I'm new here, so I'm giving respect - but while I don't know the context of the "I don't want to get big" question......it seems pretty legit. As an endurance athlete I know that a lot of us are using steroids because it helps the body recover from hard efforts....has been shown to increase red blood cell production, and also maintains lean muscle. So maybe you didn't know this....but it does have other applications than just body building. Then again myabe I'm missing the point - if so...my apologies.