um...wow.
so i broke down and e-mailed her. i deleted her out of my phone but i had her email
pretty much just asked her what happened and why she disappeared when we were dating.Mentioned that it was awkward seeing her but kinda nice. I let her know i had moved on but seeing her brought some feelings back for a sec. wasn't SWVish in the least, just an genuine assessment of the situation.
this was her response
"<my name> I just don't want to be reminded of that whole fase of my life. I'm trying to forget about it...it's nothing personal, you have the qualities any girl would love in a guy...I'm just trying to move-on, it wasn't exactly a fase I'm proud of and I'd like to avoid it. Thank you for the nice times and things you said...but like I said, just trying to move-on and forget the past because that past included many painful moments that I don't want to remember (that had nothing to do with you!), I'm sorry you got caught in it because you truly are a good person, but I just want to put it behind me. "
She mentioned to me in the past she had trust issues and really bad relationship problems and she was afraid of getting hurt. things moved really fast with us
despite what she said,i still think it went south when i started treating her more like my "girl"..i was SWVish for like a couple of days.
oh well. better that than not knowing what happened. chapter closed