Great article.
I know the reason why I do it. I have no choice in the matter. I have to compete. I have to get stronger. I have to do these things. I feel like if I am not getting bigger and stronger then I am dying, and dying at this age is not an option.
I have to be what I envisioned myself to be when I grew up. When I was a kid, I had a vision of what I would look like and how strong I would be when I grew up. I cannot disappoint that kid.
That kid went through some horrible shit, and the only thing that kept him together sometimes was knowing that when he grew up he would be so big, so strong, and so tough that nobody, and I mean nobody would ever be able to hurt him again.
I can't let a kid like that down. That kid worked his ass off to get me to where I am. Now it is my responsibility to carry the load the rest of the way. Got to live up to what that kid expected.
Got to eat, got to drink, got to sleep, and GOT TO TRAIN.
Just the way it is. No choice in the matter. Got to take care of your kids. Sometimes the kid you have to take care of is yourself from 20 years ago.
B.