I’m only a lurker here and only been so for a few weeks, but this topic is really quite insightful and is fun to read what motivates others. Well here’s me.
I used to be really active when I was 17-20, I did Kickboxing, circuit training and some limited weight training, I also played Squash and Swam. I enjoyed it immensely, a year later I had moved across the country and stopped doing all those things as I wasn’t around my friends anymore and the “habit” had been broken. For a couple of years I turned into a slouch and started playing computer games and watching tv more. I was still slim and didn’t put on weight but I lost lean body mass and put on fat.
I always spoke about how I “used” to be fit and looked good and that got me annoyed at myself as I was always saying how I “USED” to be. Not knowing anyone who lifted or went to the gym I had no motivation from others but I knew a couple guys online (through a computer game) who lifted and chatting with them helped motivate me.
One day I started training, I didn’t care what anyone thought of the pale skinny guy trying to lift weights I just kept going and lifting. When people I knew started commenting on how I was getting a lot bigger I smiled inward knowing that I was succeeding. It was good to get some nice comments and used them as a little motivation knowing that I was making a difference to myself.
I now lift purely for myself, It’s kind of my hobby, it’s something I look forward to and something I can do where nothing else in the world matters to me. When I am lifting I don’t give a second thought about how my car was crashed into the other day or how I am unhappy in my current job I don’t think about all the shitty things that happen to me, all that matters is beating what I did last time on the weight I am lifting, it’s pure escapism.
I built myself up to a mediocre 200lbs from a slim yet out of shape 165lbs, I feel good about myself for it and only want to improve. It’s my project, my way of achieving something that no one else knows about, something that I can win at and feel good about.
Sorry for the essay, you really wouldn’t want to see a long version.
