'm one of those people who doesn't want to "grow old". I kinda feel I did it right as a kid, why would I want that to change.

yes, i'm married with kids.
but getting older doesn't mean "growing old". not that i'm SO old- i'm still in my 30s for a few more weeks, and I don't feel the need to party like i used to, but i still have fun. I still kick back and have a few beers (or smoke) when i feel like it. I still play in the snow and the leaves. i still play games and goof on my friends.

sounds like you just need to have some fun.
 
stilleto said:
yes, i'm married with kids.
but getting older doesn't mean "growing old". not that i'm SO old- i'm still in my 30s for a few more weeks, and I don't feel the need to party like i used to, but i still have fun. I still kick back and have a few beers (or smoke) when i feel like it. I still play in the snow and the leaves. i still play games and goof on my friends.

sounds like you just need to have some fun.


hold on stilleto I'm trying to die with someone here!
 
Well now... I am married and have been robbed of my kids. I have an unbelievable amount of talent pretty much laying to waste because of the fight against depression and yea, my 30's will be gone in the next few months. My body is breaking down inside and out finally. So do I mind?

Strange question.

I feel a lot that Stilleto and Digimon have expressed but because I have had so much of my life and vitality stolen I find myself bitter and a bit afraid. But because my nature is to be positive no matter what, I continue to struggle for a positive outlook.

Have I lost that spark? I dont think so. Hell, if I didnt have it, I would have killed myself several years ago when I first sank into Topsy Turvy world.

I just want some new tits, to tighten this skin under my chin, a little botox and the ability to fuck all night like I could when I was 36....

OK... I will settle for spending the rest of my childrens' formative years with them and my husband.

Does that answer your question?
 
BIKINIMOM said:
Well now... I am married and have been robbed of my kids. I have an unbelievable amount of talent pretty much laying to waste because of the fight against depression and yea, my 30's will be gone in the next few months. My body is breaking down inside and out finally. So do I mind?

Strange question.

I feel a lot that Stilleto and Digimon have expressed but because I have had so much of my life and vitality stolen I find myself bitter and a bit afraid. But because my nature is to be positive no matter what, I continue to struggle for a positive outlook.

Have I lost that spark? I dont think so. Hell, if I didnt have it, I would have killed myself several years ago when I first sank into Topsy Turvy world.

I just want some new tits, to tighten this skin under my chin, a little botox and the ability to fuck all night like I could when I was 36....

OK... I will settle for spending the rest of my childrens' formative years with them and my husband.

Does that answer your question?

I've lost my spark! I lost it a long time ago. I huge part of me died inside when something happened yrs ago.
I want the spark back b/c I make others around me unhappy. I want the spark back so I can learn to love again.
I love my boobs and chin, so I am good there.

I'll be 41 4 months, It's time I find my lost mojo
 
blueta2 said:
I don't hate getting older........at least I'm closer to leaving this fucked up world!
Don't get your hopes up. We all leave, but we all come back sooner or later. I've never met anyone so evolved that this was their "last time." If you've ever had so much as ONE adult argument, you'll be back :rolleyes:

I don't like getting older ... I like it here and I'm not looking forward to leaving. I particularly hate the fact I'm going to have to start over again from scratch next go around. I really want to do whatever necessary to make as much progress as possible here/now; the more work I do now, the less aggrivation/confusion I hope to have next trip.
 
musclemom said:
Don't get your hopes up. We all leave, but we all come back sooner or later. I've never met anyone so evolved that this was their "last time." If you've ever had so much as ONE adult argument, you'll be back :rolleyes:

I don't like getting older ... I like it here and I'm not looking forward to leaving. I particularly hate the fact I'm going to have to start over again from scratch next go around. I really want to do whatever necessary to make as much progress as possible here/now; the more work I do now, the less aggrivation/confusion I hope to have next trip.


Have you ever read "The Souls Code" It's about coming back until u get it right.
A tarot reader told me I was in my 5th life. I hope that's not true, cause I don't ever want to come back. If I do, I'm killing myself at birth. Maybe a nice breech ;-)
 
blueta2 said:
I've lost my spark! I lost it a long time ago. I huge part of me died inside when something happened yrs ago.
I want the spark back b/c I make others around me unhappy. I want the spark back so I can learn to love again.
I love my boobs and chin, so I am good there.

I'll be 41 4 months, It's time I find my lost mojo


I'm quickly falling in love, can you say something else depressing I can relate to. lol
 
Wootoom said:
fuck i hate how time goes by so fast, i need a fuckin cane soon


Not me, I'm going with the Costanza Rascal as soon as I can justify it.


blueta2: Now I know you are an alter because I don't get along with anyone around here this good.
 
sfmonster said:
Not me, I'm going with the Costanza Rascal as soon as I can justify it.


blueta2: Now I know you are an alter because I don't get along with anyone around here this good.


I wish I was an alter, it would be much easier to end it all that way ;-)
 
Wootoom said:
fuck sakes this thread makes me have grey hair


Ahh go drive the viper and feel young again. I can't wait, my HD night train should be in tomorrow and I'll vent with that!

I think if I had some kids I would live a bit of there life through them, I think that is what most parents do. I'm blowing this way out right now, life is actually grand, I just wish I was 21 to enjoy it.

blueta2: don't take yourself to seriously, I won't have anyone around to complain with! Thanks for the laughs and pm me with who you are really!
 
I turn 42 in 2 months. I just bought a size 5 camo mini skirt. I have a better income and helluva lot more knowledge, confidence and self-awareness than I did 20 yrs ago. Trading all that for youth again IMO means you'd have to go back to that same dumbassness that is what I can't deal w/ in people under 30 (no offense to anyone - more a change in me & my perceptions than in the people under 30). I think its all just a change in perception of things around you - I'm still moved as much as I ever was listening to my favorite heavy metal or trance during my workouts. I still dance like the idiot in the room to my favorite music -but now I'm starting to feel like people around me can't keep up w/ me.

The only thing I've lost in "getting older" is the easy ability to have kids now. That sucks moose balls, but it is the one thing that has affected me so far. The rest - make each day what you want it to be. I kinda worry about being the 40 yr old when I go out because I certainly am not "cruising" for young ass (had it before - its more like babysitting & not getting paid). I guess my goal would be to find someone who is like me in mindset & place in life and not bogged down by their age.
 
Sassy69 said:
I turn 42 in 2 months. I just bought a size 5 camo mini skirt. I have a better income and helluva lot more knowledge, confidence and self-awareness than I did 20 yrs ago. Trading all that for youth again IMO means you'd have to go back to that same dumbassness that is what I can't deal w/ in people under 30 (no offense to anyone - more a change in me & my perceptions than in the people under 30). I think its all just a change in perception of things around you - I'm still moved as much as I ever was listening to my favorite heavy metal or trance during my workouts. I still dance like the idiot in the room to my favorite music -but now I'm starting to feel like people around me can't keep up w/ me.

The only thing I've lost in "getting older" is the easy ability to have kids now. That sucks moose balls, but it is the one thing that has affected me so far. The rest - make each day what you want it to be. I kinda worry about being the 40 yr old when I go out because I certainly am not "cruising" for young ass (had it before - its more like babysitting & not getting paid). I guess my goal would be to find someone who is like me in mindset & place in life and not bogged down by their age.


jeebus....how on earth are you single??
 
I think the appetite for risk and the pain tolerance is down. and now i'm older there's always way too much "stuff" I "have" to do that i can't ignore.
Have a date with a 19-year old later this week... but i'll probably keep it as friends.
 
i've never had the spark. i continue on, though, quite normally at times. i make plans. that is called hope, an animal both curious and amazing . it's either a lie we whisper to ourselves to ease the pain and maintain a life not insane, or perhaps a voice representing the best of things we do not yet understand.
 
blueta2 said:
I've lost my spark! I lost it a long time ago. I huge part of me died inside when something happened yrs ago.
I want the spark back b/c I make others around me unhappy. I want the spark back so I can learn to love again.
I love my boobs and chin, so I am good there.

I'll be 41 4 months, It's time I find my lost mojo

I still have *that spark* it is just harder and harder for me to allow myself to feel it because of all the negativity I allow to get me down.

The spark doesn't die, IMHO, we just don't allow ourselves to feel it because then that would mean we are opening ourselves up to feel the pain that caused us to numb ourselves in the first place.
 
musclemom said:
Don't get your hopes up. We all leave, but we all come back sooner or later. I've never met anyone so evolved that this was their "last time." If you've ever had so much as ONE adult argument, you'll be back :rolleyes:

I don't like getting older ... I like it here and I'm not looking forward to leaving. I particularly hate the fact I'm going to have to start over again from scratch next go around. I really want to do whatever necessary to make as much progress as possible here/now; the more work I do now, the less aggrivation/confusion I hope to have next trip.

See I dont mind being here all that much. I mean, even with all of the pain heaped on us I still have so many wonderful gifts that I dont WANT to leave just yet...

Even with all the bullshit, I still consider myself relatively fortunate. I just have to find a way to feel my *spark* without paying so much attention to the pain. When I figure that part out, I will pass it on. LOL
 
nah, when my wife and I were seperated i got more 19 and 20 year olds than when i was 19 and 20. im 32 btw and this was last year. but there are a few things i wouldnt mind doing that i didnt have the balls to do back then but other than that no, getting older for me right now isnt an issue. plus people tell me i look 25 so thats always cool. age is definately a state of mind, dont let it bring you down.
 
c-sharp minor said:
G/f passed on 3 1/2 yrs ago. Thought life was over for me at the time.

Fast forward to today.

Have a new fiance. Went back to college at 38. I'll graduate when I'm 40.

Going into business for myself shortly.

Life is great now.

Again, life is what you make it.


I remember you posting about that. I am pleased to hear that your life is now filled with happiness. :)
 
c-sharp minor said:
G/f passed on 3 1/2 yrs ago. Thought life was over for me at the time.

Fast forward to today.

Have a new fiance. Went back to college at 38. I'll graduate when I'm 40.

Going into business for myself shortly.

Life is great now.

Again, life is what you make it.


that's awesome....this post made my day :-)
 
BIKINIMOM said:
I still have *that spark* it is just harder and harder for me to allow myself to feel it because of all the negativity I allow to get me down.

The spark doesn't die, IMHO, we just don't allow ourselves to feel it because then that would mean we are opening ourselves up to feel the pain that caused us to numb ourselves in the first place.


you are right! My spark is not dead, just buried underneath a heap of crap!
 
SoKlueles said:
btw blueta has nice real boobs


i think i look better than i did 10 years ago, albeit i was like 256 lbs
and now im nearly 100 lbs lighter
and i feel better too


wanna touch them? ;-)

I look better than I ever did, but I feel like poo. I just need to make some more life changes and I'l be fine.
 
blueta2 said:
wanna touch them? ;-)

I look better than I ever did, but I feel like poo. I just need to make some more life changes and I'l be fine.
yay of course i do
i know what you mean, i need to get my energy level up but as of right now im on antibiotics and they make me feel like crapola:( and ive been on them basically for 2 years
 
SoKlueles said:
yay of course i do
i know what you mean, i need to get my energy level up but as of right now im on antibiotics and they make me feel like crapola:( and ive been on them basically for 2 years


really? Do u have Lyme?
 
finally some people i can relate to. never had the spark either. i realized that about the time i turned 30, mid life crisis? or just realizing that life was lacking something? long story, but it has been rough. I am trying to have hope for something better in the future. But sometimes that is almost impossable. I see everybody saying that they just need to make some changes. Is it that easy? I can't seem to have enough confidence in anything to make those decisions. I can't seem to quiet get a grip without slipping back down.
 
jackangel said:
i've never had the spark. i continue on, though, quite normally at times. i make plans. that is called hope, an animal both curious and amazing . it's either a lie we whisper to ourselves to ease the pain and maintain a life not insane, or perhaps a voice representing the best of things we do not yet understand.


I HOPE this is the right answer. only time will tell, if we can give ourselves that much
 
sfmonster said:
This shit sucks in so many ways. These days I travel the world, give more than I take, know way more than I ever did, own more toys than I ever imagined I would and yet I would trade it all for what I had only a few years ago, youth. I would love to say it only gets better but from my eyes that isn't the case. Does anyone else hate it as bad as I do?
That's what HGH, Primo, var, and winny are for. :) BURP!
 
SoKlueles said:
btw blueta has nice real boobs


i think i look better than i did 10 years ago, albeit i was like 256 lbs
and now im nearly 100 lbs lighter
and i feel better too


ill bet you do
 
GoldenDelicious said:
you still have that "spark" you just have to find it within yourself again, by finding out what it is you actually want - new challenges, new goals, new whatever. sounds like youre a little stale is all :)
:lmao: this from the man who is two years younger on his myspace page!
 
mobro said:
finally some people i can relate to. never had the spark either. i realized that about the time i turned 30, mid life crisis? or just realizing that life was lacking something? long story, but it has been rough. I am trying to have hope for something better in the future. But sometimes that is almost impossable. I see everybody saying that they just need to make some changes. Is it that easy? I can't seem to have enough confidence in anything to make those decisions. I can't seem to quiet get a grip without slipping back down.


SFmonster...I see a 3rd participant in our Carbon Monoxide party ;-)




Making change is tough. You need to identify why your spark is gone.
Have u ever been to therapy or talked to anyone about how u feel?
 
jerkbox said:
jeebus....how on earth are you single??

I'm still trying to figure that one out - I think maybe I held myself to really high standards but never held other people around me to those standards, discovered I was hanging out w/ people less reliable than myself and didnt' want to get involved. I've moved around ALOT the last 3-4 yrs (FL, MN, GA, CA) and trying to get a stable work environment that I feel is productive to my career so huge amounts of frustration there.

Where are all the employed, non- living w/ parents guys w/ no baggage?
 
Sassy69 said:
I'm still trying to figure that one out - I think maybe I held myself to really high standards but never held other people around me to those standards, discovered I was hanging out w/ people less reliable than myself and didnt' want to get involved. I've moved around ALOT the last 3-4 yrs (FL, MN, GA, CA) and trying to get a stable work environment that I feel is productive to my career so huge amounts of frustration there.

Where are all the employed, non- living w/ parents guys w/ no baggage?


Well one of them you ditched in Denver to go to some stupid rodeo!!

Having met you I really do wonder how the hell you could be single.

Cheers,
Scotsman
 
Wootoom said:
fuck i hate how time goes by so fast, i need a fuckin cane soon
Youre only 13 dude, did you have it really rough in your tween years?
 
Anyone who likes getting older is a fucking weirdo. For those of you in your 40's. Newsflash, you ain't old, but you're getting closer.
 
Sassy69 said:
Where are all the employed, non- living w/ parents guys w/ no baggage?

They are all gay........that does not exist my friend!
Well it does if you want an 18 yd old living on campus working at McPukes
 
blueta2 said:
They are all gay........that does not exist my friend!
Well it does if you want an 18 yd old living on campus working at McPukes


Does exist, isn't gay, and has never worked at mcd's.

But thanks for being cynical.

Cheers,
Scotsman
 
Scotsman said:
Does exist, isn't gay, and has never worked at mcd's.

But thanks for being cynical.

Cheers,
Scotsman

Exactly. A friend was complaining when she was 30 that there are no guys out there that are single/don't have baggage/and have solid employment. At the time I felt for her but now that I am that guy I let her know that she was just blind. IMO it is the women who are hard to find in their 30's without baggage/issues.


With that all being said it isn't the woman situation that gets me down. It actually has a lot to do with having more things in life to do than time/age will allow.
 
I honestly didn't mind getting older until about 1-2 years ago. My health started going down at 37 and I don't feel the same anymore. It sucks big time.

Before that, I welcomed it. I knew I was the most fit person in the room, while my friends and peers were getting fatter and older.
 
gonelifting said:
I honestly didn't mind getting older until about 1-2 years ago. My health started going down at 37 and I don't feel the same anymore. It sucks big time.

Before that, I welcomed it. I knew I was the most fit person in the room, while my friends and peers were getting fatter and older.
+1. I didn't really start going downhill physically til about 39-40, so I went on HRT 2 yrs ago. I feel great but its getting harder to keep the weight down.

I don't concern myself with strength or size anymore. Now it's all about heart rate and bodyfat %.
 
sfmonster said:
Exactly. A friend was complaining when she was 30 that there are no guys out there that are single/don't have baggage/and have solid employment. At the time I felt for her but now that I am that guy I let her know that she was just blind. IMO it is the women who are hard to find in their 30's without baggage/issues.


With that all being said it isn't the woman situation that gets me down. It actually has a lot to do with having more things in life to do than time/age will allow.

Eh fuck her, she's probably a fat whiney bitch anyway. Here's my requirements if I were single: No smoking, only moderate drinking, no animals in the house, and no boatload of kids. You must put me first before all other people and I'll do the same for you. Must eat relatively healthy and exercise at least moderately. Hard to find a bitch like that.
 
biteme said:
Eh fuck her, she's probably a fat whiney bitch anyway. Here's my requirements if I were single: No smoking, only moderate drinking, no animals in the house, and no boatload of kids. You must put me first before all other people and I'll do the same for you. Must eat relatively healthy and exercise at least moderately. Hard to find a bitch like that.


Honestly I don't think that person exists, but I don't settle so no hurry here. Actually one of the only things I enjoy about getting older is being single. I see a lot of unhappy couples out there and I am very free to make what ever decisions I want. It is the other things that suck, having to work the body harder to get the same results, knowing myself better and thus being more aware of those annoying people around me, having elders question what I am doing with my life because I haven't take the same path they took ect....
 
stilleto said:
well i'm not.
i also get better with age.

and i demand more authoritay.
you will respek my authoritay!

i dont mind getting older. everyone is getting older all at the same time. it's not like im the only one inthe world who is aging. i dont see what the big deal is. when i was younger, yeah i think i thought more about it but now now. i guess being thankful for everything I have helps keep things in perspective so why worry about getting older? maybe it's a matter of accepting that this is the lifecycle and everyone is just a part of it. plus Im way better now than I was in my teens or twenties. I could see myself going back in time maybe and doing things over/better - but im sure everyone feels that way to some degree. but since that wont ever happen - move forward and move on.
 
sfmonster said:
Exactly. A friend was complaining when she was 30 that there are no guys out there that are single/don't have baggage/and have solid employment. At the time I felt for her but now that I am that guy I let her know that she was just blind. IMO it is the women who are hard to find in their 30's without baggage/issues.


With that all being said it isn't the woman situation that gets me down. It actually has a lot to do with having more things in life to do than time/age will allow.


Irritates the shit out of me when some woman complains about it to me. I've done the "hey thanks" thing before and most don't get it.

The other thing that gets me is I constantly have girls I know want to set me up with someone they know. First off if I wanted help I'd ask, secondly why would I want someone who isn't willing to date me themself to help me look for someone.

Cheers,
Scotsman
 
blueta2 said:
SFmonster...I see a 3rd participant in our Carbon Monoxide party ;-)




Making change is tough. You need to identify why your spark is gone.
Have u ever been to therapy or talked to anyone about how u feel?
Carbon Monoxide....hmmm...didn't think of that one.

I thought I identified why my spark was gone or just not there. So now I am going through a divorce. I don't know if there is anything worse than hurting someone who doesn't deserve it. And she is a great person and a friend. I just don't think I was ever in love with her the way I should have been. Never really attracted to her, though she is pretty. You would think that being married to someone that does everything for you and never bitches would be perfect. I can tell you how it gets, boring! I know, go ahead and call me stupid. But I just got where I didn't feel alive anymore.

I did talk to a counselor for awhile. She helped a lot. Now I am in a diff country and she don't seem to have time for me either. She won't even email me back most of the time. She says that only I can make things better. Well, I try ,but I always seem to fail.

Now what do I do? Run back home where it is safe or try to live life differently? Can I show my son(yeah..baggage, that I wouldnt trade for anything) what life is supposed to be like? or am i chasing after something that doesn't exist? Doesn't she deserve to find someone that truly loves her?
yeah, I know...blah, blah, blah :mix:
 
getting older is a part of life, as long as I'm setting goals and hitting them I'll continue to enjoy this journey called life with open arms.

I embrace getting older, it's having kids that really scares me.......
 
FriendlyCanadian said:
getting older is a part of life, as long as I'm setting goals and hitting them I'll continue to enjoy this journey called life with open arms.

I embrace getting older, it's having kids that really scares me.......


that is how I sounded pre 25. Now I am all bitter and shit, I set my goals really low and have went way beyond them so now my new goals are way to high and I will never reach them!
 
FriendlyCanadian said:
getting older is a part of life, as long as I'm setting goals and hitting them I'll continue to enjoy this journey called life with open arms.

I embrace getting older, it's having kids that really scares me.......
and it should! your life will completely change. you wont be able to go and do anything like what you can now. you will forever be a part of that childs life

and you never knew how much you could love something. i am a Daddy and damn proud of it. and to the young lady that lost her kids, fix you. you owe it to them and yourself. no matter what, you are always going to be their mother. no matter how bad you were or were not in the past, if you make it better, they never remember the bad. My Boy keeps my alive.
 
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mobro said:
Carbon Monoxide....hmmm...didn't think of that one.

I thought I identified why my spark was gone or just not there. So now I am going through a divorce. I don't know if there is anything worse than hurting someone who doesn't deserve it. And she is a great person and a friend. I just don't think I was ever in love with her the way I should have been. Never really attracted to her, though she is pretty. You would think that being married to someone that does everything for you and never bitches would be perfect. I can tell you how it gets, boring! I know, go ahead and call me stupid. But I just got where I didn't feel alive anymore.

I did talk to a counselor for awhile. She helped a lot. Now I am in a diff country and she don't seem to have time for me either. She won't even email me back most of the time. She says that only I can make things better. Well, I try ,but I always seem to fail.

Now what do I do? Run back home where it is safe or try to live life differently? Can I show my son(yeah..baggage, that I wouldnt trade for anything) what life is supposed to be like? or am i chasing after something that doesn't exist? Doesn't she deserve to find someone that truly loves her?
yeah, I know...blah, blah, blah :mix:

First off, everyone has baggage. Baggage build character.
Divorce is a tough one. My relationship broke up after 11 yrs and it was brutal, but you have to do what makes you happy.
Being safe is nice, but if you feel dead, you need to find what makes you feel alive.
She does deserve someone that loves her and she is not there for you b/c she's hurt. She is trying to move on.
Don't run back to safety, you made it this far, see what the next part of your journey has in store. It could be the best thing you ever did.
It sounds to me like you're making all the right decisions and on the road to happiness.
I hope to be there myself soon :-)
Good luck with everything.....seriously! :-)
 
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