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Can ecstacy damage be undone? I need to fix myself. Please read and help me out!

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hardone899

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Hello everyone,
I was just wondering if anyone has a friend or loved one that they have seen get help from ecstacy related damage. I have totally ruined my life due to E. I did it for about 2 years and I have really lost alot of my mental power. I had one steady job for 7 years and know I can't hold down a job at all. i don't drink or do e anymore but unfortunately the damage has already been done. although I don't want to dwell on the past it's hard to not be able to think for myself anymore. I was hospitlized about 2 months ago for a nervous breakdown. i wanted to kill myself. My mind plays tricks on me alot. I don't know if it's from the drug use or if it's just life that I don't know how to take control of anymore. I am taking celexa for depression but it doesn't really work well because I still am not smart and confident. Does anyone know if smart drugs, such as piracetam, really work? And does it have long term side effects. I guess like most people I am beginning to regret all the harm I have done to my body. i am only 26 and i have already lost a great career and i think my gfriend is sick of me just laying around and sleeping. I have a terrible OCD and anxiety now. I don't even know if the meds help me or not? I can't even tell if they make me feel any different. I have a feeling that I am slowly going to lose evrything. Please give me some advice. I am open to all suggestions. thank you jay
 
I can't determine if the E caused these problems or you would have had them anyway. You may have a had a predisposition to this and the stress on your body brought it out. You seem to be mis-diagnosed. Celexa does not sound like it is working and there are better options for you. Did your Physician prescribe Celexa or a Psychiatrist? If the latter go see someone else. If the former go see a Psychiatrist. The combination of therapy and medication can work wonders if you find the right mix. It may take a while, don't give up.
 
Its probably the e...if you were a hardcore user. I used regularly for almost two myself(1997-1998). NOT GOOD...You feel great for 3 hours and then feel like shit for 3 days.... makes me wonder why the fuck I used it so much.

Back then I felt slower and my memory was shot. But I feel great now...Give it a few months for your brain to try and recover. Your serotonin levels are probably very low and you are probably depressed.

How long have you been off?
 
I’ve seen a lot of friends go through this. I experienced it too, but for me I would always get better in about a week or two. I would basically use large amounts of E for two or three weeks then stay away from it for months. Just like that last person said, I’d have a couple of good hours each day, then maybe a few good hours then several good hours…The “good hours” were mostly in the mornings. Memory, concentration and such were completely shot for the longest time, though, probably months. My friend’s would use VERY heavily for months and months, ie: 20-30 pills a WEEK! for over two years. They quite completely about six months ago. One guy got better just about one month after quitting (his memory still sucks though), another guy has still occasional intensely “sad days” but is overall 80% back to his normal mood. Another, girl actually, is on 120mg prozac/day and is doing okay, she was on lithium for a few months too. She says she is gradually seeing an improvement…

You need to see a psychiatrist who has experience treating former ecstasy users. Everyone I’ve seen who needed treatment went to such a doc’ with that specialized experience, they all ended up on really high doses of Prozac/Zoloft usually along with other drugs…

Are you in the DC area? I know an excellent psychologist that could get you a referral to a good psychiatrist.
 
Strong Isl - We probably know each other fron the NY scene. I was an avid clubber from 1996 - 2000. Its was a long run and very fuzzy and unclear. To my friend w/ the post...After i stoppped going out and dropping it seriously took 3-8 months for my mind to really clear up.....My AS cycles definatly help me as im always happier when im on.......Thats doesnt mean you should start if you havent already, but in general understand that it takes time, but you should see the light soon. Hang'n in the Bro!
 
dumbell150 said:
Strong Isl - We probably know each other fron the NY scene. I was an avid clubber from 1996 - 2000. Its was a long run and very fuzzy and unclear. To my friend w/ the post...After i stoppped going out and dropping it seriously took 3-8 months for my mind to really clear up.....My AS cycles definatly help me as im always happier when im on.......Thats doesnt mean you should start if you havent already, but in general understand that it takes time, but you should see the light soon. Hang'n in the Bro!
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Probably definately know each others face. I was a at the Factory every week from opening day till end of 1998. Twilo, Tunnel, Roxy etc...

Was fun...at least the shit I remember. I can't believe the shit I used to do....

Anyways...Now I feel great and I am in the best shape of my life.

Definately see someone(psychologist, psychiatrist etc) hardone...nothing to be embarrased about...I think E abuse is becoming an epidemic.
 
Hardone899,
You problem is that your serotonin levels are very low or depleted from E use. You can take 5-HTP to help bring back your serotonin levels back to normal.

Goto http://www.5-htp.net/default.asp and read the info about 5-HTP. Here are some excerpts:

5-HTP, the immediate precursor to serotonin, is effectively absorbed into the bloodstream and readily passes the blood-brain barrier, to promote optimal serotonin balance in the brain.* 5-HTP was found to be superior to L-Tryptophan in this respect due to its being a step closer chemically to serotonin.

Serotonin is a neurotransmitter that is absolutely essential for your brain and body to function properly. A neurotransmitter is a chemical that carries vital signals between cells. A lack of serotonin will cause these signals to not transmit properly. Serotonin is an especially important neurotransmitter in that it governs the activities of many other important brain compounds. Low levels of serotonin can have dramatic adverse effects and has been implicated in maladies ranging from depression to fibromyalgia and insomnia.

Hope this helps, good luck to you.
 
I have been taking celexa and 5-htp for about a year and it has leveled me off very well. E really put me into a deep depression that was there from childhood. I take 5-htp twice aday and celexa once. If your mental functions are diminished supplement with PS(Phospydelserien...SP) and Ginko, PS promote brain cell regeneration and ginko promote better blood flow. I would take these for at least 3 months straight. They are not stimulants so extended use is the only way to see results. Good luck
 
there are a ton of anti-d's. you will never find the right one the first time. you need to get with your doc and figure out which one is right for you and at what dose.

there are a ton of reports comming out on the long term effects of E. natually they all contradict each other like all the studies seem to related to anything.

from experince i can tell you this. and this is just me so take it for what it's worth.

i really got into the whole party sceen a couple winters ago. i got to where i was eating anywhere from 8-12 pills per night thursday, friday, saturday, and sunday. i work with a lot of numbers and i don't know how i was never fired. i was unable to think right or even hold a thought for very long. at some point i was just smacked in the face with a realization. WHY IN THE HELL AM I DOING THIS TO MYSELF? what happened is about 10 times in the same day i would be speaking with ppl and in the middle of my sentence forget what i was talking about. and i'm not talking about forgetting where i was in a statement, but actaully forgetting what i was talking about. i was going over some reports with my boss once and half way through it forgot what we were talking about. so i looked the the papers in front of me and still couldn't remember. so we here we are sitting in my office, my boss waiting for me to finish my sentence, and i'm just looking at my paper work going "duuuhhhhh" after that, i paid very close attention to how many times a day that would happen to me and it was a lot more than i had ever realized.

it took many many month before i felt about 95% mentaly. i would say about 8 months. it really took me a long time to shake it off. now i feel like i'm at about 100% but don't know if i'm not and just getting used to the way i am now or if i've truely recovered.

what i'm trying to say is give it time. and lots of time at that. things will get back to normal if i'm the norm. one thing to note though. i've never really suffered from depression after or during my E usage. if anything i think it was just the opposite. i was was more depressed prior to when i started taking the E. but i aslo had a lot more shit going on in my life prior to E.

if you have a tendency to become depressed, i think E will add to that. if you're not, i don't think it can bring you down as much the next few days.

but back to your question, i found that it took about 5 ot 6 months before i stopped makeing the mistakes at work. i can't imagine what our controler most have though about me. i made sooooo many mistakes. mistakes i honestly don't beleive a first year college student would make, hell a high school student. . .

just hang in there. it will take time. some ppl will take longer than others. just hang in there and FIGHT TO GET YOUR LIFE BACK WHERE YOU WANT IT TO BE.

if you ever need a kick in the ass, you just email me :)

good luck!
 
40butpumpin said:
Man just pray, it works. I'm NOT kidding.
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Totally agree!

Also, simultaneously...look into the following:

5-htp (aids with depression and your body may lost it's ability to manufacture this d/t the beans!)
sam-e (over-all well-being/mood enhancer)
tyrosine (for overall neurotransmitter support)
Inositol (aids w/ deppression)

----don't waste $ on St. John's Wort---It's bunk!

And DON'T forget the prayers!
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I feel for you man. The important thing is not to see yourself as a victim, or an invalid suffering from a disease. These identity models will destroy you surer than any drug (though the pills will help). Believe in yourself, don't believe in any medicine or especially any doctor. The answer is in you not outside you. I'd like to say a medical professional will fix you, but there's an equal chance they will be ineffective or harm you if you slavishly follow what they say.
Stop beating yourself up and blaming yourself, use your compulsiveness to make lists of your goals, little ones at first, and the steps you need to achieve them. This will help with your feelings of powerlessness. Be kind to yourself. And be nice to your girl friend :)

Where I'm from the high point of ecstasy use was probably 10 years ago, though you can still get one for $6 lol, so I can see how everybody survived years later. At 30 years old the people who have fucked up their lives the most are the boozers. I think heavy E use is bad for you and some people's personalities permanently change, but basically everybody is holding it down in adulthood - jobs, relationships etc. A few of the 10E-a-night crew are really fucked, but the weekend warriors are ok.
 
I hope all of you reading this tuff are taking it to heart & learn something from it. It's not good to do any of the recreational drugs, stay away from them, they cause nothing but problems. I grew up around drugs & a lot of my family still to this day have drug problems, including my mother. It breaks my heart to see them all messed up. There's a reason they call it "dope" Drugs are nothing to mess with.
 
i just hate myself

To put it plain and simple I just hate myself. And the doctors are now labeling me which makes it even worse. jay
 
Simply put, you need to improve your nervous system which also includes your brain. I would never take anti-d's because they "might" temporarily fix your probably, but will become dependent on them, and they are not that much healthier themselves.

You should try to fix your problem naturally. Do a lot of cardio exercises, every day. Also eat a lot of fresh fruits and vegetables. If you can't eat that much, buy a shit load of fruits and veggies and make them into juice with a juicemaker, and drink up. Do this for about 6 months every day. You will detox your system, and greatly improve your nervous system naturally, the way nature meant it to be. This will definitely fix your problems.

Overall, definitely watch your diet. Don't smoke, don't drink. Eat healthy, get plenty of sleep. And in no time you will see your problems away.

Every time I feel depressed, I tell myself that it's a chemical imbalance. I buy 2 lbs of grapes, I make it into juice with my juicemaker, drink up on the spot, and I always feel better. We are machines, and the type of fuel we put into our body makes a big difference.
 
E could only have caused this if you were taking excessive amount in a short period of time otherwise this is a non-drug related disorder. I had a similar experience about 10 years ago (a lot of E in a short period of time)…. You will get better over time. I took me about four years to recover and regain my confidence in myself. I used a barrage of drugs for depression. I would have to say celexa is a bit mild for what you seem to be experiencing. Make sure you continue you counseling…As for you OCD and Anxiety… (I had the same) The best way to handle it is to come to terms that you can not control what happens. Things constantly change and nothing is permanent and nothing you do can predict the future. Once you accept that life is constantly changing then you will have no reason to have Anxiety. Anxiety is worrying about the future of which you have no control. This does not happen overnight so be patient and continue to get counseling. Do not worry about what you are going to lose so much and think about what you have. E is a powerful drug and can do a lot of damage. But you will get better it just takes time and effort. If I can help you in any way let me know. I know how you feel. I was there once.
 
Re: i just hate myself

hardone899 said:
To put it plain and simple I just hate myself.
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This is the root of your problem. This was always there. Drugs like ecstacy or acid weaken your ego so issues from your sub-conscious rear up and demand confrontation when you are least equipped to deal with them. Ecstacy damage is real http://www.drugtext.org/xtc/archive/25/default.htm but will pass. You will always be you when you look in the mirror and you have to learn to love that guy you see there.

You seem like an introspective type of guy. This has pit-falls. "And when you stare into the abyss, the abyss also stares back into you."- Friedrich Nietzsche. So don't think, act, or the hole inside you will eat your mind. Contrary to popular belief, neurons do grow back. You need mental, physical and social stimulation to maximize that process and become a better and stronger person.
 
All that I do is think and think think

I need to stop thinking about the future and past and just enjoy myself. How do I become a happy person?
 
I really do not think the E is the main part of your problem. It may have something to do with it but I think there are other factors there. I have done a ton of E and do not have these problems. I have not done E in years.

Go to another doctor and see what he says. Paxil might be your answer. Look at their website if you have questions. It changed my wifes life.
 
This stuff really can cause permanent damage that cannot be reversed.Anti E s can help with depression but brain cells & for the most part memory will not come back.Im 30 & I know alot of guys I use to see eat E alot are struggling now.



I think this post should be moved to the Club & party board so that all the little club kids can read this.
 
Hey, you're where I am except you weren't born like this. If Celexa isn't working, go back to your doc and tell him and ask to try something else. I don't think your stupid it's just everything else is clouding things for you. I'm in jeopardy at work now because I can't do my job. I just can't fucking apply myself. I got yelled at yesterday and picked up the pace for the rest of the day but I'm back to doing jack shit already and don't really give a fuck. Anyway, e-mail me if you want to talk or something. The problems may not be entirely e-related but it sounds like it for the most part in your case. Good luck to you and keep us posted.
 
I took my last hit about 6 months ago and trust me, it will get better. Piracetam helped me a lot. Just accept that you have caused some damage and make the best of it. That is all you can do! Oh yeah, No More Drugs! I've found that even pot is detrimental so I've quit that as well.
 
Man, I feel for ya... I used to hit the NYC scene hard myself and then got into E even harder when I came out to LA. I would get so depressed after doing it that I couldn't even work that monday or tuesday and would just sit in my office and stare. Sometimes I wanted to cry for no reason. I've got everything in the world going for me, except when I was doing lots of E I felt as though the world was crumbling around me... I even physically felt a "drain" type feeling in my frontal lobes...??? Anyway... I stopped that shit and I am feeling so much quicker and witty again. I've done it once in the past 6 months and plan to never do it again. I think it's the worst of the worst. Your head will clear up.. Get involved in things you like.... Get a job and DEFINITELY hit the gym. It will help. ROCK ON
 
Your assuming that your problems come from ecstasy "damage"... I wouldn't do that. First of all, when you were doing E for two years... I bet you didn't think about much else. Going to the club, dancing, loving everyone, feeling great. If you do ANYTHING that single mindedly for two years... you're going to seem "dumb" in other things for a while.

Second of all, your reaction is by no means common, in terms of its severity. I ate 5 rolls a week for two years, and took enormous quantities of acid, coke, speed, the works... I was alway a wierd kid, and I still am. But I haven't had a mental breakdown. I went through serious depression after quitting drugs. Slept for about 4 months, mostly. Then I got some help, got some good anti depressants... and fought my way out of the hole I dug for myself.

Something you have to realize... even if you did "damage your brain", its not really useful to think of things in terms of that. You and your doctor can work on your brain chemistry. You need to work on your thoughts and actions. For a long time, I was convinced that all my problems stemmed from my drug use. There is in fact a syndrome (can't think of it), where people are rendered incompetent because they think they are still affected by drugs they don't take anymore. Sounds like you have this. I started manifesting stronger signs of tic syndrome around the time I quit doing drugs. Now I have pretty regular tics. I was convinced I'd "fucked" my nervous system... and so was everyone I knew... because I had uncrontrollable tics after I stopped doing drugs. Then I read some books about tics and tourettes, and I looked at the childhood histories... about the little warning signs. ANd I realized I had em all. It was always there... and it gets worse in your late teens/early 20s. My suggestion: read like hell about your brain, and about your disorders... and you'll see that its not the E.

I'm sure you're having difficulties. But lets face it: most mental problems really start expressing themselves around your age. No, large quantities of neurotoxic stimulants don't help things... and neither does subjecting your body to the rave life. But you will get better, if its just from the E. Just takes time. And if its not... most people can deal with their disorders fairly well. Its about forming a team with your psychiatrist, and psychologist (if you got two), and working through the shit you were hiding from when you succumbed to drug addiction.

I met a guy once who literally smoked himself retarded, by doing nothing but smoking and selling weed for 10 years. He went to jail... and stopped getting high. He was known as "space cadet", a total idiot. In time, over his 5 year sentence... he read, and read. His mental capacity came back. He's now a lawyer, and a lecturer on the dangers of drug abuse to kids.

This is pretty much a worse case scenario there... this guy. And he came back.

Nerves don't regrow. But MINDS can. Hit the motherfucking books. Stimulate your brain if you want it to grow, just like muscle. In time, if your problems are from drug abuse, then you'll begin to feel more and more "normal." I can't tell you how good a feeling it was, when I realized... I didn't feel the general feelign of malaise known as "fucked up", about a year after I stopped taking drugs. Its a fight. But you can win.

Keep your head up.
 
By the way... Piracetam helps me with my ADD attention span. Ever think that maybe you have ADD, and were self medicating with stimulants to cure the problem...? Thats what I was doing. Now I'm on Adderall and things are super.
 
well i was in ur situation lil over a year ago although nothing to ur extent. And the one thing that made me happy again was when i got into weight lifting. So you should try and find a constructive hooby that makes u feel better about urself. And if ur posting here bodybuilding is a good one. Now the only drugs i need to keep me happy are my fina and test ! :D
 
mvmaxx said:


I beg to differ.



...sorry couldn't resist. :FRlol: :FRlol: ;)
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hey asshole i said "FEEL" not " I AM" damn it!

arn't you supposed to be counting something right now? ? ? BACK TO WORK!
 
XXXL said:


hey asshole i said "FEEL" not " I AM" damn it!

arn't you supposed to be counting something right now? ? ? BACK TO WORK!
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ROFLMAO :lmao: :lmao: Ok after reading your last e-mail I KNOW you are not 100%. Two strippers want to party and you'd rather be surfin EF. Oh gbus! :rolleyes: Why couldn't I have YOUR life before I was married. :rolleyes:


BTW, you suck! :doublefi:
 
If you were on E for Several years bro you've probably done some other shit since x is ussually a combo of other drugs. Many times more than 65% of the time DXM is substituted fro x. Do research on that and it causes brain lesions and many other sides
that may be your problem...
 
e use

I was a heavy E user in 87-90. Went through lock down conditions at a psyc ward for a few months, was taking a myriad of anti-psychotic drugs as well as buspar, prozac, lithium. It took me a while to get "leveled off" but eventually I became better and now have a good full time job, a wife, and a child. Sometimes it takes a while to find the right mix after a prolonged drug abuse period. I see a psycopharmacologist to help me with my issues. He doesn't do the "therapy" he just prescribes the meds. I have cut way back on the meds that I am taking and am doing good now. The answer is to find a doctor you trust, take your medicine as prescribed, get plenty of sleep, have a good diet, and stay away from the "bad" drugs, and lots of prayer. I hope this helped a little.

Trace3
 
I want you to notice one thing that all these brothers have in common with their story; It takes time.

If something is broke, lets get to work fixing it. That has always been my attitude, and I think you should think that way about your situation. You are down bro, don't be out.

Get some medical help, and if you need some help with your self-esteem know this; With this thread you have singlehandedly caused a great number of people to quit using e.

Now get your ass in the gym and lift like a fucking bull! If your mind needs some time to heal right now, you might as well get as big as a silverback gorilla while that's happening. Lift! AHRRG!

Seriously, keep your chin up. There's alot of people pulling for you. You will make it. I've gotta go find some 140 lb. dumb bells, late.

ZAP
 
I have a good friend that messed himself up with a year of heavy pot/extacy use....with a few weeks of coke snorting in there as well. He's clean now, his mental capacity is back to where it was before....and he never used any psychiatric drugs to get things back to normal. However, it took him a full year of being perfectly clean to allow his brain to 'heal'. Nerves are famously slow for healing time, so don't get discouraged just yet...and DON'T rush out and jump on a bunch of drugs that you may not require. Just live clean and healthy, and give it a few more months. Eat well, hit the gym, and try to stimulate your brain as much as possible (reading...memory games...maybe even buy one of those SAT prep workbooks and go over some math that you haven't used in years). Give your body the opportunity to heal itself...we are far more resilient organisms than doctors lead us to believe sometimes. Remember: doctor's don't make any money off of people who allow themselves to heal naturally! Best of luck man.
 
In defense of ADD no one really knows what it is or its essential nature in the biochemistry in the brain. But to close your mind and say its an excuse for stupid people is very IGNORANT. Some of the greatest minds in history are now to be believed to have had ADD. Some one with this classification thats really all it is is able to hyper focus in things that they enjoy and under focus in things that they dont.

Personally I have been classified with this. It is quite annoying at times when sitting in class listening to professors lecture and all I can think about is the girl next to me and how many different ways i could have fun with her. anyway. I do exploit this classification inside the college system to get professors notes, and untimed testing. but anyway

TOO CALL SOMEONE STUPID BECAUSE THEY THEMSELVES DO NOT HAVE A FIRM UNDERSTANDING OF A SUBJECT IS COMPLETE IGNORANCE MY BROTHER.
 
drveejay11 said:


Totally agree!

Also, simultaneously...look into the following:

5-htp (aids with depression and your body may lost it's ability to manufacture this d/t the beans!)
sam-e (over-all well-being/mood enhancer)
tyrosine (for overall neurotransmitter support)
Inositol (aids w/ deppression)

----don't waste $ on St. John's Wort---It's bunk!

And DON'T forget the prayers!
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Hey bro---did you not read this!!! Im teling ya---try it! You should definitely try the nutritional approach PRIOR to taking more Rx medications!

Good luck---God bless you.
 
THis guy has serious psychiatric problems... sorry fellas, but "nutritional supplements" are not going to work. He needs to be under the care of a good psychiatrist. That means DRUGS. And that means psychotherapy.

He needs HELP. And this isn't really the place to get it. About the only useful info you can get here... is that you should exercise. Good destressor for the mind.

Prayer? Nutritional supplements? Have you guys ever known ANYONE with a serious mental illness? Apparently you haven't. Why is it that people obsessed with strength have to subject themselves to great pain by not getting the help they need... because needing help with mental problems is "weak?" Its a stupid stigma, and if he listens to you guys touting only prayer and vitamins, he's FUCKED.

Work with your mental health professionals.
 
OK
#1 5htp is the poor uneducated mans answer for protecting the brain to serotonin burnout.

ltryptophan---->5htp------>serotonin = sleep after mdma use or lsd


#2 mental illness is carried genetically and can be brought out by certain emotional pain example post traumatic stress disorder (vietnam vets) or Drugs because the fuck your brain up biochemically and just as roids can give you gyno or make you bald. Its all the roll of the genetic dice and your predisposition.

#3 SSRI's are the only proven method of dealing with ecstacy caused depression. Prozac Paxil and Zoloft have been proven to POSSIBLY regrow burnt out serotonin neurons in some individuals.

#4 Many people on this board including me have mixed feelings about ssri's as a treatment for depression. BUT because the MDMA possibly brought out the depression than this should, would and will be the proper medication that the psychiatrist will perscribe.

Everyone who has taken XTC please go to this site I find It provides more than enough info and medical abstracts concerning every possible recreational drug and how it can affect you

http://www.biopsychiatry.com


about mdma protectction using prozac

http://mdma.net/protect/prozac.html

this site explains how sustained use of ssri's can regrow damged brain cell sites

http://biopsychiatry.com/antidepressants/index.htm

hope thi is helpful to all you E TARDS
 
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have you tried an SSRI, or discussed this with a psychiatrist? There are ways of minimizing the neuro-toxitity of Rec. use, but; in laymans terms, chronic use can lead to a degradation of serotonin receptors.


here are some good, peer-reviewed articles, look under MDMA on the main page then scroll down. hope this helps friend and for what it is worth, i think you should give zoloft/prozac or any SSRI a chance for at least 2months consistently.

http://www.erowid.org
 
While excessive use of X can lead to a temporary depression, what you are describing is a little bit different than serotonin depletion. If you were predisposed to depression, then excessive usage would have a more dramatic impact, of course. The fact is that your serotonin will replenish itself over time, and even in the most drastic cases just a few weeks is enough time, provided that the mechanism itself is not damaged. Now, high doses of X at once cause more damage than low doses over time. Case in point...I have used X for twelve years, but I do not use it excessively, nor do I use high doses. The years that I used high doses (200+mg/night) I had a more difficult time with short term memory.

The suggestion to seek medical advice has pros and cons. Right now there is a hysterical and unjustified attitude towards MDMA in general, and doctors tend to overstate the ACTUAL damage that is done by this drug. Some damgae is done, but it is significantly less than the damage done by average alcohol consumption.

Many here will begin constructing an argument against the last statement, but facts about this are readily available. May I suggest that you join the discussion boards at bluelight.nu and see what advice and insight is offered there. Often the worst place to get advice is from a doctor who has only READ about the drug. Remember, there is no substitute for experience.

The main problem you are exhibiting at present is simply low self esteem. You are punishing yourself for drug use, and excusing laziness by citing a fictional state of damage to your mind. I know about this, because I have tried that too.

Your mind can convince you of just about anything. Best way to counteract that is to TAKE CONSTRUCTIVE ACTIONS, regardless of how you FEEL.

It is what you DO that will overpower what you FEEL.

Doing nothing is the road to a quick death, both spiritually and physically.

For starters, read THE SPIRIT MOLECULE (about dmt), and then see what thoughts occupy your mind about this issue in general.
 
40butpumpin said:
Man just pray, it works. I'm NOT kidding.
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I agree..if you don't already have a relationship with GOD, start one now, and Pray for some time..God has always pulled me out of a jam when i needed help...a jam that no one could fix...
 
bro if you feel your having trouble with memory...pick up a book for real. I went through the same thing about 4 years ago and started to read to try to train my brain back to normal. I had horrible memory but now I think I am back to normal....stubborn and just want to remember what I want:D :D .
About the depression...I recommend dbol and test:D :D
 
Re: All that I do is think and think think

hardone899 said:
I need to stop thinking about the future and past and just enjoy myself. How do I become a happy person?
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How does one become a happy person? Well, really it is a choice in most cases. Happiness comes within ourselves and not in the form of a pill or powder. Happiness is a conscious decision we make that dictates our well-being. Look at the positive aspects of your life, focus on those and take some excellent advice from these posts.

"We are what we think
All that we are arises with our thoughts
With our thoughts we make the world,
Speak or act with a pure mind and happiness will follow you, as your shadow, unshakable"

Buddha
 
Can a neurologist tell me if i have done damage?

It seems as though my current psychiatrist just prescribes anti- depressants and mood stabilizers which does not help to fix any brain damage that i may have caused. Would going to a neurologist be a better choice? thanks, Jay
 
Re: Can a neurologist tell me if i have done damage?

hardone899 said:
It seems as though my current psychiatrist just prescribes anti- depressants and mood stabilizers which does not help to fix any brain damage that i may have caused. Would going to a neurologist be a better choice? thanks, Jay
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GET OVER THE BRAIN DAMAGE BULLSHIT, DUMBFUCK!

Thats harsh, but you need a slap in the face. Re-read some of these posts. Your problem isn't brain damage. Your problem is that you haven't done shit with your life in several years, and you are clinically depressed and have a bad self image.

Hiding behind this brain damage bullshit is harmful. Give it up, and WORK to make yourself better, with the help of a psychotherapist, a psychiatrist, and weights. Pick up a book.
 
supertech69 said:
I hope all of you reading this tuff are taking it to heart & learn something from it. It's not good to do any of the recreational drugs, stay away from them, they cause nothing but problems. I grew up around drugs & a lot of my family still to this day have drug problems, including my mother. It breaks my heart to see them all messed up. There's a reason they call it "dope" Drugs are nothing to mess with.
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couldn't have said it better myself, bro.
 
the answer is here...

i have done a decent amount of ecstacy and its been during recent times. the truest thing about the drug is that its the BEST thing in the world, and its the WORST thing in the world. my friend really fucked up his life from overdoing it with that stuff though. he is now prescribed to a drug call EFEXOR. its a miracle drug for people who have done too much ecstacy. its one way to turn, but from what i hear, even though its prescription, its another addiction bc without it youre not happy. its really sick though, its like a fraction of E (not exactly but it raises seratonin levles) and legal and all that, so youre basically happy all the time and you forget about all the crap that e makes you think about all the time. drop me a PM if you want, i know my shit about e, as bad as that is to say. good luck though.

smartguy
 
The only thing that can save you now is GOD look for him seriously. I have seen worse cases, and when they find enlightenment with GOD their lives always change for the best.
 
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