no problem man.. i am about your age too so its easy for me to see where you are coming from
i will tell you this.. when i was in my early 20's i went through a bad couple years where i was depressed (didn't know this at the time but looking back i know i was), my gf dumped me which made things worse.. my diet was very poor. lots of pizza, ice cream, red meat, oreo's, soda, sugars, chocolate/candy, boxed up foods.. my life was work and tv. no sex drive.
although i never tested my levels i would bet that they were very low during this time.. i was very bloated and carrying too much fat. when i was in my late teens i was an athlete so it was easy to transition back to the correct lifestyle.. been obsessed with fitness and nutrition since then and will never go back to that brief dark couple years. I will bet my test levels today off cycle are twice as high as they were in my early 20's.
Sounds like my life. Thinking back I bet it was < 400ng back in high school as well. I couldn't build muscle no matter what, had no sex drive, depressed, all the same symptoms I have now. I got hit a few times in the nuts when I was young, maybe that was it.
In any case, I think I'll get retested after this diet change (drastic increase in fat and eggs, atkins diet) and see if things improve. If not, I might just do my own. Life was that much better on cycle.... it seems like all my problems went away 30 minutes after my first sustanon pin. No more depression, low self esteem, shyness, lethargy, aches... and my lifts went up for the first time in years... (yeah years...).
Worst thing that could happen is I'm totally shutdown. But I'm so close to that now, it doesn't really seem like a downside.
Thanks again for the advice. Hearing from someone in a similar situation is so much more useful than my doctor saying I'm young and healthy and not to worry about anything.