You know what i fucking miss

[Bikini Mod]

True dat! She is a very pretty person. Both inside and out. She just has too many walls up and need help to break them down. I keep telling her that in private, but rag on her in public.

See? I can be nice.

5...4...3...2...

I understand a woman like the very pretty Ms Southern Muscle better than you know. People like she and I are very nice so we get treated poorly. Eventually a wall goes up that is near impossible to break down... But because our true nature is to be so warm, eventually we acquiesse.

The trick is for people like us to learn to make better choices of who it is that we trust and allow into our worlds.

 

[EnderJE]

I understand a woman like the very pretty Ms Southern Muscle better than you know. People like she and I are very nice so we get treated poorly. Eventually a wall goes up that is near impossible to break down... But because our true nature is to be so warm, eventually we acquiesse.

The trick is for people like us to learn to make better choices of who it is that we trust and allow into our worlds.

You're a nice person too. I have no idea why there's seems to be some bad mojo around you (or maybe its in my own mind); but you've always been a sweetheart to me.

Except when I was confused about "your little girl". lmao

 

[Frisky]

BM, im gonna find the website to the photographer that wants to shoot me. He found me, not even sure how but he did. LOL.

I was orange color due to the protan, had competed the day before, I am thinking im gonna do my shoot two days before the comp intead of after the comp.

thank you so much, I checked out your pics and i love the poses etc, He has some great ideas for what he wants to do this go round, his previous pics were really out there, exotic, differnt, which i love.

Lemme go find them

 

[Bikini Mod]

You're a nice person too. I have no idea why there's seems to be some bad mojo around you (or maybe its in my own mind); but you've always been a sweetheart to me.

Except when I was confused about "your little girl". lmao

Yikes... that "little gurl" comment creeped me out! Eeeeeeeeewwwwwwww! LOL

All the *blue meanies* come from a combination of things - internet bullshit that took on a life of its own and the fact that even though I am a very nice person who genuinely cares about people, I LIKE being provocative (that is one who likes to provoke thought) and am truly an odd individual. I have never "fit in" since I was little, used to get teased and beat up a lot (was also chubby and looked like a boy) so when I got to my early teens I realized that no matter what I was NEVER going to fit in. Since then I have been getting a rise out of pushing the envelope, I suppose.

I am not meanspirited. But if I am backed into a corner I will defend myself. I can dish it out, but as long as there is no below the belt shtuff - I can take it too. Eventually though, I will back off and just retreat because I get no pleasure out of hurting or being hurt.

 

[Bikini Mod]

BM, im gonna find the website to the photographer that wants to shoot me. He found me, not even sure how but he did. LOL.

I was orange color due to the protan, had competed the day before, I am thinking im gonna do my shoot two days before the comp intead of after the comp.

thank you so much, I checked out your pics and i love the poses etc, He has some great ideas for what he wants to do this go round, his previous pics were really out there, exotic, differnt, which i love.

Lemme go find them

It is best to shoot either just before a competition (lean but not so lean that your face is drawn) or about a week after, when your face and muscles have filled out.

A good rule of thumb - shoot when you are about 15-17%bf. You will be defined without looking sickly gaunt.

I'll put the rest of the pics from that shoot in my gallery for you darlin' so you can get an idea of what we did. The gauze shots were first and more posed. I didnt start dancing around till two outfits later - the end of the shoot when I was wearing the bikini. There is one image of me dancing w/my hands above my head smiling, one of my personal favs because the look on my face, I feel, captures my true nature.