chris302001 said:
I was just thinkin.........you know that sinking feeling in your chest or stomach when your sad and stuff?
I wonder if that's a parasympathetic response sending pulses down your vagus nerve.....
My depression comes and goes, and my take is, if you are not depressed once and a while, then you are absolutely fucking boring...
That said, it blows, the one thing that may help but is not easy, and does not operate through the mechanisms that you are taught of cause and effect, which I have to adapt to in June again, is to treat it like deep tissue massage... it is very painful, and the more you tighten up and clench up your muscles, the less pain you feel, however, you also miss out on the healing of the muscle by avoiding the pain.
My point is, instead of distracting yourself, take say 20-30 minutes out of your schedule and just reflect on how you feel, notice how repetitive the thoughts are, how their transmission is linked to certain sensations found, where are the sensations located? Are they located in your chest, to the right of your heart... the point of the excercise, which is very awkward, and not to be attempted with the expectation of a definite, instant result, is that you learn to feel who you and this develops a tiny bit of awareness... in a short period of time, the difficulties that are surrounding you will reveal what is truly wrong and what needs to be done. Moreover, when the depression passes, you will uncover what is really important to you. You already know this, but you will feel and know it. Nothing beats the knowledge of the heart. I suspect you already know what is really bothering you...
My main point is that depression is a huge part of life, especially today, I have been feeling off as well lately, however, the best way to deal with it is to confront it through surrendering to the pain, and through this awkward encounter with this pain, you are able to let go of it... what I am suggesting take alot of energy, will, and courage, things you already possess... and alot of emotions will come up, like sadness, guilt, self doubt, in my experiences alot of shit I can't even describe...
Moreover, this is not an easy exercise; very clumsy, very awkward, and generally compared to others, I suck at it and get easily distracted, however, the effort put in... does come back through results.... not immediately, but they will come if you are sincere... by going inward, through what we label as intuition, expand outward.
That said my friend, anyway you can alleviate the pain, I am for, and yeah smoking out is the last thing you wanna do, or drink, but my thoughts go out to ya bro.
Pain itself destroys pain. Suffering itself frees man from suffering, I have yet have the discerning feeling that confirms this statement, however, some part of me knows it is true...