Who here suffers from real "Bigorexia"?

[halfaclue]

I am so there...got out of college 6' 185lbs...wanted to be 225 so bad...made it to 225 and wanted to be 240 because that would be huge...made it to 240 and then 250 seemed better...Now I am 265 and I told my girlfriend I don't really feel that big. I'm doomed!

 

[dzuljas]

i catch myself looking at myself in the mirror every couple of hours. I am also very self-conscious with taking my shirt off in front of other people because i have a lot of stretch marks around my chest/shoulder/bicep area

 

[slat1]

I hear your pain guys... Same story. Got out of college 6'3" 130lbs. No muscle and fat! Cut way down to 177 about 4 to 5% body fat. I am up to 240 now with about 11 to 12% fat. 250 would be better... I think when I get there 260 will be coming into my head. Its funny... I feel small, yet I think I'm fat too. I saw a picture from a few years ago when I was at 188 and about 6% bf. I looked great. I was thinking how great I must have felt then. In reality at the time I was probably depressed thinking I wish I was 240... where I am now.
Its funny too. You see all these big guys in the gym. You would think they would be confident... yet... all they do is look at everyone else the whole time they are working out. I think a lot of people suffer from body dismorphia... and they think girls have it bad!

 

[Nighthawkk]

I hear your pain guys... Same story. Got out of college 6'3" 130lbs. No muscle and fat! Cut way down to 177 about 4 to 5% body fat. I am up to 240 now with about 11 to 12% fat. 250 would be better... I think when I get there 260 will be coming into my head. Its funny... I feel small, yet I think I'm fat too. I saw a picture from a few years ago when I was at 188 and about 6% bf. I looked great. I was thinking how great I must have felt then. In reality at the time I was probably depressed thinking I wish I was 240... where I am now.
Its funny too. You see all these big guys in the gym. You would think they would be confident... yet... all they do is look at everyone else the whole time they are working out. I think a lot of people suffer from body dismorphia... and they think girls have it bad!

Damn bro, that's some impressive change!

 

[bigdho]

I hear your pain guys... Same story. Got out of college 6'3" 130lbs. No muscle and fat! Cut way down to 177 about 4 to 5% body fat. I am up to 240 now with about 11 to 12% fat. 250 would be better... I think when I get there 260 will be coming into my head. Its funny... I feel small, yet I think I'm fat too. I saw a picture from a few years ago when I was at 188 and about 6% bf. I looked great. I was thinking how great I must have felt then. In reality at the time I was probably depressed thinking I wish I was 240... where I am now.
Its funny too. You see all these big guys in the gym. You would think they would be confident... yet... all they do is look at everyone else the whole time they are working out. I think a lot of people suffer from body dismorphia... and they think girls have it bad!

I have a simmaliar story. 4 years ago I weighed 150 at 6'4.Also no muscle or fat. I thought 200 would be great then 220 then 240 then 260 Im now at 265 15% b.f now my goal is to be 280 at 8% b.f. Its neverending, once I hit one goal I just up it to something else. I have 20 inch arms and to me I dont look any different than I did with 15 inch arms. At first I was to skinny I wanted to be bigger now Im bigger but now Im to fat. I feel your pain bro I just try to remember its all in my head.

 

[bicepts101]

I am so there...got out of college 6' 185lbs...wanted to be 225 so bad...made it to 225 and wanted to be 240 because that would be huge...made it to 240 and then 250 seemed better...Now I am 265 and I told my girlfriend I don't really feel that big. I'm doomed!

cut some fat, you'll feel better.

i guessing you're around 15%

 

[donsj]

I had this experience, after a couple of months of working out really hard in what was my first cycle after a career in running and bicycle racing, I had made some nice gains adding 100lbs to my bench and taking a lot of fat off, my waist got really small. I decided to shave my chest and looked in the mirror and was like "holy s---" I thought I looked really good. 2 months later after the scale and tapemeasure and increasing max lifts even more I would look in the mirror and wonder where that other guy went, the one I saw in the mirror 2months before. It was clear I was leaner and stronger but I couldn't see it in the mirror.

 

[theoak01]

I have this for sure,Im 5'6 just under 200lbs and to top it off Im eating less than 1700 cals a day doing cardio 5 times a week on top of training 4 days and I am still gaining lbm,the mirror is changing for the better yet I feel like a fucking twig

 

[bicepts101]

I had this experience, after a couple of months of working out really hard in what was my first cycle after a career in running and bicycle racing, I had made some nice gains adding 100lbs to my bench and taking a lot of fat off, my waist got really small. I decided to shave my chest and looked in the mirror and was like "holy s---" I thought I looked really good. 2 months later after the scale and tapemeasure and increasing max lifts even more I would look in the mirror and wonder where that other guy went, the one I saw in the mirror 2months before. It was clear I was leaner and stronger but I couldn't see it in the mirror.

yeah i think i have come to the conclusion that we need to rely on other people to tell us we are getting bigger and looking better. anytime someone give me a compliment or says damn you got big, it makes me feel better for a short period of time.

thats why if you have access to posting pics you should. it definatly helps.

 

[IJ26]

I will be the same way although Im not very big now. Im way bigger than when I started and people say they wish they could be my size but I sure as hell dont see it.