You guys have been great

[uamaverick]

Just go to OKCupid and hit up that dude who won't murder you.

 

[nefertiti]

I don't have anything in common with most Christian men. I know more about the bible than they do and they're boring.

lol....I often don't either. I don't have much in common with a lot of the women at my church either - We interact in church, in small group, in various fellowship and volunteering settings, but not outside of that (except for one girl, who is my closest friend down here). But that's why I emphasized a similar background to you, not necessarily someone who has perfectly walked the walk (or pretends to have) their whole life.

But anyhoo, not something you even need to remotely be worried about right now. You need to take care of yourself and Abbey, that's it.

 

[cindylou]

I'm beginning to think our javaguru had no intention of ever meeting me and is one of those guys that just throws out the L word because it means nothing to him. lol.... oh well. Lesson learned.

 

[cindylou]

lol....I often don't either. I don't have much in common with a lot of the women at my church either - We interact in church, in small group, in various fellowship and volunteering settings, but not outside of that (except for one girl, who is my closest friend down here). But that's why I emphasized a similar background to you, not necessarily someone who has perfectly walked the walk (or pretends to have) their whole life.

But anyhoo, not something you even need to remotely be worried about right now. You need to take care of yourself and Abbey, that's it.

You're right. I was being reckless with my heart in the first place just giving it to some guy I've never met with serious issues like that. What the fuck is wrong with me? It's like I enjoy tourturing myself...I wasn't ready to get involved in anything..I didn't realize I was so self destructive.

 

[miplank]

I'm beginning to think our javaguru had no intention of ever meeting me and is one of those guys that just throws out the L word because it means nothing to him. lol.... oh well. Lesson learned.

Guys will say anything to get at the pussy.

 

[miplank]

I don't have anything in common with most Christian men. I know more about the bible than they do and they're boring.

 

[the.gladiator1987]

You're right. I was being reckless with my heart in the first place just giving it to some guy I've never met with serious issues like that. What the fuck is wrong with me? It's like I enjoy tourturing myself...I wasn't ready to get involved in anything..I didn't realize I was so self destructive.

lol nothing is wrong with you, you just like someones company even if its over the internet. ur not the first person to ever do this, theres nothin wrong with meeting someone over the internet and starting to like them IMO. but the way it ended for you makes u think that ur stupid for doing it but really ur not, u criticize urself too much cindy

 

[nefertiti]

You're right. I was being reckless with my heart in the first place just giving it to some guy I've never met with serious issues like that. What the fuck is wrong with me? It's like I enjoy tourturing myself...I wasn't ready to get involved in anything..I didn't realize I was so self destructive.

Beating yourself up like this isn't any good either. The heart does what it will...in spite of the brain knowing better, sometimes. That voice that's beating you up is the same one that will tempt you to break your promise to stop drinking, so the best thing you can do for yourself right this minute is let go of any anger directed at yourself. Forgive yourself for falling, for the mistakes you made while drunk, give yourself a clean slate to start putting one foot in front of the other and move on. All that ugliness directed at yourself will only slow you down.

 

[miplank]

I think what nef is trying to say is make fun of java instead.

 

[just...v]

You're right. I was being reckless with my heart in the first place just giving it to some guy I've never met with serious issues like that. What the fuck is wrong with me? It's like I enjoy tourturing myself...I wasn't ready to get involved in anything..I didn't realize I was so self destructive.

There is nothing wrong with you. The "what if's" or "could be's" are extremely seductive. Even if you think you have a handle on it, reality hits and you realize that you have a handle on nothing.