Thanx Spongebob!..... but MY heart is not the one who needs the golden arrows LOL!
I seem to always choose a man who does not return my afffection.... hehehhehe
See, I have grown and matured lightyears over the past several months. I am finally beginning to love myself more and more each day. I am getting stronger physically, mentally and emotionally.... God willing I will be OUT of divorce limbo HELL in the next several weeks; come hell or high water the ppwrk will be signed. Hopefully, all parties concerned will use their heads (leave the hurt feelings at home) and come to a fair settlement BEFORE trial, if not.... oh well, either way - then I can REALLY move with my life. Anyone who has been through this understands what I mean.
The man I love (as much as I am capable of loving right now) is THE FIRST man that I have ever bestowed my affection on who TRULY DESERVES IT. He is decent, unselfish, kind, has an AMAZING strength of character, is an UNBELIEVABLE father, and I believe a great capacity to love - I have seen him demonstrate this with his family and friends.... hell, even with those he hardly knows.
If he was a loser, I could cut him loose in the blink of an eye. (I got REAL good at this - have cut more than a few out with little or NO hesitation over the past several months.) But he IS NOT....
I truly do not understand what is up with him. I don't. All I can do is go about my life and be the best person I can be for MYSELF and MY CHILDREN. If he comes around, my prayers will have been answered. If not, then I have to believe that there was a good reason and I will consider myself quite fortunate to have had him in my life .... AT ALL, regardless of how brief a moment in time it was.