I feel so fucking bad

[Strongbow]

Cindy, Feedz and Smurf thanks for the input. I honestly do want a relationship that works. I cant talk to women in a non sexual sense. I can't be honest about my feelings. It's like I went in this constant protective state of mind, I am trained to react, no emotion, no regret, and steer clear of situations that involve emotional attachment. It's like you see a bunch of dead kids, you ignore it cause it makes you weak and consumes your thoughts and you have no room for anything but acheiving the mark. I brought this shit back with me and I view everybody in my life as an obstacle to avoid, but there is really not a mark or a misson here to achieve. I understand things like this but my mind doesn't work like a normal every day persons. My mind doesn't even work like an average military persons mind, this is why I was able to do what I done, it's a fucked up state of being that not everyone can get to. Thats why there I was special, here I'm just a fucked up guy looking for the one person to love me past what I am. I don't know sometimes I think I'm just an asshole cause I have a half ass excuse to be one. regardless I don;t wanna hurt the people in my life anymore. I've all but stopped joosing and I'm serious about changing before it's too late.

 

[needtogetaas]

I know, I thought money solved all problems

surely there is someone I can pay to feel for me when its inconvenient or painful for me lol

I thought it did too damn it

 

[Strongbow]

I also bought me another 4door white z71 and a new F150 sitting on 20's. My whips ease my pain and Lil Beezy likes picking which whip to drive . I've pretty much put my heart and soul into my kids, they are the things that never get old to me. I enjoy watching them achieve their goals and become talented humble young adults. They have every aspect of their father that is good, and not one aspect of what is bad. I am thankful for that.

 

[Strongbow]

I thought it did too damn it

Glad to see you're here watching me break down emotionally while I'm not joosed to the gills. You got any Beastdrol I can have?

 

[-SD-]

lol I keep mistaking simply dave for SuperDave

Thats why he needs to change his fucking name already

 

[bigbassturd]

This event will forever be known as the fall of strong bow

Elders will talk about this for many generations to come

 

[wootoom]

Thats why he needs to change his fucking name already

change your name to Super Drago

 

[Strongbow]

This event will forever be known as the fall of strong bow

Elders will talk about this for many generations to come

I am not about to become warm and cuddley or let my bench fall under 500 pounds, so don't get this too twisted.

 

[bigpokey]

clomid is nuthin to fux with

 

[Strongbow]

God damn it can'y I just wanna be a better person, without being a poosie>